Dangeroustimetraveldonut - Leticia

This is exactly what it feels like when I say "I'm just really out of it" as a neurodivergent person:

(Not my picture)

so i indeed got a cold and the only thing that i did yesterday and today was my internship work and slept through my free time :/ but thats okay considering it is not an usual thing.

day 2 / 14th of september/ wednesday

• internship work

i decided to do this 100 days of productivity challenge because ive been feeling like a zombie lately and coincidentally a lot of this kind of post have been coming up in my feed. so let's try it!

day 1 / 13th of september / tuesday

things i need to get done:

• all of my internship work

• finish the chapter im reviewing for my uni lecture

• organize my f*cking room cause i cant find anything in this mess

things i want to get done but thats ok if i dont because im coming down with something which is making me extra tired:

• study math for college applications

• read that tree book i'm currently reading or read that book about revolutions that i haven't started yet

i'll be back when the day is over to check what i managed to complete!

see ya later kisses and cheese <3

little note: this is also a little exercise for my writing skills in english because it's been a while since i wrote anything in this language. if you notice any spelling or grammar mistakes please!!! let!!! me!!! know!!!! portuguese is my mother tongue so it would be interesting if i could practice some other language since i dont have the time anymore to actually study my target languages :/ (french and spanish and i would always consume some material with more advanced words in english)

no i don't want to use your ai assistant. no i don't want your ai search results. no i don't want your ai summary of reviews. no i don't want your ai feature in my social media search bar (???). no i don't want ai to do my work for me in adobe. no i don't want ai to write my paper. no i don't want ai to make my art. no i don't want ai to edit my pictures. no i don't want ai to learn my shopping habits. no i don't want ai to analyze my data. i don't want it i don't want it i don't want it i don't fucking want it i am going to go feral and eat my own teeth stop itttt

One thing that has been making me feel truly miserable is my lack of will to study/work. Working I kind of understand due to my discontent with my career paths, but when it comes to studying I don’t really have that many excuses. I hate my university, but I love my major. So, it makes me downhearted to see how unmotivated I am nowadays to read about economy and related contents. I decided to change this. Everyday for the next weeks, I’m going to be studying for 30 minutes, at least or at most. And the strategy is: no fun pomodoro. I used to think that “Animedoro” was the best study technique out there, but recently I noticed how it’s a tricky trail for me. Since I have been lacking motivation, what I do is work for 20/30 minutes then grab my phone and do infinite scrolling or get lost in a Sex and the City episode. And I cannot make me stop. Today I stumbled into a video that talked exactly about this problem. Instead of doing something fun when you end a focus cycle, do something boring, that makes studying or working seems fun next to it. Or, and here’s my perception, something that doesn’t stimulate your brain in the wrong way. Here are the things that I believe requires thinking, so I don’t lose my focus flow (they are not necessarily boring to me, but some of them tires me quickly which makes me give up on them even quicker):

Reading the news.

Watch someone that motivates me to study/work.

Watch/listen to a podcast about something useful.

Sudoku video.

Math problems videos.

Solve a sudoku problem.

Read a few pages of one of the dense books I’m probably reading at the moment (I'm a slow reader so I know it won't fully distract me heheh)

If working, read an econ paper or something related to.

Or just do nothing. Go for a walk. Make some pancakes. Grab water and contemplate it.

<3 and if doesn't work, that's okay. I'll try something new <3

Here's the video in question:

Where do you see yourself in 5 years?

Look buddy, i’m just trying to make it to Friday.

can't watch a movie normal i have to pause it fifty times for no reason. i am letting it marinate

The worst part about Liam Payne dying is that people are posting about “the switch up is crazy”

Like no. He was an abuser and made horrible decisions, but nobody wanted him to die. He was getting hate for an INCREDIBLY valid reason, but we all recognized that he needed mental and physical help. He needed to go to rehab. He needed to get away from drugs and alcohol and improve upon himself away from the public. No one wanted him to die.

We’re not mourning the life of an abuser, we are mourning the part of him that we adored and looked up to for a massive part of our childhood/ teenage years. He was a huge part of how I was introduced to my love of music. And yes, he did horrible things and made horrible decisions and over the last few years has been anything but admirable, but none of us wanted this.

Maya didn’t want this. And everyone saying that it’s her fault can actually go burn in hell. She likely already blames herself enough. She likely already wishes she hadn’t spoken up about it out of the guilt that she likely feels. You guys commenting all over the socials about how this is her fault and “are you happy now?” Are actually horrible people.

A 7 year old boy just lost his father. A woman just lost her long term boyfriend. Two parents just lost their son. Several young children just lost their uncle. Show some fucking respect. Joking about it and hating on people who had nothing to do with what happened is not doing anything but twist the knife for the people who this has ACTUALLY effected.

Finding old music you used to love is like getting back in touch with an old friend.