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Foxes against humanity No.7

No.6<—-

The thing is that Kevin has no one to lean and confide into

Thea could barely believe that Riko broke Kevin's hand. She gets mad at him for not being open with her and then proceeds to discredit and not believe in him (how to be an awfull person 101). Kevin could never trust her enough to really talk about the level of abuse he faced, she could barely handle the surface of it

Even though he has his dad, I dont think Kevin feels confortable to really share those things with him, simply bc Wymack is also too emotionally involved in the situation and probably blames himself for not being there to protect Kevin (which is not his fault).

He cant connect or trust Bee and considers her to be Andrew's

Andrew and Neil are in a world of their own

This leaves him with no one and a very serious alcohol related problem

Not to mention Kevin was the one who spent the most time In the Nest. Jean arrived when he was 14, Kevin has been in that hell hole since his mom died. He probably watched Riko get more and more cruel and mean everyday, without being able to do nothing about it. Not to mention how hard it must have been to deal with the change in the way he was treated after his mom died. Being slowly turned into a thing, into property, by the kid you considered your brother and the man you considered your uncle. When did things got so bad?

How it must have been the first day Riko tortured him? Does he remembers it? And how it happened? Did Riko slowly started to realize, now that Kevin was alone in the world, he could do whatever he wanted to him? Did Kevin try do defend himself only to learn that Tetsuji would ignore Riko's behavior, but wouldnt ignore it if Kevin fought back? In the back of his mind, does Kevin remembers the days in which things weren't like this? Like a faded memory of him and Riko playing around and laughing while Tetsuji and Kaylight talked? Did he grab onto this memory at the begging, hoping the kid he considered his brother was still in there somehow, somewhere, only to learn slowly that whatever path Riko chose had no coming back from?

Like, just imagine being a kid, grieving your mother and all of a sudden Uncle Tetsuji becomes Master and your best friend becomes self proclaimed n° 1

And then abuse becomes almost a second language, all your days feel like a fever dream , training like hell, being hurten like hell, all alone in the world, stuck in the Nest and trying to tell yourself this is what your mother would have wanted, even though the fading memories of her touch feels so different from the heavy hands and sticks you are now used to. How could someone who cradled you so gentily want this for you? But...did she ever cradled him? Or was that distant memory just a dream? It certainly felt like a dream sometimes.

Kevin really desearves to heal properly 🥺🥺🥺

no Listen kevin is doing the least healing out of everyone andrew goes to therapy he trusts people in his life he confides in neil and neil coped by running and lying and now he’s Staying he’s trying to be honest and to confide in others and letting himself love even jean is going to therapy for his water phobia and is working to trust people and is getting to the point where he can admit what happened to him was awful and he didn’t deserve it but kevin?? kevin doesn’t talk about his feelings Ever the most vulnerable we see him is when he has panic attacks about riko and what does he do? talk to the people around him? NO he chugs vodka and shoves it all down that’s all he does repress repress repress I doubt he’s even vulnerable in therapy yes bee knows the facts of the situation but when I first got into therapy I would give my life history so rehearsed and robotic and detached he can’t acknowledge how the horrible things he went through Affected him part of him still thinks the abuse made sense!!! because it was punishment for not being perfect!!! and he still believes he has to be perfect above all else!!!!

Just yes, absolutely just yes

This quote was too Agathario to pass up 🩸

Jean "knowing this cologne came from another man is making me murderous" Moreau I am OBSESSED with you

Yeah Mary, your boy did listen to you

He didnt got close to girls....but with a certain boy....

thinking about how Neil let Andrew do every single one of these things to him without noticing just because Andrew’s a boy and Mary was heteronormative

MY GOD! YOU JUST TRANSLATED INTO WORDS WHAT I FEEL EVERYTIME SOMEONE ASKS ME WHAT I WANT!!

