hawks being the model he is πβ¨
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Fallen
crazyyyy how hawks grows his pathetic facial hair to appear older because he craves pseudo-parental approval and being a good, useful guy, meanwhile dabi was already so messed by his father that the nation's biggest groomer failed at grooming him. at the end of the day we need to beat endeavor with hammers because he is the locus of their messed up attachment anxieties
More Hawks suffering
I meannn not exactly spoilers but if you know you know; putting this just in case,,, I miss twice and can't wait to see Hawks betrayal animated ππ₯°
looking back at my initial reaction to this moment when it happened in the manga, i can't believe i didn't immediately realise that it wasn't supposed to be taken positively. as someone who's been preaching about shigaraki being an unreliable narrator for years, it's really weird that at the time i didn't realise that the contradiction in what hawks saying ('i had support') and what he's thinking about (his toy. he didn't have any real support, only himself and his dream) is intentional, and didn't notice that his speech-bubbles are shaky. he's not really fine or alright, but he's convincing himself that he is to keep going.
I have mentioned before that in literature, sharing a meal is symbolically an act of communion, usually for the purpose of making peace or coming to a mutual understanding.
At a symbolic level, this scene is Hawks and Endeavor trying to understand each other and their respective ideals. It's a peace offering and request for cooperation on Hawks' part. The strange thing is despite Endeavor's overbearing nature, he let Hawks choose the food and the location of their meal. As much as Hawks said he wants to sit back and take a supporting role, Hawks was the one taking all of the initiative and Endeavor was letting him lead with only moderate complaining.
And this meal did lead to an understanding between these two. It's only because of the understanding they reached here that Endeavor was able to understand Hawks' later message warning of the PLF. It wasn't a perfect understanding: they finished their meal together, but the restaurant was shattered before they could pay the bill. Hawks still kept his face and hands covered by his costume. He was still not being forthright about his intentions. He planned on using Endeavor as bait for the noumu without informing him. And Hawks was not being honest about why he wanted to direct Endeavor's Number One Hero career. Hawks phrased it in terms of not wanting to work hard, but it was in truth about his personal admiration of Endeavor and a systemic critique about the fragility of the existing system that needs heroes on alert at all times.
what if more bird