Pairing: Sirius Black x Fem!Reader
Word Count: 2.4k
Warnings: Language, angst, anxiety? Let me know if there's more!
A/N đ Part one is finally here, thank you for all being so patient with me and I promise the future parts will be better!
Interaction keeps me motivated to write, so I would love to hear your thoughts!
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The Great Hall is thrumming with activity as the anticipation of the new school year sets in.Â
Sunlight pours through the windows, casting a warm, golden hue onto the tables and cold walls. The clinking of cutlery melds with the lively chatter and bursts of laughter that permeate the hall. Students eagerly catch up with their friends after the summer break, their faces illuminated with excitement and anticipation for the year ahead.
"I donât know if Iâm quite ready for this year." You admit softly. Lily, seated to your left, casts a surprised glance in your direction. Your tone carries a hint of nervousness, a stark difference from your usual excitement for the new school year.
As seventh year begins, the reality of it all felt surreal, almost as if time had slipped through your fingers without warning. Contemplating life beyond Hogwarts seemed daunting, a foggy landscape you weren't quite prepared to navigate. The thought of a future without the familiar halls and comforting routines left you feeling unsettled. Questions about your path post-Hogwarts lingered causing anxiety to tighten in your stomach. The uncertainty of what lay ahead, and where your friendships would stand in the grand scheme of things, clouded your mind.
"Because this is the year you find your soulmate?" Marlene's question hung in the air, causing your stomach to sink even further.
Soulmates were tethered by a thread, an intangible connection that tightens with proximity, drawing them closer by an irresistible pull. As their 18th birthday approached, the magnetic pull between soulmates intensified, drawing them closer together in an undeniable bond.Â
Even in their younger years, soulmates could sense the faint tug of their connection, though it often was difficult to discern between fleeting infatuation and the unbreakable bond between soulmates. However, as the milestone birthday drew nearer, the pull became unmistakable, a magnetic force guiding them to their soulmate.Â
At least, that's what you've heard from those who have experienced it firsthand.
âI donât know if Iâm ready for that.â You confirm, and Lily sends you an understanding look. Neither of you had found your soulmates, while Marlene had found her soulmate in Dorcas.
The timing of finding one's soulmate varied greatly from person to person. Some discovered theirs early on in life, while others didn't find theirs until mere days before their 18th birthday. It all depended on the person and how open they were to the connection.
"We'll be going through it together." Lily says, her smile soft as she bumped her shoulder against yours. It did offer some comfort. Lily Evans had been your best friend since first year, and the thought of her being by your side made the upcoming year feel a bit more bearable.
"What if James is your soulmate?" You ask, your tone laced with playful teasing. However, Lily's hopeful expression catches you off guard, prompting you to shift your gaze towards Marlene in shock. Across the table, Marlene and Dorcas appear just as taken aback by Lily's unexpected reaction. It's a stark contrast from the adamant denials she would have offered last year.
"Maybe he is." Lily says quietly, her tone nonchalant as she offers a simple shrug, as if what she just said isn't a big deal.
âAre you..When did this happen?â Dorcas asks, and you and Marlene eye Lily curiously.
Since the moment you met him, Lily had been skillfully evading James's advances, urging him to seek out his true soulmate rather than pursuing her. Despite Lily's dismissals, James remained steadfast in his belief that she was the one destined for him. Deep down, you sensed a potential soulmate connection between them, but you never brought up the subject with Lily, knowing she would vehemently deny the idea.
Lily looks up with feigned innocence, âWhat?â
Marlene sighs, âLily Evans, donât you dare play dumb. When did your feelings towards James change?âÂ
"I donât know. Over the summer, I guess, I realized Iâve been a bit unfair to him," She sighs. "Heâs been nothing but kind, and Iâve just blown him off. And honestly, he was on my mind most of the summer."
"Merlin, we've barely been here for two hours, and the soulmate bonds are already starting." Marlene grins, amused.
"I didn't say I thought he was mine!" Lily cries out.
"You said maybe. That heavily implies that you do." You chuckle at the panicked look on Lilyâs face, fully aware that she's going to be teased about this relentlessly.
"Have you felt a pull with him?" Dorcas asks, and Lily's cheeks flush with a delicate shade of pink.
âI mean, yes. But couldnât that just be the annoyance I feel towards him half the time?â Lily asks.
"With that logic, you and Sirius are soulmates." Marlene interjects, her grin mischievous as she takes a sip of her tea, her gaze fixed on you over the brim of her mug. Your expression sours at the mere mention of his name, a subtle shift in mood palpable in the air.
âThere is no way that Sirius Black is my soulmate.â You snark, the mere thought of Sirius causing your stomach to knot with intense emotion. Hatred, you conclude.
It's the mere mention of Sirius Black that tends to stir up the worst in you. His name alone triggers a cascade of emotions within you, igniting a visceral reaction that you struggle to contain. Just the thought of him is enough to set your nerves on edge, reminding you of past conflicts and tensions that still linger beneath the surface.
