𝐇𝐀𝐈𝐊𝐘𝐔𝐔 𝐁𝐎𝐘𝐒’ 𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐒 𝐖𝐇𝐄𝐍

𝐇𝐀𝐈𝐊𝐘𝐔𝐔 𝐁𝐎𝐘𝐒’ 𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐒 𝐖𝐇𝐄𝐍 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐒𝐀𝐘 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐃𝐎𝐍'𝐓 𝐅𝐄𝐄𝐋 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐃

with: tobio, oikawa, atsumu, samu + kita.

a/n: they’re doing their best ok :’(( love is just rly hard. <333

ps: wrote this in 15 mins cus my brain was overflowing pls forgive the messy writing my heart is just exploding right now.

🗝 kageyama immediately panics and asks you how he can fix it; he knows he’s a little clueless when it comes to relationships, but he didn’t think he was doing that badly until he saw the look of hurt in your eyes at your confession. when he started your relationship he told himself he’d go into it with no inhibitions— that he’d love you fully, opening up parts of himself he’s never exposed to anyone and letting you see the good, the bad, and the ugly. the truth is, though, he got lost somewhere along the way— he settled on “good enough” instead of the crazy kind of love he knew you deserved because he was afraid of getting hurt. there’s nothing he won’t do to save your relationship, and after a few cups of hot chocolate and a long conversation that stretches into the early hours of the morning, you’re getting off on the right foot again and you’re more than excited to see what the rest of your relationship has in store. he promises himself he’ll try harder for you, because your kind of love is worth it. 

🗝 oikawa doesn’t believe you and thinks you’re joking; in his mind, he’s the perfect lover— handsome, funny, smart, playful, teasing, the list goes on… but he failed to realize all of the little ways that love can fail. it isn’t black and white, not as easy as it sounds. you’d had a suspicion his previous partners never really asked for what they wanted, too grateful to just have him in their live and afraid of upsetting him. but you’re not afraid of hurting his ego, not if it means you can reach a deeper level with him— somewhere no one else has gone before. once he swallows his pride and actually listens to you, quieting the voices in his head that scream at him to run away because rejection hurts, he’s opening himself up more and admits his ego is just a defense mechanism. you talk things out for a few hours and once he understands how you feel, he’s wrapping you up in his arms and kissing you with a softness you’ve never felt from him before. “i’ll be better for you, baby, i might just need a little help along the way.”

🗝 atsumu suddenly feels like he’s not so alone; he’s always been convinced he loved you more— that he was the one who’d get broken up with eventually once you realized he was a little too clingy or a little too loud for your tastes. you were always so pretty and put together— so he dialed it back for you because he thought you were worth being a “better” version of himself. but ultimately he lost the light within himself that drew you to him in the first place, his playful smiles and cheesy jokes no longer filling the silent space of your bedroom at night as you two drifted off together. he’s honestly relieved when you say you’ve been unhappy, because he has too. he just wants to be himself, and now that he knows he won’t lose you because of it, he’s pulling you into him and kissing you a million times like he used to. it’s the affection and silliness you missed the most— and your heart practically bursts when he asks if you can go for ice cream later because you get so excited every time, and that’s when he thinks you’re the cutest.

🗝 osamu isn’t offended at all, he just wants to know how he can love you better; he’s always been a level-headed guy, calculating yet indifferent when it comes to things that don’t really matter. but you— you matter. he wants to give you everything in the world, he’d just been so busy with work and the restaurant that he’d forgotten how lonely it can feel falling asleep alone at night. you were always by his side when he needed you, but he wasn’t by yours, and it’s something he’s not quite sure he’ll forgive himself for right away. it’s a mature, quiet conversation that has you feeling like you two will be completely okay, because the way he listens makes you feel heard for the first time in a long time— and it occurs to you, all you really have to do is open up to osamu for him to try a little harder for you. you realize how truly perfect he is when you two make up and he’s immediately making your favorite dessert from scratch, just to spoil you a little. he acts like he’s over it but he holds you a little tigher that night, pulls you in a little closer, kisses you a little longer.

🗝 kita is dumbfounded and honestly feels guilty; he calmly asks you how he can be better and listens to every single word of your answer with tact. his grandma had always taught him to respect everyone, and love like there’s no tomorrow because there might not be. but with life getting in the way, he didn’t realize how lonely you were or the fact that he really was loving you from afar. the thing about kita is that he’s always known you were his whole world— the only person who made him think that maybe messes weren’t so messy, that things appearing neat were actually flawed and perfect. he’s in love with you and he knows all of the ways he wants to love you, he just has to remind himself to put them into action. he’s always caught up in the little things that, quite frankly, don’t matter all that much. its ok to be a little unorganized with love sometimes, and he realizes now more than ever that you were right— he hadn’t been loving you the way you deserved. but he’s going to try for you, because he knows he’s the man for you, he feels it in his heart just as much as you do.

a/n: idk what this is + it’s so rambly but just go with it ok :’)