11-14/10/18 - 29-32 Days Of Productivity

19/12/18 - 100/100 days of productivity!

As if I saved this as a draft instead of putting it into my queue 😑

Thank you so much for your continued support during my absence. It’s been a while but it is the holidays so I’m going to wait until next week to try my next run of 100 days, because that’s when I go back to sixth form.

So this was a while back, when I had just finished mocks. I find out how I did on the 10th January.

Integration at A2 is disgusting. Integration by substitution and especially integration by parts are just stupidly hard for my brain to understand for some reason haha

I feel... fulfilled. Somehow. Like I managed to achieve something meaningful that pushed me forwards in my goal of ultimately getting 5A*’s, because I’m normally a terrible procrastinator when I’m bored. Who knows, I may or may not get those grades but I will be proud of whatever I get because I put my best foot forward.

See you guys soon! I will be posting in the meantime (I promise) as I revise and get my brain back into the swing of things, so I’m going to be busy!

Reblogging because this is some serious talent that needs to be shown to the whole world 😍

Nathan

30/7/19

I’m a few days into creating this journal of chemistry fundamentals that I should know as a refresher before I start uni at the end of September. It’s a long way away yet, but I’d rather ease my brain into the work and kill my boredom in a fun way than panic, work too hard and burn myself out before I even start!

I hope you’re doing well!

22/04/2021 Uni’s back!

Guitar cases make great makeshift desks when you don’t have an actual desk lol

ft physical chemistry notes on dispersions and interfaces

remind yourself that you are a person. not an object. not a thing. not an it. it doesn’t matter who threw you away or let you down. it doesn’t matter how you were treated in the past. you are worthy and capable of achieving anything. 

We all forget things.

So today I was meant to give a presentation in front of my chemistry class, but I completely forgot and didn’t prepare anything. I was mortified when my name was called and I told her, “But I can’t - I’ve literally not prepared for this at all!” The room went silent and I felt so awful in that moment.

My chemistry teacher said, “I will see you outside.” And I thought I would get a bollocking. As soon as I got outside, I broke down crying, annoyed at myself because I never do things like that. I wanted to show her how on it I am and how well I can rise to challenges like public speaking, but instead I failed to follow a simple instruction and humiliated myself in front of the class.

So I went outside, ready to go on the defensive about why I should not be made to present. My teacher gave me the biggest hug and told me that I am only human - which is why she would let me do my presentation next week and just in front of her. She reminded me not to be so cruel and hard on myself, because I do that. I beat myself up over little things.

She told me that I have so much on my plate right now with university stuff as well as upcoming mocks that I should allow myself to be forgetful once in a while.

She told me that she is usually the most organised person ever but she forgets to bring stuff to the right lessons all the time.

She told me she doesn’t hate me, isn’t disappointed in me and all she wants is for me to stop stressing. And then she told me to go to the toilets and wash my face while she told the rest of the class not to talk about it.

My point is, it’s okay to skip a beat and forget something. It’s okay to admit you are only human.

And I am blessed to have a teacher who genuinely cares. How many people can say the same nowadays?

You know when you *should* work but you are having such a bad day you can’t? That’s me right now. And I’m cool with that

14/01/19 - Exploring Berlin

What an awesome way to turn 18! Although I could have gone to more museums and just generally done more, the stuff I did do was fantastic and I’m sharing with you a really important point of interest. Yeah we did the Reichstag and the Brandenburger Tor and the East Side Gallery - and the Deutsches Spionagemuseum (which was amazing!), but I think one of the most profound landmarks we visited was the Denkmal für die ermordeten Juden Europas.

I wanted to take time to see the memorial for the murdered Jewish people of the Holocaust and really just wander and ponder. It’s such an eerily tranquil place - a black hole in the middle of a bustling city. It’s disorienting and yet peaceful. Claustrophobic and rigid but very organic and human too, somehow.

I vow to make my adulthood one that will ensure that such immense suffering never happens again.

Walking home from a long day at sixth form

Ft my old primary school :)

I did a lot of reading today and caught up with my old head of year.

The weather is gorgeous but it should NOT be this hot in February :(

These diagrams make me happy

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