It's not as though you hadn't attempted to be friendly with Sirius. Shortly after your arrival at Hogwarts, James Potter had introduced himself to you and Lily in the Gryffindor common room. He was accompanied by Remus, and while James eagerly engaged Lily in conversation, you found yourself drawn to Remus, the two of you hitting it off. You chatted for what felt like hours, so engrossed in your conversation that you barely noticed Sirius and Peter entering the common room.
However, the moment your eyes landed on Sirius, it felt as though the air had been knocked out of your lungs. For a brief second you had wondered if he was your soulmate. Everything blurred into a hazy backdrop, your eyes unable to part from his figure.
Remus didnât miss the way you seemed to drift away from the conversation, your gaze fixed on Sirius as he made his way over to where you all were seated. You and Remus occupied the couch, while Lily and James were comfortable in their own armchairs. Sirius and Peter hovered nearby, a curious expression etched across their features, clearly unsure who the two unfamiliar girls engaged in conversation with their friends were.
Remus had introduced you while James and Lily remained preoccupied, not yet noticing the two boys, "Mates, this is Y/n," Remus had said, his warm smile welcoming.
Peter had been friendly and eager, extending his hand with enthusiasm as he shared a bit about himself. But Sirius remained silent, his expression etched with a subtle frown. When you attempted to engage him in conversation, he responded with curt one-word answers, leaving you feeling increasingly self-conscious, questioning what you might have done wrong.
Remus had assured you that Sirius wasn't usually like that, and he promised that the next time you saw him, he would likely be more talkative and outgoing. You clung to hope, eagerly anticipating a change in Sirius' demeanor, only to be met with disappointment when his behavior remained unchanged. In the company of others, he exuded friendliness, cracking jokes and radiating outgoing energy.Â
Yet, when his attention turned to you, he completely shifted, hardly communicating and barely sparing you a glance.
You couldn't figure out what you might have done wrong. From the moment you met Sirius, you had been nothing but friendly, offering a warm smile and introducing yourself with genuine enthusiasm. Lily, who shared many similarities with you, greeted Sirius in much the same manner, yet he responded to her without hesitation. It left you wondering: what had been so different about your interaction with him?
Over time, frustration crept in, and you found yourself growing increasingly sarcastic or curt in your interactions with him. Before long, your relationship devolved into incessant bickering and exchanging snide comments.
Any inkling that Sirius might be your soulmate was swiftly forgotten.
"Oi! Princess! You talking about me over there?" Sirius' voice cuts through the chatter, drawing your attention to the Marauders down the table. His cocky smirk meets your gaze, and for a fleeting moment, you wonder if he overheard your conversation. But he's too far away to have eavesdropped, yet close enough to call out to you, and his voice effortlessly grabs the attention of quite a few other students at the Gryffindor table.Â
The students in your year hardly flinch, accustomed to the heated banter that often erupted between you and Sirius. Observing the familiar fighting between you and Sirius was almost expected; it wouldn't have felt like the first day of school without it for some of the students.
âNot everything revolves around you, Black.â You retort, rolling your eyes at his arrogance. Anger begins to simmer within you, heat radiating through your body as frustration builds.
You assume he must have just noticed you, considering you've been had a peaceful morning so far. But little did you know, Sirius had fixed his gaze on you the moment he entered the hall, and he's been eager to get under your skin. Anything to capture your attention.
Sirius, undeterred, flashes a grin that seems to stretch from ear to ear. âSo mean already. Didnât you miss me? The months without you were unbearable.â He calls, his tone dripping with amusement, clearly deriving great enjoyment from riling you up.
âDo you really think I spend my free time thinking about you?â You're sending him an irritated frown, but your eyes are lit up with a fire that's reserved only for him. It's the same look you get every time the two of you fight, and he loves it.
"I think you do, princess. I think I drive you crazy.â He declares with that smug grin plastered on his face, igniting a burning sensation in your stomach.
You remain silent, too consumed by anger to muster a response. His words strike a chord because, deep down, you know he's right. He has a way of driving you to the brink of frustration. You have wracked your brain, relentlessly trying to decipher why he harbors such animosity towards you and where you might have gone wrong with him.
You're momentarily caught off guard, your mind racing to come up with a response that doesn't betray your irritation, much less let Sirius think he's gotten to you. Fortunately, Remus swiftly engages him in conversation, likely sensing the tension brewing on your face.
"I'm telling you, there's a connection there." Marlene insists, and you shoot her a glare, prompting a laugh to escape her lips.
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The initial night back at Hogwarts always proved the most challenging for you. It took a few nights before you could finally settle into the unfamiliar bed and drift off to sleep without difficulty. The weight of it being your final year lingered heavily in your mind, along with the daunting task of uncovering your soulmate.
Seated before the crackling fire, you enveloped yourself in the warmth of your blanket, captivated by the dancing of the flames. Your silent wish lingered in the air - that, perhaps, if you remained in this cozy atmosphere long enough, fatigue would gradually claim you.
"Up late thinking of me, princess?" Sirius's voice breaks the silence, causing your body to tense reflexively. You shoot him a glare over your shoulder as he settles into the floor beside you, his gaze fixed on the flickering flames instead of meeting yours.
