Yearning

"WILL YOU CHANGE??"

Always wanted to illustrate that one scene...

This is so extremely in character for him. He is the exact sort if person to do this.😄😂

mdzs headcanon of the day #346 !

jgy has scheduled breakdowns. he’ll set a timer for ten minutes, scream cry and throw up, and then when it goes off he goes about his day

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The fic where Hong-er is a human sacrifice

Fic idea that I'm going to write later: canon divergence AU where a superstitious group in Xianle try to sacrifice Hong-er to the gods and to BWX, believing that Hong-er falling during the parade is the reason for Xianle's decline.

Anyways, I already wrote a little something for it:

"Hong-er hit the floor harshly. All the air was pushed out of his lungs as a heavy body pounced on top of him, pinning him to the floor. He viciously yelled, punching the man on top of him in the liver. The man grunted before delivering a powerful blow to Hong-er’s face.

Hong-er’s head was thrown back from the force of it, the back of his skull colliding with the stone floor. His vision went white and his ears were left ringing.

Suddenly, hands were grabbing at him. He weakly tried to push them away but they held him in a bruising grip.

“We got him!” “Hold him down!”

“Where’s the rope?! Who has the rope?!”

“Peng Xi has it!”

“Hurry, tie his arms and legs before he can escape!”

The sound of scuffling feet surrounded Hong-er as men filled the small shine. Hong-er was manhandled onto his chest and his arms were forced behind him. He struggled against the men, but their hands remained firm, pushing him into the ground and tying the rope tightly around him.

Blood leaked from split lip and into his mouth, painting Hong-er’s teeth red as he yelled at the men."

I'll come back to this latter, I just wanted to put this somewhere.

My favorite part of Lan Wangji's character arc is the way he goes from wanting not to be seen for who he is, even if it is lonely, to being determined to show everyone who he is and daring them to judge him.

This poor fifteen year old boy, totally overwhelmed with romantic thoughts about another man, while everyone he knew informed him that this person would never be accepted in his life. This eighteen to nineteen year old, plagued with the need to keep his affections a secret. The twenty year old who turned away from it due to the opinions of his uncle and elder brother.

The twenty two year old who lost the love of his life and faced punishment from his clan for daring to love someone they disapproved of... then went back and told them he didn't care: "This child of the Yiling Patriarch is now mine, thanks. I don't care if you punish me, I'm done cutting off the people I love for your sake."

Turned into a thirty five year old who shackled this man to himself for everyone to see. He became a person who refused to waver in his commitment to stand by them, despite the consequences. Ultimately, he told those same family members that if they had a problem with his spouse, he didn't have to be their family anymore.

He became strong enough to support his spouse through experiencing the judgment of a 'family' member who refused to accept him.

And through this journey, he found the security of self that allowed him to love freely and take chances. Self-acceptance allowed him to build the life he wanted--to share the safety he built for himself with the people he valued the most.

Between Xiao Zhan's cute face and the fact that mxy!wwx is a cute lil twink of a character, I often kind of forget that it was this guy☝️, The Yilling Laozu who told LWJ that he'd birthed A' Yuan himself. This guy.

Upstaged again

Crow!WWX

Nie Mingjue: *in a tiff* And where were YOU when Huaisang wasn’t in saber practice today?

Meng Yao: *annoyed with Huaisang and Mingjue having the same argument for the 18th time this week and doesn’t wanna get put in the middle* Getting scolded by sword captain for being ‘too pretty to be seen outside your chambers’.

Huaisang: It’s true, Da-Ge, he was being gross again!

Mingjue: You saw it?

Huaisang: Yes.

Mingjue: And you did NOTHING?

Huaisang: Well, I was hiding from saber master, who had A-Yao and Sword Captain in his eyesight at the moment. I couldn’t leave the alcove. I was trapped!

Mingjue: You are both little bastards that need to speak up more often. Both of you go get ready for bed, I’ll be in there to tuck you in soon.

Meng Yao: I’m sleeping in A-Sang’s room?

Huaisang: Yes. Until Da-Ge kills sword captain, at least.

Meng Yao: …what? *didn’t think Mingjue would actually do anything about the man being an ass to him* …what?!?

Huaisang: Yeah. It’s okay, you can come with me to saber practice tomorrow. I’ll comb your hair and you can wear my sleep robes tonight. *pulls him out of the room with their hands together*

Meng Yao: *rewriting his 20 year plan to take over the world to instead be a kept didi by nice Nie brothers* hmm :/