The Paper Just Said A Boy Left, The Obit Did Not Specify Homicide Or Suicide.

How To Take A Radial Pulse

maybe this has been one of those nights that I’ll come back to later, to outline in crayon and label softly, drawing looks out from the eyes like water from a well. well,

all days have sore ribs, burnt nerves, places which go tender under threat but this one feels like something particularly loose and abused enough already, something which will just  go to heaven if it’s ever touched again.

there is something memorable about hours way too made of blood to ever bleed. 

it’s not going to hurt to put fingers on this: the dim around the pizza box around the carpet around the working anatomies around the exactly seven kidneys. 

it’s not going to hurt it’s just going to all come back in through the palm, one pressure at a time, working just like the un-music a heart makes to keep a head. 

                                   - c. essington 

Hello

to the new followers. Just broke 600 so, you know, it’s a whole bundle of lovelies. Let me know if you’ve got any questions!

                       - C. Essington

Hi lovely, again, I am in awe of your beautiful words. I had a question though, if you don't mind. Do you have any tips for someone who is working on pursuing their writing more regularly? I used to write, but have gotten out of practice and am looking for anything to help me start again. Thank you!

Of course, thanks for all of your support. Tumblr's been helpful to me, I try to put up at least one thing a day, even if it's gross and not a thing. 

Calendars can aid one's efforts if you have a word count goal in mind. But if you're looking less for clerical things and more for inspiration, the best tip I have is to notice things, really notice things. And always have notebook to pin interesting tidbits to the page, this lets you have spare ingredients for stewing something together later. It's like a form of collecting. Also spy on people, not aggressively, but try to see them in a real way. 

When you eat, try to know how and why you're doing it and what's going over your tongue. When you sleep, pay attention to how you slip from yourself. You do not need to have fallen from a boat in a storm to write well about someone falling from a boat in a storm. If you've eaten a lime and fallen asleep I think you can manage to write it pretty well for a general audience. Don't be afraid to cross things over into areas where they seemingly don't belong, and try not to be afraid to look odd in words.

Ah, sorry, a touch long if you were looking for a one-liner. I am not Hemingway-esc, I spend a long time on little things. 

changed theme and icon. hoping to post more consistently, it’s been a dense year folks. 

small scales

through the window’s glass I catch the picture: blackberries cupped  in the inhale of a milky-ceramic bowl.

I spend a few seconds mistaking them for dots of caviar because this house is so nice, because they don’t seem to start or end but mill their dark globes across eachother’s chests — close enough together to trade bodies like clouds swapping weather.

I crack the black eggs and suggestions of fish flash in my head, a pocket-knife clicking open, flanks of silver slicks turning their skin to metal on the light.

then the glimpse of a sleepy blue sheen waking on the dark fruit drains the moment of its ocean; blackberries.

blackberries in the small bowl looking like fish coming on. from here, water is just another word for change. I put another shred of push into my bike and it goes,

away from the window’s false eye and I wonder what else in today could flash open with blue and switch its biology from behind the glass.

- c. essington

- c. essington

Here's another photo from my great grandfather Axel's fishing trip out west in 1928. I'll probably put a few more up before I'm through.

Creon Tells Antigone To Keep Her Arms At Her Sides When She Runs

Before the rope stippled with green pages of lichen is tied by hands, by mind, on purpose — Before the unburied brother with his chest surrendered to the wind, heart as still as a stone sunk to river-bottom — Before the girl tore off her name, swallowed it like a sword, and cursed her sister to live a lovely life, Creon sat with the blade-eater  in the clutch of a marble chamber and talked to her in the dim slip of evening, backstage.

The chorus ran their tongues over a grooved government, lapping at stone for honey, while Antigone, with her pitch-dark hands, smoothed her  skirt into an eddy. 

Creon tells her it’s a nice knot, that she knows how to tie, she says she’s a sailor, her eyes fixed forward toward the barred wall, moonlight coming in like piano keys, she plays at the strands of string in the rope.

She says she’s a sailor, that she can always feel the water, that she feels it now, how it curves  around her brother’s aorta as a courtesy, but will soon lend it to coral polyps shaped like loveliness, as the water always does.

His hand slides over the cold bench towards her crossed legs. In her head she covers his thumb with six-feet of soil. She holds the rope tighter, tracing the strands, feels her father’s tongue somewhere between wires, then bites it between two fingernails. The hand moves back.

When you run, he says, his eyes on the music of the iron bars, When you run, after you puppet yourself on this ceiling and leave two fingers of air between your neck and the world,  do not let your elbows leak up passed your waist — it would only make your shoulders look tight, like your dad’s.

He had tight shoulders? she asks, her voice slipping under a loud question from the chorus, yes, Creon agrees with himself, tight shoulders and a mole on his clavicle, tight shoulders, among other things.

                                                    - C. Essington

Weird art time sorry. 

What are some of your favorite things about Kenyon?

- Class sizes: the largest class I’ve been in, as a freshman, was about 25 students. This is seriously such a big deal for me, it makes the class relations much easier and peer conversation much more possible. The professors know your name, recognize your participation, and are much more likely to empathize if you have a sick day/ need to take a mental health day.

- The people: Everyone is interesting in one way or another. I’ve gotten to meet a lot of people and gotten to know several of them in a fairly significant way. It’s a small school so running in to people you know is not hard to do. This is a bit of a personal preference, but I’d rather really know five people than know the names of fifty.

- Professors: So far I’ve had no TAs teaching courses and all my professors have held office hours that are accessible to me and or have been willing to schedule time outside of them to meet. The professors I’ve had are invested and interesting and encourage students to come to their hours just to discuss the subject they’re teaching. I had a friend go in to speak to a professor about multiple-worlds theory in literature just for kicks and he responded by giving her more resources and ideas. 

I hope that helps! All of this is of course purely based on my experiences so far and certainly does not reflect everyone’s opinion of the institution. But I love it!

Please feel free to send in any more college/ kenyon/ writing/ publishing questions! I have a lot of time today.