"What are you doing?" You quip, your tone laced with irritation. Sirius glances in your direction, leaning back on his palms with a subtle smirk playing on his lips. Amusement dances in his eyes as he takes in your furrowed brows and the unmistakable look of irritation etched across your features.
âWarming up. Itâs rather cold in the dorm,â He says, before glancing down at the blanket thatâs wrapped around your figure. âCare to share? â
âGet fucked,â You huff, pulling the blanket tighter around your figure, your gaze fixed on the fireplace as you ignore Sirius's laughter, âWhy are you sitting here? Go somewhere else.â
âWhereâs the fun in that?â
âIâm not in the mood to deal with you.â You snark, your hopes of relaxing by the fire dashed by the unexpected disruption.
âAnd when are you?â Sirius's tone carries a teasing edge, and a mischievous grin tugs at his lips as he observes your bristling reaction.Â
He longs for you to turn and meet his gaze, to shoot him the scathing glare he's so accustomed to receiving.
You turn sharply, your eyes narrowing into thin slits as you fix them on Sirius, a silent warning brewing in your gaze. There she is, he thinks.
âGo somewhere else.â You repeat, staring Sirius down.
âNo.â He declares, shifting his position to squarely face you, leaving no doubt that he has no intention of backing down or leaving anytime soon.
âWhatâs your problem?â You grit out your words, and Sirius narrows his eyes at you as though you've struck a nerve. His reaction is swift, catching you off guard. While you and Sirius have always engaged in banter, he had never looked at you with such palpable hatred before.
âYou.â He snaps, his voice dripping with disdain, devoid of its usual teasing lilt that never fails to irk you. Instead, his expression morphs into one of genuine animosity, a stark departure from the usual banter that fuels your frustration.
âWhy? What have I ever done to you?â You're worked up now, your heart thumping with frustration as you pivot to fully face him. In your angered state, you miscalculate the proximity between you, and you're startled to find yourselves mere inches apart. Neither of you budges, both refusing to back away, as doing so would feel like conceding defeat.
Neither of you speaks, the air heavy with tension as you stare at each other through narrowed eyes, chests heaving with unresolved emotions. And in a heart-stopping moment, you feel itâthe undeniable tug, the unspoken connection between you.
Your mouth parts in surprise, caught off guard by the intensity of the moment. Before you can truly react, Sirius rises abruptly and strides back to his room, leaving you sitting in stunned silence by the fireplace.
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This halloween is just going to be a worldwide event of people walking around in adorable outfits saying âHi Barbie!â to each other. What a time to be alive.
I just saw the question about Gabriella asking her mother if her boobs will be as big as hers one day and it made me remember the Szene of the movie. And that made me thing of Gabriella asking that question her father Miguel instead
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"Papa?"
"Hm?" he was looking at his computer screen when Gabriela entered his office.
"Mama uses bras, right?"
His head whipped to face her, brown eyes staring at him with wonder.
"Uh, yes she does. Why?"
"Bras are used to hold big boobs right?"
He nodded
"Do you use one?"
He blinked at her words, as his face was trying to find the right emotion that fit the situation.
"I mean, you have big boobs as well."
Miguel sighed softly and put the laptop away.
"Do you have milk in there, like Mama?"
Miguel couldn't help but chuckle and shake his head.
"No, mi sol. It's different for men." He sat her on his thigh and ruffled her head softly.
"It's muscle."
"Do I have muscles?"
"Oh yeah, your body is full of them. Your face, arms, tummy, legs, even your tongue is a muscle."
"Really?" her nose scrunched up in wonder
"Really."
" So I will have muscles when I grow up?"
"Of course. If that's what you want."
Gabi smiled and left him alone. He just stared at her leaving, wondering where she was getting all these questions. He glanced at his chest and chuckled.
these porn ads really make my daily tumblr scrolls difficult & traumatizing asf
Miguel O'Hara x SpiderSun Reader
words: 3.7K
warnings: secret pregnancy trope, swearing, angst, heartbreak, grumpy/sunshine, smut
Part I Part II Part III (coming soon)
In your universe, you are known as the Sun Spider. It all started on a school field trip to a solar energy research center, where you were accidentally exposed to a spider that had been subjected to intense solar radiation. You woke up with a white-hot surge of power, and your life changed forever. You donned a suit of pure white, taking the name that reflected both your newfound abilities and the brightness you brought into the world: Spider-Sun.
Your ability to harness solar energy and transform it into powerful blasts or create protective shields made you a formidable superhero in your home city, Nea Yorkey. Your ability to bring light to even the darkest corners of your city earned you the love of its citizens.
However, everything changed when you were suddenly pulled into the Spider-Verse.
Upon arriving, you were greeted by the gruff leader of this interdimensional team of Spider-People, Miguel O'Hara. His reputation preceded him - the genius intellect, the imposing figure, the gruff demeanor. Everyone respected him, and some even feared him. You, on the other hand, were drawn to him. There was something about that guarded demeanor that called to your own sunny nature.
You became an integral part of the team, fighting off anomalies and working hard to maintain the balance in the Spider-Verse. And despite Miguel's stern exterior, you felt yourself falling for him.
