Who I Am & Why I’m Here 💙

“Silent watcher” Kenzo Tenma x F!Reader

genre: fluff, slight angst to comfort. cw: slight spoilers, anxiety, dealing with trauma, post canon au

The second week of October in the foothills of southern Germany was overcast. From the small open balcony, where her feet were freezing from standing for so long, there was a view of the misty plain a couple of dozen meters down the slope. She rested her shoulder on the door frame, slightly leaning to the side, and dispassionately watched the drumming raindrops. The humidity of the air provided a sense of coolness with each breath, as if reaching the alveoli directly, and the rhythmic pounding of the drops hitting the surface was pleasantly calming.

Once she hated the rain. But then something changed. No, the rainfalls did not become less frequent, less gray. She became different.

From a warm awareness, a shadow of a smile appeared on her calm face, and her auditory receptors were distracted by another monotonous sound. The rustle of the rain slowly began to replace by the rustle of a pen sliding over paper, coming from the bedroom they shared for the duration of their stay in the hotel. Her bare feet carefully stepped over the wooden sill, not wanting to feel the still fresh pain of hitting it last night, and found themselves on a room’s floor which was only a couple of degrees warmer than the wet tiles of the balcony. Her hair, slightly fluffed up by the moisture, kept trying to get into her face as her quiet steps made their way towards the desk.

He had once loved the rain. But then something had changed. No, the rainfalls had not become less frequent, less gray. He had become different.

The black ink of the pen traced the lines of the German alphabet evenly on the expensive coated paper. He wanted to focus on the unwanted mail, just not to hear it, just not to remember it, just not to see it. The meaningless advertisements and annoying requests for interviews that he had finally learned to ignore seemed to be a salvation for him at such moments. Focusing on the calligraphic handwriting, on the work of the hand, writing the letters with excessive diligence, he was distracted. Perhaps this was partly why he decided to connect his life with neurosurgery. Endless hours of painstaking manual work freed him from the need to live in the present. The brain was busy, the heart also temporarily fell quiet. The silence lulled.

Kenzo continued to write out template phrases of greetings, apologies, farewells. It seemed as if just a little more and he would go to the neighboring rooms, collecting advertising letters, and would write responses to them, signing them himself as Mr. N or Mrs. T. He himself, also not noticing, slightly blushed from excessive efforts, completely immersed in routine work.

The pen froze only for a moment, when a cool trace of someone else's palm remained on his hot cheek, on the opposite temple - a slight imprint of cold lips.

If someone had been watching them through the window that overlooked the shallow slope, they would have been reminded of Klimt's "Kiss". The play of temperatures descended on his collarbone, diving under the collar of his wide shirt along with a woman's forearm, as cold as the pads of her fingers, which still tormented the capillaries on his cheek with a chill. The rain was disgusting to him. The rain was mixed with blood, hatred, the sticky and tenacious nightmare of Ruenheim. But now only it gave him another moment with her, another joyful moment of life. Another second, minute, hour, day spent with someone who truly knew him. Love in the present, not the future and not the past.

And only the rain could paint their "Kiss".

English is not my first language, but I’m pretty fluent, so had to use translator and correct some mistakes, would love some feedback :)

I'm writing to you as a last resort🚨

after exhausting all my options. I am a computer engineer who was on the verge of graduating from university after tremendous effort. My life and the lives of my family have been completely destroyed as if they never existed.

(This is me before the war😄)

(This is what I became in war 💔)

We were a family of five living in a two-story home, a place filled with warmth and laughter. But now, that home stands in ruins, destroyed in the war. The life we built there, all our belongings and memories, are gone. We are now left homeless, without any possessions, and with no means to provide for ourselves.

(This is me and my family before the war when our smiles had meaning🤗)

I am a university student, so close to graduating. I’ve worked tirelessly for years to reach this point, but now my dreams feel unattainable. The devastation of war has not only obliterated our home but also my aspirations for a bright future. We have no steady income or resources, and finding work is nearly impossible in these dire circumstances.

