THE DIM AFTERGLOW COULDN’T LIGHT UP HER AMBER EYES THAT HAD BECOME DULL. SHE HATED TO SEE THE SUNSET.
independent dr. leila cleo / jackal. adopted by mak / kai.
Send me one to see how my muse reacts.
Trigger warnings: violence, murder, depression
“The first rule of ______ is: you do not talk about _____. The second rule of ____ is: you do not talk about _____.”
“Hit me before I lose my nerve.”
“Fuck what you know. You need to forget about what you know, that’s your problem. Forget about what you think you know about life, about friendship, and especially about you and me.”
“When you have insomnia, you’re never really asleep… and you’re never really awake.”
“Advertising has us chasing cars and clothes, working jobs we hate so we can buy shit we don’t need.”
“I found freedom.”
“You can swallow a pint of blood before you get sick.”
“I’d fight Gandhi.”
“If you don’t claim your humanity, you will become a statistic.”
“People are always asking me if I know [name].”
“Never been in a fight. You?”
“I don’t even have to come into the office, I can do this job from home.”
“We’re a generation of men raised by women. I’m wondering if another woman is really the answer we need.”
“You wanna see pain? Swing by First Methodist Tuesday nights. See the guys with testicular cancer. That’s pain.”
“My dad never went to college, so it was real important that I go.”
“Ah, flashback humor.”
“I didn’t create some loser alter-ego to make myself feel better. Take some responsibility!”
“Hitting bottom isn’t a weekend retreat. It’s not a goddamn seminar. Stop trying to control everything and just let go!”
“All right, if the applicant is young, tell him he’s too young. Old, too old. Fat, too fat. If the applicant then waits for three days without food, shelter, or encouragement he may then enter and begin his training.”
“With a gun barrel between your teeth, you speak only in vowels.”
“Look, the people you are after are the people you depend on. We cook your meals, we haul your trash, we connect your calls, we drive your ambulances. We guard you while you sleep. Do not fuck with us.”
“I don’t wanna die without any scars.”
“Listen up, maggots!”
“Fuck Martha Stewart.”
“For a second I totally forgot about [name]’s whole controlled demolition thing and I wondered how clean that gun is.”
“I know everything you do, so if you know I know.”
“You met me at a very strange time in my life.”
“I’ll bring us through this. As always. I’ll carry you - kicking and screaming - and in the end you’ll thank me.”
“It’s only after we’ve lost everything that we’re free to do anything.”
“The things you own end up owning you.”
“This is your life, and it’s ending. One minute at a time.”
“[Name], I’m grateful to you; for everything that you’ve done for me. But this is too much. I don’t want this.”
“More than one side? You’re Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Jackass!”
“Motherfucker! You hit me in the ear!”
“All the ways you wish you could be, that’s me. I look like you wanna look, I fuck like you wanna fuck, I am smart, capable, and most importantly, I am free in all the ways that you are not.”
“You’re not your job. You’re not how much money you have in the bank. You’re not the car you drive. You’re not the contents of your wallet. You’re not your fucking khakis. You’re the all-singing, all-dancing crap of the world.”
“What would you wish you’d done before you died?”
“Our fathers were our models for God. If our fathers bailed, what does that tell you about God?”
“…We’re the same person.”
“Is that your blood?”
“I can’t believe he’s still standing.”
“He was a decent man, and we’re not gonna bury him in the fucking garden!”
“Three minutes. This is it - ground zero. Would you like to say a few words to mark the occasion?”
“I know this because [name] knows this.”
“You have to consider the possibility that God does not like you. He never wanted you. In all probability, He hates you. This is not the worst thing that can happen.”
“Self-improvement is masturbation. Now, self-destruction…”
“If you wake up at a different time in a different place, could you wake up as a different person?”
“Whoa, whoa, whoa! Okay, you are now firing a gun at your imaginary friend near 400 GALLONS OF NITROGLYCERINE!”
“It’s cheaper than a movie, and there’s free coffee.”
“Is that what a real man is supposed to look like?”
“Lord knows what they charged.”
“I look around, I look around, I see a lot of new faces.”
“Listen to me, I’m giving you a direct order. We’re aborting this mission right now.”
“With insomnia, nothing’s real. Everything’s far away. Everything’s a copy of a copy of a copy.”
“You’re going to call off your rigorous investigation. You’re going to publicly state that there is no underground group.”