One mission was particularly rough, and you found yourself alone with Miguel in a safe house, nursing your wounds. His usually stern face softened as he tended to your injuries. The distance that he usually maintained was nowhere to be seen.
"Thank you, Miguel," you whispered.
He looked at you, his usually hard eyes soft. "You fought well, mi sol."
There was a moment of silence, a strange tension hanging in the air. Then, Miguel leaned in, capturing your lips in a kiss that was filled with unexpected passion.
In that moment, you were not the Sun Spider, and he was not the Spider-Man 2099. You were just two people, seeking solace in each other.
Afterwards, as you laid side by side, Miguel turned to you, a serious look on his face. "This...this can't be more than what it is. Just...you know, stress relief," he muttered, his voice just above a whisper.
His words wounded you. Naturally, they did. He had reduced your relationship to mere stress relief, as if you were some object devoid of feelings. Yet, in spite of it all, you fell for him. Perhaps you were naive, even foolish, but you didn't care. You yearned for him and were ready to accept any fraction of affection he was willing to offer, no matter how small.
During the day, as you fought alongside him against the anomalies threatening the Spider-Verse, his attention toward you was sparse. He mostly shared only necessary information, barely making eye contact. Sometimes he didn't speak at all, and you and the rest of the team would receive mission orders and briefings from Lyla, his AI assistant.
But at night, when the two of you were alone, he became a different person. He'd whisper praises into your ear, telling you how exceptionally you fought, how much he desired you. He showed you his hidden vulnerability under the cover of darkness, the sheets their only witness. He'd gently stroke your hair and peppered your jaw and temple with kisses until you fell asleep, only for you to wake up the next morning to an empty, cold spot where he once lay.
This cycle - his coldness by day, and the fervor by night - repeated itself relentlessly for months.
And so, this is how you find yourself: disoriented, frenzied, and on the verge of tears, seated on the couch of your best friend, Peter B. Parker, in Earth-616. Cradled in your arms is his sweet daughter, Mayday, who, with her innocent touch, tries to console you. Yet her wide eyes dart anxiously to her father, reflecting her own alarm at your distress.
Peter rubs his chin thoughtfully. "Maybe we should wait until MJ gets home?" he suggests, then, with a furrowed brow, he asks, âHave you tried talking to Jess about this?â
You shake your head vigorously. "No, I haven't told anyone. I have no idea what to do," you confess, your voice breaking.
Peter, ever the caring friend, gently takes Mayday from your arms and sets her down. He turns back to face you with a sympathetic gaze. âDo you..eh.. know who the father is?â he inquires softly.
You shake your head again, even though deep down, you know the truth. âThe father is out of the picture. He doesnât know, and he never will because he doesnât want kids,â you whisper, fighting back tears.
As you and Peter sit down on the couch in his cozy living room, you find a sense of comfort being around him. His experience as both a superhero and a parent seems like it could be a beacon in this storm you're facing. The room is quiet, save for the soft ticking of a clock on the wall.
âYou know, Peter,â you begin, your voice almost a whisper. âIâm terrified. What if the baby has powers? How am I going to protect them, especially if...if I canât stop fighting anomalies?â
Peter looks thoughtful. âThatâs a valid concern. First, you should know that you donât have to do this alone. Thereâs a whole community of us, and we stick together. If the child does have powers, she or he will be badass like Mayday, right?â
You nod slowly but then anxieties pile on top of each other in your mind. âBut... how can I hide this? Nobody and I mean nobody is supposed to know that Iâm pregnant. Especially not...â You trail off, not finishing the sentence.
Peter rubs his chin, deep in thought. âWe could look into modifying your suit, maybe talk to some tech geniuses in the Spider-Verse about creating something that can shield or conceal the pregnancy.â
You roll your eyes. âThat kinda defies the ânobody is allowed to know âordeal, Peter. You have to promise me that this stays between us.â
âI promise,â Peter says sincerely.
Silence fills the room again, and then you voice another fear. âPeter, what if...what if Iâm not a good mother? What if I mess this up?â
Peter smiles warmly. âYou know, I had those same fears when Mayday was born. I think itâs normal for any parent. But, take it from me, the fact that youâre worried about being a good parent means youâre already on the right track. Youâve got a good heart. Trust it.â
You look down at your hands, fingers interlaced. âThank you, Peter. I donât know what I would do without you.â
âYouâll never have to find out,â he says with a reassuring smile. âWeâre family, in this weird, Spider-Verse kind of way. But maybe⌠and I am sayig this as a father myself⌠reconsider telling the father. I canât imagine any guy wanting to give up this.â He says, pointing to his precious daughter playing with a napkin she found on the floor.
"Maybe you should reconsider telling the father," Peter's words are echoing in your mind like a haunting melody. A part of you yearns for that possibility. Perhaps you're not alone in this. Maybe, just maybe, Miguel wants this as much as you do.With newfound resolve, you set off for the Spider-Verse headquarters, expecting to find Miguel tucked away in his office, immersed in maintaining the spider verse or as he calls it "arachno- something-multiverse-thingyâ or something similar to that.
