My Heart. The Feels 💔. My Poor Son!! 😭😭😭

My heart. The feels 💔. My poor son!! 😭😭😭

Ninjago Headcanons~ Cole's Problems Edition

WARNING- SAD SAD SAD POSSIBLE TRIGGER WARNING AND MENTION OF DEPRESSION AND EATING DISORDERS READ AT YOUR OWN DISCRETION! (Just wanted to be safe. I don’t want to upset anyone. Even if this isn’t really sad).

-Cole used to be a fairly stable person. He was very serious, but he was genuinely happy, and he had a good hold on his life. But… -When he was younger, he had a lot of problems with food. As a dancer, there was pressure on him to have this perfect body and his peers made fun of him for eating so much. -Actually Young Cole needed all the calories from the food he ate, (fast metabolism) but he started to believe his so-called friends and thought he was fat. -He stopped eating. -He fainted at dance class one day. -His dad made him start eating again. -He ate more, and more, and more. His dad urged him to gain back weight, and he was always hungry. He couldn’t stop eating. -It got the worst when he went to the Marty Oppenheimer and had no strong parental figure. People started making negative comments about his eating habits again. He was so hungry but he was fat, he was fat, he was fat. -He threw up after every meal. -He was depressed. -He hated himself. -Cole finally couldn’t take it anymore. He called his dad but couldn’t say anything. So he hung up and left boarding school and never went back. -He managed to stop throwing up his food when he was by himself. -When Cole became a ninja, he finally found real friends, and he had a mission. His life became more stable, and he got healthy and fairly happy again. Being the leader meant that he could lose himself in his work. It was amazing. It was great. He had never been better. -Zane died. -Cole’s life fell apart. -He turned to food again as his only comfort. He’d liked cake before but now he needed it. The only time he felt okay was stuffing his face, even if he felt disgusting afterwards. -Pig, he thought. I’m a pig. I’m a worthless pig who couldn’t even save Zane. I was supposed to save Zane. -He stopped talking to the other ninja. -Seeing them was supposed to make him happy. He was just hungry. Hungry was the only way he felt anymore. -He was tired of being sidelined for Lloyd. Tired of having to cool Kai down. Tired of fighting with Jay, he just wanted Jay to like him again, he knew he had hurt Jay like other people hurt him and he hated himself. He was tired of avoiding Nya because he just wanted everything to be the way it was and he wanted to stop feeling this way. -He was tired of crying. But Zane wouldn’t leave his head. -When he found Zane on Chen’s Island, Cole thought it would get better. And it did, but he didn’t get better. Even when they saved the world again and the team was back together and life was supposed to be happy, it wasn’t. -Cole was depressed. He didn’t want to be depressed. -Then he died. -Being a ghost meant that Cole couldn’t eat. So he had no comfort. No solace. He was dead but he wanted to die again. -He couldn’t stop thinking about death. -He wanted to go in the rain. He wanted to take a bath. He wanted to tell Nya to kill him. -And he pretended to be fine because he didn’t want his friends to see him cry. -He tried to look on the bright side, he really did. He tried to be the old Cole. -But the old Cole was dead. -And he was just a ghost.