Doesn't Matter How Much Effort I Put In, Right? It's Hard To Love Me.

I know I am being obsessive. I know I am truly not anything special to you.

I also know I can’t stop myself from being overly invested in an FP that may not ever feel anything for me.

there’s something so disgusting and feral and perverted about getting off to the smell of someone

getting handed your sweater or a blanket and it’s supposed to be for comfort when we can’t see each other but instead i’m fucking my toy and shoving my face into it because fuck. you just smell so good i couldn’t help it

it’s not my fault your smell throws me into a fucking heat, i’m just doing what dumb mutts are supposed to >_<

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watching another person with bpd also lose themselves to limerence..

Them having fun:

:)

Them having fun without me:

:(

guts : have a poorly drawn comic about my mental state currently

They aren't going to apologise.

They aren't going to see all the hurt they inflicted.

Nothing you say, will cause change.

To protect yourself, realise that.

That person who seeks retribution, time and love.

Won't ever receive it.

I dont say this to be mean.

I say this to save you from further pain.

Trust me, I tried.