Upon reaching his office door, you pound on it sharply. No response. Frowning, you knock again, a little harder this time. When silence continues to greet you, you slowly turn the doorknob and peek inside. There he is, hunched over his desk, lost in a world of numbers and codes.
"Miguel, I-" you start, but his sharp voice cuts you off.
"No," he interrupts, his tone cold. "Did I say you can come in? Dios mio, why are you always so damn clingy?"
His words hit you like a punch to the gut. You stare at him, taken aback by his blatant disregard for your feelings. You can feel the beginnings of tears prick at the corner of your eyes, but you will them away.
He doesn't mean it, he doesn't mean it like that. This mantra plays over and over in your head, like a broken record. You take a deep breath, forcing down the hurt his words cause.
"Look, Miguel," you begin, struggling to keep your voice steady. "Thereâs something we need to talk about, and I think it's important for you to listen to me."
âFucking hell, woman! What exactly donât you understand. Iâm busy. I donât care about your little problems, right now.â he barks, not even looking up.
âMiguel,â you speak up, forcing the words out through clenched teeth, â Iâve never asked anything from you. Not once have did I ask you to stay, to feel the same I feel, to fucking talk to me when people are around. Please all I am asking you is to just ... listen to me, fpr once.â Your voice grows stronger as you speak, a determined fire igniting within you.
Miguel finally looks up, his eyes meeting yours. For a moment, he seems taken aback by the resolve he saw there.
He rubs his temples. âCan we do this later?â
âNo!â you shout. âItâs always later with you. Youâre like...like a ghost. Just a figure in the hallway. I donât need a figure, I need a person! I need someone who listens when...â
He glares at you, his eyes narrowing. âOkay, okay I will listen just not now. Whatever it is, it can wait.â
âNo, it canât,â you retort, your voice shaking a bit. âWhy is it that every time I try to talk to you, you just brush me off? Am I that insignificant to you?â
He stands up abruptly, the chair skidding behind him. âThis? This is what you want to talk about?â he says with a tone of annoyance. âLook, I have a million things to deal with and-â
âAnd what? And Iâm not one of them? Just five minutes, Miguel! Thatâs all I ask!â
The room is tense. Your heart is racing. His eyes are fiery. It's a standoff.
âAnd what is so important that you have to disrupt everything right now?â he challenges.
Your breath catches in your throat. This is it. You're about to say it.
âI...â you stammer. âI need to tell you that...â
Suddenly, the door to the office swings open and Jess storms in.
âMiguel, we have a major issue in Sector 12! The anomalies...â she starts, then catches sight of your tear-streaked face. âOh, am I interrupting something?â
Miguel seems to shake off the tension and slips back into commander mode. âNo nothing important. Whatâs happening in Sector 12?â
You can't believe it. Just like that, he turns away. It feels like your heart is being squeezed.
Jess starts rattling off data and scenarios. The two of them are talking, but you donât hear it anymore. All you can think of is how you almost told him. How you just wanted five minutes.
Your hands shake and you quietly step out of the room. The door closes behind you, and it feels like a chapter that you canât read has been sealed away.
The next day you are on Earth-8311, an anthropomorphic animal-dominated universe. It's the home of Peter Porker, the Spectacular Spider-Ham, and you can't help but find it amusing.
The mission: to transport an anomaly, which resembles an enormous floating jellyfish, back to its home universe. It's been pure chaos here, and you are determined to set things right.
The team: Gwen, Hobie, and Peter B. Parker. You're all in your suits, eyes sharp, and webs at the ready.
"Alright, Spiders. Let's round this jelly up and send it home," Peter B. Parker takes charge, shooting a web towards a nearby building.
You swing alongside him, your thoughts a whirlwind. The world around you blurs - the animal citizens, the bustling cityscape, the strange yet familiar surroundings.
The anomaly appears before you, thrashing and pulsating as it floats through the sky. It releases blasts of energy that ripple through the air.
"Watch out, Sunny!" Gwen calls out as she dodges a blast.
You, however, are a split second too late. Your reflexes are off, your movements sluggish. The blast sends you spiraling towards the ground.
Hobie swings in and catches you mid-air, his guitar strapped on his back. âGet it together, Sun!â he shouts over the noise, his punk-styled hair waving wildly.
You shake off your daze and look up to see Peter B. Parker shooting webs to pull the anomaly back down, while Gwen is deploying a device to open a portal back to its home universe.
Your heart races as you focus on the task at hand. You need to get this right, not just for yourself, but for the life youâre now carrying. Your suit seems to glow even brighter in the chaos.
With a final combined effort, you manage to lasso the anomaly and push it through the portal. The anomaly disappears, and the portal closes behind it.
The team regroups on a rooftop. Gwen is catching her breath, Hobie is tuning his guitar, and Peter B. Parker gives you a concerned look.
âAre you okay?â Gwen asks, her voice laced with worry. âYou werenât yourself up there.â
The weight of the secret youâre carrying feels unbearable. But you're not ready to share it.
âPromise me you wonât tell Miguel about this,â you say, your voice barely audible.
