I’ve Given Up Hope

The Pevensie children are too old for their age.

Their mom notices, at the dinner table. She sees no nagging children, no stupid fights. She sees Lucy eating and speaking with perfect manners, Edmund analysing the economy and war with concerning skill, Susan being gracious but poised, like a diplomat.

Their father sees it in Peters eyes the first time they get into a fight. When he moves to punish Edmund for speaking out of turn, Peter calls him out on it. When his gaze meet his eldest son's, he's leveled by the war he sees behind it, the tensed muscle in his arm, the knuckles white around his knife. He's seen that before, in other soldiers. He doesn't know how to react.

Other children notice, too. Talking to all the Pevensie kids at the same time is like being the only one left out of a secret, and the way they touch and tease each other speaks of a history far deeper than their polite demeneor lets on. And when they walk they fall in line, as if there is a natural hierarchy between them.

The first time anyone picks a fight with Edmund, Peter comes home with a three week suspension and blood around his mouth. He looks more alive than you've seen him in weeks.

When Susan gets back in the pool after Narnia, she wins all the contests. Coaches can't explain how to beat her, because they don't understand how she's doing it, either. She seems to almost disappear when underwater.

Lucy, always gay and golden-haired, starts dancing, and never misses a step. She moves with an elegance that no 10 year old should have, and all the girls want to be friends with her

Edmund soon becomes the best student in his faculty. He always seems to know the right thing to say, and teachers laud his ability to think through complex problems. His mouth does get him in trouble sometimes, but the boy seems uncatchable, always talking his way through the cracks. And if not?

No one actively fears Peter, but everyone is a little scared of him sometimes. He's tall for his age, sure, but there is something else, some other air that seems to give him an authority far beyond what's normal for a teenage boy. He's nice enough, but teachers can't stand it, and bullies learn very quickly that pissing him off means missing teeth and black eyes.

The Pevensies are not quite inhuman, but not fully mortal, either

I feel like this is an accurate representation of my current mental state

Is anyone talking about how Percy, who said he chose Annabeth for the quest because he thought she'd push him down the stairs if it meant the quest would succeed, actually did that for her instead?

Bro was literally poisoned and dying and saw how Annabeth was willing to take a stand against the literal DEMIGOD KILLER to protect him and what did he do? PUSHED BOTH ANNABETH AND GROVER DOWN THE STAIRS SO THEY COULD CARRY ON THE QUEST WITHOUT HIM!!!!!

Beautiful. Cinema at its finest! Love me some good ass parallels that develop these characters better than I ever could imagine!

Finally watching 3x01 of redemption and I loooove the Hardison and Eliot thing where Hardison will poke fun at Eliot, just generally tease him, right after Eliot’s just done this big act of violence - “there’s my special guy, how was your first day of school?” Because it’s very standard “teasing is their love language” but I think it comes from a place of Hardison poking the bear so Eliot will know his family isn’t afraid of him. Like, after Eliot knocks half a dozen people unconscious like it’s no big deal, there’s this characteristic reassurance from his family, this, “I know you’re still you.”

