My Mother Just Said I Look Like I’m Wasting Away Like Omg Thanks

“Can I not be hungry” I ask my eating disorder. “FUCK YOU” said my eating disorder who was actually the fuck you guy.

reasons why I'm locking in

being able to take bikini pics

not being afraid to change in front of people

no more hearing fat jokes

being able to fit into my friends clothes

looking good from any angel

not feeling my thighs rub together

always having leftovers from meals

being able to wear rings without being disgusted by my f@t fingers

hoodies & shirts sitting on me perfectly

top five best female experiences:

1. ovulation

2. smelling good cologne that matches the face

3. tanning

4. seeing biceps

5. smiling at a girl and she smiles back

i love being a little freak on tumblr nobody can stop me

i hate food. i hate being fat. food is just a temporary pleasure. it’s like being in a toxic relationship. i wish i could be skinny. skinny like the other girls. thighs the same size as their legs. perfect waist. clothes that fit. a world that loves and respects you.

st4rving is hard, but being f4t is harder.

You don't need to be the overweight friend forerver.

All I need is -5kg

Is it too much to ask for??

“Maintaining is better than gaining!”

I say as I roll back and forth in my padded cell