I Hope You DIE For Your Heinous Crimes (my Fp Being Nice To You A Few Times)

tryna post this again because its not showing up on the tags ):

1 year sh progression, tw sh. if you say some shit like "i cant wait to get worse!!" ill fucking kill you

april 24th 2024 (left) vs may 6th 2025 (right). i can find that exact scar on my skin and its really weird, idk why. wish that still felt deep, nothing feels deep enough

hypersexual culture is getting so frustrated with your usual smut/porn/kinks not getting you off anymore so you have to keep finding more and more intense shit until suddenly you're jacking off to things you're actually repulsed by and feeling Doubly filthy and horrible afterwards

me too anon me too

Hypersexual culture is desperately needing a lucid and vivid wet dream because you know you won't ever feel comfortable enough to have sex in real life, no matter if you're bottoming or not, and masturbating barely feels good anymore

-💙 💌

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did anyone else want to be hurt as a kid???

like grievously injured so that ppl would care for you and think about you and wonder if ur doing okay

i only trust paraphiles, whores, addicts, and the socially outcasted

why’d i have to get BOTH a m@$turb@t!on and self harm addiction?????

im so so so so so so so so so so so so so sorry

lets go kill our transphobic parents together <3

i hate that i cant fucking enjoy anything because its either im worried its NOT something i actually like and that i basically copied it% mimiced someone else or that its too generalized of a thing to like or i dont do it good enough so i should shoot muself or overd0se right now because im bad at it

heres an example

i like music. i like vocaloid alot and kikuos music

problem. i cant tell if its me that i like anymore or i copied it cuz half of my fucking interests and personality or all of it is fake. secondly its too genetalizrf and everyone i know likes it meaning im normal and not good enough and should kill myself now. thirdly i literally dont know the lyrics are meaning therefore im a faker and should kll myself now.

people only like mental health issues when they’re “pretty” They accept you till you have rotting teeth because you physically can’t brush your teeth, they accept you till you have permanent and visible SH scars you don’t hide, they accept you until you don’t/can’t get better, they accept you till your over weight or underweight, they accept you till you fail all you classes or lose your job, they accept you till your hyper sexual or a paraphile, they accept you till you have addictions so bad your life is consumed. Mental health isn’t always “pretty” and that’s okay, you deserve support