Leverage (2008–2012) & Leverage: Redemption (2021–) x DOCTOR WHO

i will never get over the "jeremiah's a bad brother" from the con-gave-me-a-rash supporters. especially if you add in the "conrad is an amazing brother" bc what. did we watch the same show? conrad consistently uses jeremiah's insecurities against him and makes hin feel bad for not knowing things that conrad specifically keeps from him. and the difference between jeremiah finding out about bonbad vs conrad finding out about jellyfish does matter. bc jeremiah said "he'll break your heart" (if one more person is like "he pulled the cancer card" i'll lose my mind, he JUST found out abt it ofc they're intertwined emotions, and conundrum's whole personality is the cancer card so what?) and stops talking to belly, but is perfectly polite to them and privately, kindly, and calmly sets a boundary with conrad. conrad asks if belly only kissed jeremiah to make him jealous (which is so fucked, jesus), and then makes some weird creepy allusion to crashing the car bc he's mad, slut shames jeremiah, calls jeremiah (and belly but this is abt conrad and jere) stupid, picks at jeremiah, asks who the better kisser is, tells him he doesn't know belly, and then refuses to talk to jeremiah until jeremiah forces him to. and he's supposed to be the better brother? also, the "conrad asked for jeremiah's blessing first, jeremiah didn't" one, he at least knew a little bit that jeremiah and belly had a thing, hence why he texted her at the party, and then kissed her anyway. THEN after finding out jeremiah had feelings for her he says "it's jere, he doesn't take anything seriously, be with me" and then when belly (bc if it was up to him they'd be together) said she didn't wanna get together until jeremiah was okay with it, he lied to her to get with her. everyone talks abt the scene where he finds jere doing the bills alone and leaves him there after manipulating him into getting his blessing, but nobody talks about the line jere has "i can't believe you'd come here like this" bc he hasn't been there. he came home to ask jeremiah for his blessing and nothing else. he didn't even try to help jere with the bills. then asks jeremiah if he wants a medal when he talks about how hard it was taking care of susannah? yes, jeremiah shouldn't have said what he said, but the difference is this is one fight that's been bottled up for months, vs conrad consistently crossing the line and hurting jeremiah. him telling him to grow up was soooo unfair. he always picks at jeremiah's insecurities and blames jeremiah for forgiving adam when we don't even know if jeremiah (in the show) knows abt him cheating, and adam is the only family jeremiah (barely) has left. two, conrad getting with belly was planned, belly and jeremiah's kiss wasn't. three, conrad confessed his feeling to belly the night before her and jeremiah's wedding. that's. so. fucked. but jeremiah goes to their wedding, belly blows him a kiss and he just turns away. he tells him he just wants them to be happy. he even tells belly he won't be upset if she chooses conrad in s2. he convinces belly and conrad to talk about their feelings in s2. but the firework, a single fight, and a kiss make him a terrible person.

Season 3 has to happen for my sanity.

things I need to see in season 3:

kirin and rachel bonding over how their sports stress them out and the toxic environment of it

martha and josh bonding over their experiences of sa and trauma, and being able to talk to each other about it because they both understand

toni trying to fucking launch herself at kirin or scotty trying to hit on shelby

fatin and leah becoming more and more comfortable with physical affection with each other, and fatin thinking more about her sexuality involving girls

kirin trying to take control and dot fucking owning him and ordering him to go make a fire and then him being like “……” because they all had to use a fucking lighter

and then dot’s just is fucking shocked over how these dumbasses survived for more than a week

the girls all standing to the side watching henry and dot fight over the best way to preserve food

kirin trying to hit on fatin and then seeing leah murdering him with her eyes

and Rafael is just watching to the side and like “oh she’s gay”

martha never having to lay a finger on any animal again to kill since the others are doing the job for her, and she’s actually doing other things like gardening or foraging

kirin and josh’s friendship deepening along with ivan’s and kirin’s

toni forgiving shelby and loving stroking her head as her hair is growing back

fatin braiding all the girl’s hair amazingly bc we all saw her beautiful fishtail braid in the last episode

toni fighting it and slapping her hands away until fatin fucking wrestles her and pins her down

just all the girls being in love with each other and happy while the boys watch and then start to bond a bit more with each other

Dean's face🤣🤣

My favourite Eliot Spencer character trait is Friend-shaped To Children. Nate can't look at children without crying. Sophie is politely baffled at the concept of Humans Who Don't Understand Complicated Psychological Concepts Because They Are Literally 6 Years Old. Hardison has older brother energy, which is to say children are comfortable in his presence but they don't actively seek him out, unless of course to play an epic prank akin to the great tradition of Ring and Ditch or Spell ICUP. Parker will try to protect any child she can, but under-12s without autistic criminal intent don't really connect with her, unless of course they are Traumatized™.

Eliot Spencer is continuously sought out by children of all ages. Traumatized or not? Does not matter. Literally baby or cool teen? Does not matter. They will come up to him while he is glaring daggers or actively planning to murder someone and ask him to hold their hands through the security check at the airport. And you know what? He does. He holds their hand every single time.