I want to do a thing where people can send me asks of five objects someone is carrying with them, a little personal inventory, and I’ll write a little flash fiction piece developing a person around the things.
Please maybe?
Here’s a poetry book review I wrote published by Cleaver magazine.
the sky unclenches a mouth or two — water trips out of the night with the same sort of muscle your mother unbuckled to drop the bread knife on the tile. it all goes streaking past the long grey howl of window.
tonight, the house is a sound, the edges where the rain dies into water. the roof is a flat noise painted awake by a thousand needle-wide of shots in the dark.
the shrapnel catches in the ears, stays to make a soreness, and replicates a cloud’s shaking by jostling an eardrum.
no wounds wake up from dreams to populate your skin. the dog is scared like the world’s already been done and undone at least seven times
and it has but tonight this house is a sound and the tips of bodies shaking here only mean that it is being heard and there is an architecture to the thunder.
- c. essington
my dead uncle’s house gleams like a sore bone
a neighbor’s dog could have brought in, slicked with saliva and dedication.
the more-chip-than-paint walls stand skinned by the storm
that sawed through this county no more than two half-hours ago.
my dead uncle adjusts his death into the still-dying/ still-living cells
that hum on inside him without understanding. parts of him glimmer,
still bright, his hair growing like something shocking
that doesn’t know its shock— the silent video of those years-ago fireworks
pasted to the limp tongue of an elderly VHS tape, its fire
broken, vivid but mute, the cheers I know are there stuck in the air—
like the dark sticks to the night— I can’t see either. all those blank
shouts careening through the screen without their bodies or mine. my dead uncle’s hair
grows down to his knees, no one whispers the secret of his new reality to his follicles
so they all just go on spinning straw-colored beer-calories
into gold. I am outside the house and its long sore silence
which bends the water off its arthritic boards like an old victory I never fought for.
he was not a good uncle. it is july or it was about an hour ago. here is my uncle’s house
I am outside of it, trying to think up something new to call the place that doesn’t belong
to anyone anymore except maybe to those blond locks buttered across the floor like light.
I stand under the gutter and hit it with a stick. old rain,
which sat still long enough to lose its name, hits me cold.
I say hello, think about the hurt of throats in the old video from the picnic on the 4th,
how happy everything must be from behind the camera lens. my uncle doesn’t know he’s dead
like the cold in the gutter doesn’t know its name isn’t thunder any longer.
- c. essington
tiny painting for a small day/
it’s not sunday but it felt like one because
work is sloww
Throwback weird art time to add some picture to the page.
Weird art time? Weird art time.
- C. Essington
changed theme and icon. hoping to post more consistently, it’s been a dense year folks.
one gallon of wind skims over us, drying sharply in our nerves like some font set too large for us to read— I think I can make out the four-way stop of a “t” unfolding its cold phoneme across my chest.
- c. essington
Your blog rocks babe✌
Well thank you so much for your readership, you’re very kind.
Is there one particular experience that you draw on in your writing?
There’s no one singular experience, no. It’s usually a mash of a lot of things and they vary a lot depending on what I’m trying to say. Like a potato, a mashed potato of feelings and thoughts. With butter. I write potatoes, end transcript.
Please feel free to send in any more college/ kenyon/ writing/ publishing questions! I have a lot of time today.
it is early, there’s an egg in the oil-slicked frying pan, frying.
you are somewhere tossing off sleep, rolling over, taking the morning like a prescription
the stairs will wait for you to come down, hunger lining your sock-armored heels.
the night played a game of purple with your eyes and drew violet moons above your cheeks, gibbous.
my love sizzles on the stove-top over butter; it has 92 calories today.
we aren’t really going anywhere, we flex open in the kitchen, stretching our humanities in a honeyed 6 AM
fast is how the egg gets taken, going from shelled to food to some piece of the personhood you’ll call yourself if you had the time.
but we’re still here after the dancing and walking and staining and bills and words and teeth of it, living.
it’s you, the stairs, the night in blood below your eyelids, an egg, the sink. that’s it.
that’s the world.
- C. Essington
Queer Writer, Repd by Janklow & Nesbit, 2020 Center for Fiction Fellow, Brooklyn
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