(This is me in college when I was working on my college projects👨‍💻)

Winter is here, bringing with it bitter cold and relentless rain. Without a solid roof over our heads, water seeps into our temporary shelter, chilling us to the bone. We have nothing to keep us warm or dry, as we left our home with nothing but the clothes on our backs in a frantic escape from the bombs. There was no time to gather our belongings or think of anything beyond survival.

(This is what we have left of our two-story house 💔)

Every day is a battle, not just for warmth but for food as well. We often go to bed hungry, unsure of where our next meal will come from. The simple act of providing for ourselves has become an overwhelming challenge. We live with the hope that someone will hear our story and extend a helping hand, enabling us to rebuild our lives, stay warm, and continue facing the immense losses we have endured.

(This is where we live now, a piece of nylon around us that does not protect from rain, cold or bullets.💔 )

My mother is sick and suffers from multiple chronic diseases, including high blood pressure, diabetes, heart disease, and nerves, and she needs continuous treatment. She also suffers from back and neck discs that require surgical intervention. Due to the harsh conditions we live in, we lack the necessary capabilities to provide the necessary medications and treatments for her, and we live in constant fear for her health and life.

(This is the amount of medicine my mother takes to be able to bear the pain and keep up with life💊💔)

Your donation of $50 will help me overcome the difficult situation we are living in, achieve my dream of graduating, and provide the necessary treatment and surgeries for my mother. Please be a reason for her recovery.

You will find my donation link in my profile or here in the link. Please do not spare any effort in helping us🙏. ⬇️

https://www.gofundme.com/f/last-sanctuary-help-me-to-build-my-shelter

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🌟 A Journey of Hope: An Update from Mosab 🌟

Hello dear friends,

I am writing to you with a heart full of gratitude and hope. Over the past few weeks, your support has been overwhelming. Together, we’ve raised an incredible €3031 towards our goal of €20,000, and I cannot express how much this means to my family and me. ❤️🌍

Life here in Gaza has always been filled with challenges, but the current circumstances have made it unimaginably difficult. As some of you know, my family has endured unimaginable losses – 25 of my loved ones were taken by the violence. 💔 Their memory is my driving force to keep moving forward, to survive, and to share our story with the world.

Your generosity – through donations, reblogs, and kind words – has shown me that even in the darkest times, there is light. ✨ Every euro donated, every reblog shared, every message of encouragement has made an impact. You’ve helped us cover basic necessities, keep our spirits alive, and dream of a safer future.

🛠️ How You Can Help:

💶 Donate – No matter how small, every euro helps. 👉 https://gofund.me/5ac9124f

🔄 Reblog – Share this post with your followers. Every reblog increases the chance of reaching someone who can help.

📢 Spread the Word – Talk about our story with your friends and family. Awareness is a powerful tool.

To everyone who has already supported us: Thank you from the depths of my heart. ❤️ Your kindness gives me hope and strength to face each day. You are not just helping my family survive; you are reminding us that we are not alone in this fight.

Together, we can reach the goal of €20,000, and with your help, we will. Please keep sharing, keep donating, and keep believing in the power of compassion. 🌈💖

Thank you for being part of this journey with us.

With love and gratitude, Mosab 🕊️

✅️ Vetted by ✅️

@gazavetters, my number verified on the list is ( #309 )✅️

Hello I am Ahmed aldany 15 years old live in Gaza

🚨Look what happened to me yesterday 😱

Yesterday was a cold winter day, when I left our very cold tent in the displacement camp where I was looking for some food for my family. While I was walking in the deserted street, a skinny cat caught my attention, turning over the remains of the garbage with extreme hunger. Her sight was painful, she looked weak and exhausted, and her eyes carried a look of distress. 💔

I approached her cautiously, as I know that hunger can make her afraid. I took out a can of sardines that I had bought to satisfy my hunger, but I gave it to the cat and remained without food, and extended it towards her. She hesitated a little before she started eating it greedily. I sat next to her and looked at her, and I saw a wound on her foot that was hindering her movement, and it was clear that she needed treatment. 😭💔