Gwen raises an eyebrow, while Hobie crosses his arms. Peter B. Parker simply nods.
âNah, Bossman doesnât need to know about this,â Hobie says, and thereâs a firmness in his voice that is strangely comforting.
Back in the HQ, your head spins, and your stomach feels like it's doing somersaults. You mumble a quick excuse about feeling nauseous and practically sprint to the nearest restroom.
Meanwhile, Gwen, Hobie, and Peter B. Parker head to the cafeteria to grab something to eat.
As they sit down at a table with their trays, Gwen breaks the silence. âIs it okay if I say that this mission was kind of easy? Like, Iâve seen Sunny take down Doc Ock from Earth-818, and she did that without any problem. So what was that today?â Gwenâs concern is apparent.
Hobie, munching on a sandwich, nods in agreement. "Yeah, it's like her spidey senses were jammed or somethin'. Never seen her like that before."
Peter B. Parker looks thoughtfully at his sandwich, then glances up at Gwen and Hobie. Heâs torn, having promised you to keep your secret but also wanting your friends to understand why you were off your game.
"You guys remember when she fought Morlun on Earth-001? She was a totally smashinâ it, and today, she nearly got turned into spider-paste by a floating jellyfish. That ainât right," Hobie adds.
Gwenâs eyes suddenly widen. "Oh my God! Do you think sheâs in trouble? Like, something from her universe? Or maybe she's having an identity crisis! Should we stage an intervention?"
Peter B. Parker clears his throat. âMaybe sheâs just having an off day.â
Gwenâs eyes narrow as she scrutinizes Peter. âYou know something, donât you?â
Peter scratches the back of his head, obviously uncomfortable. âNope, no idea.â
Hobie puts down his sandwich and leans in. "Oi, mate. Spill your guts. There's something dodgy going on. She's always been our burst of sunshine, lifting the mood. But now she's... dimmed. What's going on with our Sunny, Parker?"
Before Peter B. Parker could answer Gwenâs barrage of questions, Jess - Spider-Woman - appears, her belly showing. She takes a seat at the table and, oblivious to the serious conversation that was taking place, asks them about their latest mission.
"So, how did your mission go?" Jessica asks, while munching on her Burger.
"Nothing to report, Jess," Gwen answers, a little too quickly, her face all sunshine and false smiles. Peter simply nod in agreement.
âYah, all good!â Hobie chimes in, flashing a grin that seems a little too bright.
âHow about you? How are you holding up?â Peter asks Jess, trying to steer the conversation away from the mission.
Jessica shrugs, not overly concerned, and bites into her burger. "'M good. You know,  I'm so glad I can finally eat a burger again. At the beginning of my pregnancy, practically every food made me nauseous, especially after swinging around on missions.â
Suddenly, there's a moment of collective realization among Gwen, Hobie. Itâs as if their spider senses are tingling in unison. They exchange knowing looks, all of them silently putting the pieces together.
Gwenâs eyes are wide, Hobieâs eyebrows are raised, and they both turn to look at Peter, who simply nods.
Jess, noticing the silent exchange, squints at them. âWhat is up with you guys? Youâre acting weird. Well, weirder than usual.â
âUh, nothinâ!â Hobie says, a little too quickly.
âYeah, just tired from the mission,â Gwen adds, trying to play it cool.
Jess rolls her eyes and stands up. âAlright, weirdos. Iâm gonna go find some normal people to talk to,â she says jokingly and walks away.
After she leaves, the trio leans in.
âSunnyâs pregnant, isnât she?â Gwen whispers.
Hobie's eyes are as wide as saucers. âThat would explain everything!â
Peter B. Parker nods. âWe need to be there for her, but remember, itâs her news to share when sheâs ready.â
They make a pact to support you without pushing you to reveal anything before you're ready.
As you walk back into the cafeteria, you find your friends huddled together. They break apart when they see you and welcome you back with smiles and light conversation, but something in their demeanor is different but you canât put your finger on it. They are being more attentive, considerate, and frankly, a little too curious about your well-being.
"Are you sure you're okay, Sunny?" Gwen asks for the third time since you sat down. Her concern is genuine, but her intensity is slightly off-putting.
"Yeah, do you need anything?" Hobie offers, his eyes gleaming with unspoken curiosity. "Food, drink, or maybe... pickles?" Pickles? Thats oddly specific.
There's a burst of laughter from Gwen, and even Peter is suppressing a chuckle.
"What's up with the pickles?" You ask, looking at them suspiciously.
"Oh, nothing!" Gwen says, a little too quickly, trying to hold back her laughter.
"Hmm, pickles and ice cream, a weird combo, innit?" Hobie wonders aloud, a mischievous grin spreading across his face.
Again, there's suppressed laughter, and you look at each of them, a realization slowly dawning on you. You turn to Peter, your gaze steady and serious. "You told them, didn't you?" Peter looks shocked, but quickly composes himself. "I didn't exactly tell them, per se," he confesses, "I might've confirmed their suspicions when they asked, but they figured it out on their own. Spider senses and all that jazz.â
Before you could respond, Gwen and Hobie jump in, both talking over each other in an attempt to apologize.
