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damn, now i generally feel like I would never recover.

Team mother with anger issues and father that bottles up emotion until he explodes where you at? 😀🤚

wahoo. wooha. etc

How do I explain to my professors, bosses, misc. authority figures that I am constantly late because I need to take care of myself

Like yeah I woke up and I can get to get to work on time if I leave right when I’m dressed but I need to eat because this is the only time of the day I can physically bring myself to

I've been on the CPTSD sub Reddit for a good while now and I'm starting to realise, that I'm in the later stages of healing than most people in that sub Reddit.

DON'T GET ME WRONG, healing takes time and take all the time that you need. Nothing wrong in that.

It just jogged my memory of how my therapist said to me, MANY times when my therapist said I put in a lot of work in myself, before I had therapy. Like my bf, normally people with a lot of Trauma date abusive people (no matter what gender they are). She said "normally people come to me when they are at 0, you on the other hand. You've already understand how your brain works and you've already trained yourself to rethink in different situations".

IF I said that in the sub Reddit, or a Facebook group or any other trauma survivors. I get bullied of like "omg you can't think like that. YOU HAVE TO THINK LIKE ME". Fucking why??? Aren't we all individuals, with our own feelings, our own thoughts and our own emotions. Why do trauma survivors do this? I legit, don't understand.

Yes, I put in the work because I WANTED to heal. I've told many stories on how Healing is a choice (I might post more when my memories come up). You have Google, you have the library, you have FREE ACCESS TO PSYCHOLOGY TO UNDERSTAND YOUR BRAIN.

Do know what I typed in Google, when I wanted to understand my own brain. Okay... Here's a list;

Why I get flashbacks?

What is Flashbacks?

Why do I date abusive men?

What is Trauma Bonding?

Why do I attract toxic friends?

Why do I get nightmares?

PTSD symptoms

PTSD symptoms no one talks about

PTSD depression

Why doesn't my mother love me?

Depression in PTSD

PTSD Vs CPTSD

Autism Vs CPTSD

Why do I argue a lot?

Why do hide myself?

What is Co-dependency

What is trauma bonding?

Toxic mother's

What is over bearing mother's?

Why do I hate myself?

Understanding the dynamics of Dysfunctional families?

What is Dysfunctional families?

What is narcissism?

Narcissistic mother?

The effects on sexual assault in children?

Aftermath after sexual assault and the symptoms?

What is Trauma Bonding in families?

What is trauma memories?

How do I cope with trauma memories?

How do I escape my abusive family?

What is a refuge?

How much does living own cost?

This is just SOME on what I typed in. IF you follow my blog, you know I ask questions on WHY. Why do we do the things that we do? Why do we act in a certain way? Why, why, why.

I know people hate me asking questions on why. Oh, I know they do. They can fuck off because I ain't changing. Asking why, helped me understand my brain. I'm not changing for no one. Fuck that!

I do this to understand my brain and how it works.

I WANTED to heal, so I asked myself; why?

God bless diet Coke

My lunch today :)

My low calorie pizza. I had two today because I was STARVING (literally)

The pizza:

Zero carb lite tortilla (45 each)

Pizza sauce (35)

Fat free mozzarella (45)

Bell pepper (15)

Pineapple (60)

Total: 240 calories

(120 per pizza)

I spent like $90 on groceries today so expect lots of food posts. I got a lot of low cal recipes I wanna try!