I decided to help her. I carried her gently and returned home with her. Despite the limited resources, I washed her wound with a wet cloth and gave her some water and food that we shared as a family. The cat gradually began to recover, and became a part of our lives. We named her "Amal" because she gave us a sense of hope despite everything we were going through.😭😭

One day, while I was sitting with her, I remembered my previous cat who was killed in cold blood by the occupation in the bombing of our house. This is a picture of me and her sleeping in my arms, feeling reassured.🥹❤️

I also thought about my situation. I also need help; my damaged teeth make me feel pain every day, and I need dental implants to be able to eat normally. But how can I afford the treatment?🥺😭😭

So I hope all my friends will donate to me and help me, and also share my story or write a post explaining the details we are living so that the whole world knows the suffering we are living. Thank you. I hope you will help me and my new cat Amal🥹❤️❤️

My campaign vatted by:

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🙏🚨🚨It has been over a year since the Genocide started. 🇵🇸

We are tense, and anxious, and hungry, and cold. We have been bombed and displaced as we face a genocide. 🇵🇸

Our family is smaller and smaller, many with injuries like my brother who lost his feet and hand. It has taken more than just that life and limb, this war has taken my future, my children's future, and my family's future from us. 🇵🇸🍉

The children cry out in the night from the cold and hunger. We adults hold in our pain as best we can, to try and give them comfort. But we are helpless without funds. Please donate as much as you can. Anything is enough! 🍉🍉

https://gofund.me/8719ed7b

Happy Holidays but keep us in your thoughts

📢🚨 If you ignore this, you are condemning Adam to death 🚑🚨

I am speaking to you from the heart of a mother who is watching her son collapse before her eyes

My heart bleeds with pain for Adam whose weak body cannot bear the catastrophic environment in which he lives

He lost 15 kilograms of his weight due to the lack of special food for a disabled child who suffers from difficulty swallowing and digestion

Now he suffers from a health problem that has affected his respiratory system as a result of the dust, destruction and polluted environment surrounding him, as he cannot do without a vaporizer in light of the horrific high prices and power outages, as I walk kilometers in his wheelchair so that he can receive treatment in the hospital

Urgent distress call to help me buy a vaporizer and provide solar energy to save my son from the troubles he is exposed to on a daily basis

He suffers from muscle spasms due to the lack of medicine, as he needs a medicine called (Kepra) that he takes in two doses daily, morning and evening

Imagine with me, O human, that you have a disabled child and you stand helpless, unable to provide him with food, medicine or shelter, as we live In a tent that looks like a grave

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Your donation may save Adam from death

Adam will enjoy health and wellness if you provide him with his food and medicine 🙏💔🫂❣️

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Hello dear people

I am Nabila from Gaza,, I am speaking to you with a heavy and painful heart. I am sorry that I had to ask for help from you, but what we are living is what pushed me to do this. I was living a beautiful, quiet life, enjoying the time I spend with my grandchildren and seven daughters.

Imagine waking up to find that your world has changed in a moment, and you have lost your security and peace, and your home has been destroyed, and you have become homeless and living in conditions that no human being can bear. I suffer from chronic diseases, high blood pressure and diabetes. My medication has run out for some time and I am facing difficulty in obtaining it in light of the lack of treatment in hospitals and health centers. Most of the time I cannot feel my limbs, but I am trying to resist. I do not want to die in such circumstances. I still have hope that this war will end and we will rebuild our beautiful and beloved country again and live in safety. I believe in divine power and justice and that all this pain will go away.

I am trying to endure these difficult conditions that I live in inside a small tent and a bathroom a few meters away from my tent and you know the conditions of diabetics in this case but once again there is still hope. I used to live at the expense of my daughters but with all sadness and regret they have all lost their homes and places of work and they have no source of income left and their situation is like that of any Gazan who is still inside Gaza struggling with death, hunger, diseases and extreme heat each one struggling to feed his children I cannot ask them for help so I have resorted to you and I am fully confident in your humanity to help me so that I can provide food and treatment and provide a better tent than the one I live in because it is torn and the place is full of insects. If I can provide treatment, I want to continue my life and see my grandchildren grow up around me. I don’t want to go now. I know that I don’t have as much life left as I have, but I have the right to live and enjoy this. Please don’t hesitate to help your mother who has come to you with a heavy and sad heart. Every dollar will make a difference in my life. Don’t leave me to live this pain. I appreciate what you are doing for every Palestinian inside and outside Gaza. I pray to God that you don’t go through what we are going through, my beloved.