"We're sorry, Sunny," Gwen says sincerely. "We didn't mean to invade your privacy, it's just that... we're worried about you. Please donât be mad."
Hobie nods, adding, "And we're right behind ya, whatever comes our way. We've got your back, no doubt about it."
You are happy, while the situation isn't ideal, but at least you're not alone. You have friends who care about you and, despite their unconventional way of showing it, they are there for you. You smile, comforted by their concern, and grateful for their support.
"Yeah," you finally say, "I guess weâre gonna need a lot more pickles and ice cream around here, huh?"
âSooo...whoâs the dad? Is he hot?â Gwen, leaning on the table with her elbows, asks shyly after a while.
You let out a long sigh, âHeâs very hot... but also a colossal jerk.â
Peter raises an eyebrow. âYou took my advice and talked to him then?â
You shake your head, your eyes starting to well up. âNo, I tried. But he wouldnât listen to me. He was busy, and I guess I wasnât important enough. So, the baby wonât be either,â you say, your voice barely above a whisper.
Hobie's eyes narrow, and his face is flushed with anger. "Who's this bloke, eh? I swear on me nan's grave, I'll give him a right proper earful! No one treats our Sunny like a tosser and gets away with it!"
Gwen jumps in, her eyes wide with speculation, âWait, is he a Spider? Is it Peter? Or the other Peter? Orââ
âGuys, guys!â you cut them off, your voice cracking. âPlease, it doesnât matter. He made it clear where I stand, and itâs not with him.â
Thereâs a silence that settles over the table as your friends look at each other and then back to you. Their faces are a mix of concern, sadness, and frustration.
Peter B. is the first to break the silence. âYou donât have to go through this alone. Youâve got us. If the dad doesnât want to step up, then heâs missing out on something amazing.â
Gwen nods, her eyes firm with resolve. âYeah, weâre family. Weâve got your back, no matter what.â
Hobie, still fuming, finally calms down enough to say, "All you gotta do is whistle, love, and we'll be there in a blink. Even if it means thumping some manners into this mystery idiot."
You can't help but crack a small smile, despite the tears. Youâre overwhelmed by the love and support your friends are giving you.
âThanks, guys. You don't know how much this means to me.âÂ
They all reach out and thereâs a group hug right in the middle of the cafeteria. You didnât know how much you needed this until it happened.
a/n: Thank you guys for all your love on this fic so far.I really appreciate each like, comment, reblog <3. I still canât reply to your comments so please if you want to tagged (and are not already) comment on part 2 and Iâll do my best and add you.Also I am open to requests, critic and wishes. Have a wonderful day. xx
Summary: In which Poe Dameron is freaking out because he's going on his first date.
Pairing: Poe Dameron x f!reader
Warnings: Fluff, panicky!Poe, brief ReyFinnPoe shenanigans, sprinkle some angst (if you squint), reader being sassy, Poe being cute.
A/N: Co-written with @sofasoap because a lot happens in our DMs and I feel like some of our insanity needs to be evaluated by a professionalđ Thank you so much for the supportâ¤ď¸ I really appreciate itđđđ
[Part 1]
Poe doesnât realize that heâs been rambling for the past five minutes now. He feels sweat on his palms, his heart beats a thousand parsecs a second.
âTatooine was an absolute nightmare because not only did the mission go south, we had to spend an entire week getting roasted in the Maker-Forsaken heatââ
He doesnât think heâs said this many words in an entire day.Â
Heâs nervous. Almost fearful that this date wonât go as planned. That you might hate him and never want anything to do with him.
That wasnât an option. He couldnât bear it if you decided you never wanted to see him again.
The soft light of the moon and the stars above illuminate from above, but he lit a few candles just in case. Which worked fine for the aesthetic of a midnight picnic on the cool grass fields far away from the base.Â
Finn and Rey were a big help in this entire thing. In fact, they were brutal when it came to shutting down his ânow that he thinks about itâ ridiculously dumb ideas for a date. There was a lot of bickering involved, but thatâs a story for another day.
Finn helped him pick out the food, but Poe was very particular on that topic because he knew some of the things you liked. Sweet wine, fruits, sandwiches, and pastries. Certain flavours youâve mentioned in past conversations came to him in flashes made him realize just how much heâs been holding onto them. Actually, Poe hangs on to every word you say.
How could he not? He wants to know everything there is about you. He may or may not be a little bit obsessed with you and heâs not very good at hiding it.
But who could blame him? With your stunning beauty and sharp tongue, who, in the entire galaxy, could blame him for being absolutely enamoured by you? Not just that, underneath your deadpan disposition and casual aggression, you have a kindness that most people tend to overlook.
Even though you give him shit for wrecking his ship, you go out of your way to help him fix it. You bring him a cup of caf when he needs it the most. You give him some words of encouragementâ very few words, because you know, so he doesnât think you like him like everyone else does.
You donât treat him like heâs a god like everyone else does. Like heâs made of pure gold. Like he could do no wrong. You treat him like a soldier. To you, heâs that annoying friend you canât get rid of but have grown accustomed to having around.
