I Am Becoming Less Normal By The Day (kissy Face Emoji

this is like seeing an amazon drone in your backyard but half of its components are missing and your cat has peed on it twice. girl go home you are wasted

Important

you ever just throw it back in a pitch-black room at 2am by yourself to ABBA?

almost have to actually scream "trust the process" repeatedly at myself because i am once again trying to change up how i do lighting and it looks WRONG but its NOT DONE YET CHILL OUT

reminder to myself to never go into the comments of a post with any sizeable amount of notes about a Totally Normal and Innocuous Thing or Experience because i forgot that those are the cracks that let me peer directly into hell

MY JAW IS ON THE FLOOR

its time to finally get a new brush and start working with that. a few drawings will be awkward until i get the settings and stuff right, but then i will finally be on my way to 1000 hmmm.

WOWZA i am going to be struggling for a long time to improve my art i realize. literally every artist i look up to and try to learn from has super thin lineart and lots of detail but i keep falling into thick lineart. i have to fix that but its so hard. maybe i need to get my eyes checked out.

sorry i havent been posting much ive just been going through a lot of life stuff. not like super heavy but the extra energy needed kinda put me out of the art loop for a while. and now i'm having to get used to another new environment. slight burnout ensued but i have been doing a few drawings

and i know i'm not obligated to post at all really i just wanted this to remind myself why there is a gap in my art

assorted sketches and stuff coming soon

thought id take a crack at an obscure sorrow because the dictionary of obscure sorrows still doesnt get at everything i want words for

laccevenomism - /læt͡ʃːəˈvɛnəmɪzm/ or /lækːəˈvɛnəmɪzm/

the frustration that one cannot express discomfort because the person or situation causing it is doing something socially perceived as "good" or "selfless".

can be shortened to laccevenom if used to describe the feeling (i.e. "slowly building laccevenom") or if used in a less abstract context (i.e. "her face betrayed hints of laccevenom")

idk i think this would resonate with a couple people out there because "communicate when you're unhappy :)" advice seems engineered to coincide with a maze of situations that don't let you speak out about things.