Like, I dont want to make another person not eat something the REALLY want bc of something I mildly want

I hate when people ask me about my preference but I don’t understand their preference level. Like yes I kinda want Chinese food 10% more than I want a sandwich but if you want a sandwich like 40% more than Chinese food then I would say it’s totally reasonable we get sandwiches.

i could be convinced im a demigod purely because of how vivid my dreams are but in a way that one of the olympians is completely fucking with me in the dream cast. like none of the plot lines are making sense, im existing across two completely different metaphysical planes, somehow jason grace is there, but im physically experiencing all of it nonetheless

doodle bc this is extremely Jean coded

Neil is that stray cat who will scratch the absolute sh*t out of you if you try to hug or pet it

He needs ppl who will just accept his presence there, no matter how many cups he pushes off of the balcony(and he WILL push every mug or cup he has the opportunity to, bc he is just waiting for the time it is gonna be too much and everyone is gonna leave him, like he is used to) and ppl who will not bother or make a big deal out of it once he eventually decides to get close and lay on their laps or by their side. But getting close has to be his decision, bc his problem isnt that he thinks no one would ever show him love, his problem is that he believes he is too much and that this love will never be something permanent, at some point he is gonna cause too much trouble and ppl will give up on him. So he has to be the one to get close and he just needs ppl to be prepared for when he realizes they arent backing away, no matter how hard he tries to make them. Those are the Foxes. They respected all his limits (biggest example is the shower thing), stayed away as long as he needed to (but always in arms reach) and once he believed he had gone too far and nobody would be there for him (Baltimore), they still are there waiting. Thats when he opens up and allows them to come in his world. He would never survive the Trojans shower of affection or their worried intromissions in his life (not bc he didnt like them, but bc he would never see them as genuine, so he would see it as threat and run)

Jean is that dog that has been beaten and put to sleep on the outside way too many times. He doesnt know love, but he also doesnt know freedom. He doesnt need ppl to prove that they will stick by him, bc his abusers have stuck by his side all his life. He needs ppl to prove to him that they will stay by his side not because they hate or despise him, but because they love him deeply. Once he sees affection he will find it weird, but he will accept it (bc he was taught not to bite, unlike tge stray cat, that learned to bite and scratch at the smallest sign of a threat) long enough to actually start liking it. He will see the love he never had and even though it scares the fuck out of him, he will stay. He doesnt believe anybody would ever love him, but he has wished to be a loved qll his life with every cell of his body, so once he is in fact loved, even though it scares him and he doesnt think he desearves it, he cant help but to be drawn by it. For him it feels like a trap (why would anybody ever love HIM??), but he just cant help to fall for it. And once he realizes it in fact isnt a trap and that ppl actually like and find him worthy, he will also start to give this love back, bc thats all he ever wanted, to love and be loved. It still feels like ge is in a fever dream, but he just wants to enjoy every single part of it, like someone who has walked on a desert for days and suddenly finds a river with clean water

They are completely different, but at the same both Neil and Jean just wanted to find a family, to find ppl who would love and accept them for who they were and both have found it 🥹🥹

I just love them so much

The more I think about the differences between how the Trojans show affection vs how the Foxes do, the more I come to the conclusion that they unwittingly created the perfect environment for Jean and Neil’s arcs respectively.

Take for example the way Cat and Laila show Jean affection. The forehead kisses, the hugs, the endless reassurance and compassion. It may go without saying but Neil would’ve hated it if he ended up in that situation. He would’ve booked it faster than you can say Wesninski. But Jean? I mean sure he was baffled at first, but the way he grows to lean into it? The way he shows affection the same way back? Jean needed that brand of affection in a way Neil won’t ever. He needed to learn that he was deserving of such love; that there are people out there now who cared about him as deeply as he does them.

Neil on the other hand needed to learn a whole different set of lessons. The Foxes showing him that they care was less such obvious displays of love and more about patience in the face of his complications. More about their willingness to stick by him when the fabricated life he clung so hard to unraveled at the seams. Jean wouldn’t have flourished as much in that environment because he didn’t need understanding as much as he needed love. He didn’t need someone to help piece his life back together as much as he needed someone to love what was already there.

Neil is like an innocent looking stray cat that the foxes still kept even when they got bit; while Jean is like an abused show dog that the Trojans nurse back to health. And good lord do I love them both for it.

Ok I'm rereading the extra content and I think this part right here is very important

Andrew says him resisting Kevin is self-preservation and he is not gonna give what is left of him to Kevin to ruin.

Because see what Kevin's obsession with exy got him. A life of torture and a broken hand and being afraid to death of a mentally ill guy named Riko. So Andrew is just trying to protect himself from the same outcome.

But then Neil comes, and he is just as messed up as Kevin is (even more tbh), and Andrew sees first hand how exy is the motivation that makes Neil resist, how making bonds with the other foxes makes Neil look more alive, how having this thing with Andrew makes Neil want to live and not give up. And I think this is exactly why that at the end Andrew agrees to care about exy and give it a shot. Because it worked for Neil right? Maybe it'll also work for Andrew.