He doesnât mind it. Your presence takes a lot of pressure off his shoulders. He doesnât have to be the face of the Resistance. Heâs not constantly trying to keep everything afloat. He doesnât have to worry about what heâs doing wrong and that his actions might cost the lives of many.
Heâs just another guy to you. Heâs just Poe.
âAnd then what happened?â you ask before taking a bite out of your sandwich. âWhile you were spending the week getting roasted by the stifling heat, I mean.â
Poe has to take a moment to breathe because he realizes that he stopped talking. He was staring at you. He hadnât realize that you were actually paying attention to his ramblings.
âUhââ he stammered, blushing profusely as he tried to laugh it off with a nervous chuckle. âWâwe almost died of thirst if Pava hadnât found us.â
âHmmâŚâ you hummed thoughtfully. âShe did mention having to bring water for three banthas. Iâm assuming you were one of them.â
He burst into laughter which made him fall on his back from his seated position on the dark blue blanket. When he catches the quirk of your lip, he feels a bit of relief that you havenât chosen to walk out after so much time has passed into the night.
But when he glances behind you, far behind you, and sees the two figures hiding in the bushes, he nearly panics. Itâs Rey and Finn, both giving him thumbs up. He wants to believe that he hasnât fucked up just yet.
He looked up at the sky, leaning on his hands. Their light illuminates the night sky and everything under it. He knows itâs probably past midnight and you both have to be up early.
âItâs getting late.â he muses sadly, still admiring the stars.
âIt isâŚâ you reply.Â
He doesnât want this to end just yet. He wants to cling to you a little longer.
Poe glances at you and finds you laying down with your hands clasped right under your chest. He moves closer and lies next to you in the same position. This felt⌠nice. Peaceful. Itâs almost hard to believe that heâs been begging for this chance for so long, he thinks that this might be a dream.
âSoâŚâ he sighs, looking at you with a nervous smile. âYou donât hate me, right?â
You are silent for a moment. The deal was that if you donât hate him by the end of this date, then thereâs still a chance for him. A chance for a second date. For more.
Maker, he wants more. If he were given the chance to kiss you right now, he would take it. No hesitation whatsoever. He wants more time. To see you, hear your voice, hear you laugh. Maybe even touch you.
This war has taken so much from him. If you could grant him this one wish, this one chance, then losing might not hurt as much.
âI donât hate you, Poe.â you say, and your eyes meet his. âTruthfully, I donât think I could ever hate you.â
Your confession strikes a chord in him. An echo in the back of his mind ringing the truth and nothing but the truth. As he looks at you now, he knowsâ
I love you.
It takes everything in him not to say it out loud. Poe realizes that heâs known for a while now. Possibly since he stopped fooling around with other people. Hell, possibly since he met you.
âGood to know.â he nods, clearing his throat. âSo dâdoes that meanââ
âYes, Poe.â He canât breathe when you move a little closer until your forehead touches his shoulder for a second. You look into his eyes and smile. âYouâre getting a second date.â
He cannot, for the life of him, find it in himself to look away from you when you smile at him like that. There is a warmth in his chest that unfurls when heâs around you and heâs so addicted to it. Heâs addicted to you.
âCan I kiss you?â
âDonât push it.â You giggle, shoving his shoulder as you sit back up.
He follows, chuckling sheepishly. âRight. Sorry.â
But youâre still smiling and you kiss his cheek anyway. You donât seem to mind how eager he is to be around you, to want more, even as you bar his advances. Thatâs okay. Heâs on a date with you and you donât hate him. Thatâs all that matters.
âOh, so I canât kiss you, but you can kiss me?â he jibes, feigning a glare at you.
âFuck off, Dameron.â you laugh brightly, playfully shoving him, the sound fluttering butterflies in his stomach. He shakes his head as he watches you.Â
Heâs going to see you in his dreams again.
Part 3 will come out soon ;)
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WEEK 1 - Ron Weasley - Unsteady desk chairs - when ronâs been locked in his dorm trying to finish an essay all afternoon, you decide to help motivate him a little
WEEK 1 - Remus Lupin - Low waisted jeans - you don't realise you have bruises on your hips when putting on low waisted jeans, and your brother is instantly protective over you.
WEEK 2 - Peter Parker - Bed side drawer - when Tony finds a box of condoms Peter's bed side drawer, he doesn't expect Peter's girlfriend to walk into the room, causing an awkward interaction.
WEEK 2 - Sirius Black - Fancy ride - Sirius gets jealous when you're sharing stories from your date with Evan, so you put him in his place. Or, he puts you in yours.
WEEK 3 - Remus Lupin - Teasing kisses - Basically just dry humping with Remus Lupin
WEEK 3 - Tony Stark - Boyfriends and Mentors - peter brings his gf to meet tony, his mentor. But when he gets dragged away for nightly rounds, he doesn't think as much as he should before leaving you two alone.
WEEK 4 - Remus Lupin - Two sides, one door - potter!reader going to james after remus yells at her the day before a full moon.
WEEK 4 - Harry Potter - Request - Long kisses, Risky places.
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