Medical visits and insulin: $5000

Travel and transportation to hospital, coordination with Egypt's border: $5000

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‼️Dangerous

💔My heart and my family's heart were broken when our tents were destroyed and our spirits were shattered when our belongings were flooded💔

Dear good people, I am writing to you with pain and hope. We lost our tent, which was our last refuge after losing our home.Strong winds

swept everything away, leaving us without a roof or cover to protect us from the harsh winter.

My child and my family are now facing the bitter cold without bedding or blankets, and we are unable to provide even the basics for a decent life.

Our urgent needs and how to use the requested amount (5000 euros):

1. Two tents: 2000 euros

- One tent for each family, strong and weather-resistant, to provide shelter and protect my children from the bitter cold.

2. Simple bathroom: 1000 euros

- To meet our basic needs and restore some of our dignity.

3. Bed covers and blankets: 1200 euros

- To provide warmth to our children and the elderly during the harsh winter nights.

4.Winter clothes: 800 euros

- Includes jackets, shoes and wool socks to protect my family from the cold.

Total: 5000 euros only.

? Why are we contacting you?

We have exhausted all our resources, and everything we have previously collected has been spent on basic needs. Today, we ask you to stand with us, because we believe that the goodness in your hearts will reach us.❤️

"🤝How can you help?

Your donation, no matter how small, means safety, warmth and life to us.Every euro can be the difference between a harsh and cold night and a smile on the faces of my child and my family as they feel safe.

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Spende für Help us to survive, organisiert von Ismail Hileh

Please help me and my family survive the war and leave the Gaza Strip I am Najah Al-Hai… Ismail Hileh braucht deine Unterstützung für

🙏 Please support my child and my family and help us get through this ordeal.

Verified by:

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Tagging for reach.

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Thank you

Please help me save my mother's life😭

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Donate to Please save what's left of my family, organized by Nada Al-Fara

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🌟 A Journey of Hope: An Update from Mosab 🌟

Hello dear friends,

I am writing to you with a heart full of gratitude and hope. Over the past few weeks, your support has been overwhelming. Together, we’ve raised an incredible €3031 towards our goal of €20,000, and I cannot express how much this means to my family and me. ❤️🌍

Life here in Gaza has always been filled with challenges, but the current circumstances have made it unimaginably difficult. As some of you know, my family has endured unimaginable losses – 25 of my loved ones were taken by the violence. 💔 Their memory is my driving force to keep moving forward, to survive, and to share our story with the world.

Your generosity – through donations, reblogs, and kind words – has shown me that even in the darkest times, there is light. ✨ Every euro donated, every reblog shared, every message of encouragement has made an impact. You’ve helped us cover basic necessities, keep our spirits alive, and dream of a safer future.

🛠️ How You Can Help:

💶 Donate – No matter how small, every euro helps. 👉 https://gofund.me/5ac9124f

🔄 Reblog – Share this post with your followers. Every reblog increases the chance of reaching someone who can help.

📢 Spread the Word – Talk about our story with your friends and family. Awareness is a powerful tool.

To everyone who has already supported us: Thank you from the depths of my heart. ❤️ Your kindness gives me hope and strength to face each day. You are not just helping my family survive; you are reminding us that we are not alone in this fight.

Together, we can reach the goal of €20,000, and with your help, we will. Please keep sharing, keep donating, and keep believing in the power of compassion. 🌈💖

Thank you for being part of this journey with us.

With love and gratitude, Mosab 🕊️

✅️ Vetted by ✅️

@gazavetters, my number verified on the list is ( #309 )✅️