“Why would anyone want this shit job?”
“We’ve all been raised on television to believe that one day we’d all be millionaires, and movie gods, and rock stars. But we won’t. And we’re slowly learning that fact. And we’re very, very pissed off.”
“On a long enough timeline, the survival rate for everyone drops to zero.”
“These guys are going to take your balls. They’re going to send one to the New York Times, one to the LA Times, press-release style.”
“[Name], what the fuck is going on here?”
“It’s called a changeover. The movie goes on, and nobody in the audience has any idea.”
“I want you to hit me as hard as you can.”
“Life insurance pays off triple if you die on a business trip.”
“[Name] is dead. They shot him in the head!”
“When people think you’re dying, they really, really listen to you, instead of just…”
“Why do people think I’m you?”
“Yeah, you’re sorry, I’m sorry, everybody’s sorry, but… I can’t do this anymore. I can’t. And I won’t. I’m gone.”
“Get the fuck out of here, you’re fired!”
“This isn’t a real suicide-thing. This is probably one of those cry-for-help things.”
“You are not special. You are not a beautiful or unique snowflake. You’re the same decaying organic matter as everything else.”
“I haven’t been fucked like that since grade school.”
“Losing all hope is freedom.”
“I’m not [name]!”
“We’re the middle children of history, man. No purpose or place. We have no Great War. No Great Depression. Our Great War’s a spiritual war… our Great Depression is our lives.”
“I ask you for one thing, one simple thing.”
“Fuck damnation, man! Fuck redemption! We are God’s unwanted children? So be it!”
“If I didn’t say anything, people always assumed the worst.”
“People do it everyday, they talk to themselves… they see themselves as they’d like to be, they don’t have the courage you have, to just run with it.”
“I have a better solution. You keep me on the payroll as an outside consultant and in exchange for my salary, my job will be never to tell people these things that I know.”
“[Name] had bitch tits.”
“You’re the worst thing that’s ever happened to me.”
“That’s, um… That’s an interesting theory.”
“Well, what do you want me to do? You just want me to hit you?”
“Get out of your apartment. Meet a member of the opposite sex. Stop the excessive shopping and masturbation. Quit your job. Start a fight. Prove you’re alive.”
“I feel like destroying something beautiful.”
“This isn’t love, it’s sport fucking.”
“It could be worse. A woman could cut off your penis while you’re sleeping and toss it out the window of a moving car.”
“I see all this potential, and I see squandering.”
“Why would anyone possibly confuse you with me?”
“[Name]’s philosophy of life is that she/he/they might die at any moment. The tragedy, she/he/they said, was that she/he/they didn’t.”
“How much can you know about yourself if you’ve never been in a fight?”
❝ it was just a dream. a bad dream. ❞ ❝ i’ve heard the rumor that you can’t stand me any more than the plague. ❞ ❝ you have to rest. we’ve still a long way ahead of us. ❞ ❝ mistakes are also important to me. i don’t cross them out of my life, or memory. ❞ ❝ i don’t remember what happened. only that i was frightened. ❞ ❝ that is my fate, my reason, my life. and it is not what i chose. it was chosen for me. ❞ ❝ remember, magic is chaos, art and science. it is a curse, a blessing and progress. ❞ ❝ it’s better to die than to live in the knowledge that you’ve done something that needs forgiveness. ❞ ❝ calmly, calmly, just don’t faint, i’m beside you. ❞ ❝ you are already dead. everything in you has already died. ❞ ❝ what the hell are you searching for? trouble? ❞ ❝ don’t you think that the time has come for more truthful confessions? ❞ ❝ difficult times are approaching. difficult and dangerous. ❞ ❝ look around you — there is crime and sin everywhere. ❞ ❝ this is no legend or fairy-tale. it is the truth. the sincere truth. ❞ ❝ it’s crap — all these princesses, sorceresses, destiny, love and fanciful tales. ❞ ❝ i lose a great deal of my charm when someone gets to know me better. ❞ ❝ he who fights by the sword dies by the sword. ❞ ❝ they say that it’s a bad sign…an omen. ❞ ❝ i will keep your secret. you have my word. ❞ ❝ let me remind you that spells are a serious matter. they are cast with grace and pride. ❞ ❝ did i wake you? sorry. ❞ ❝ you do not kill out of fear and hatred, but in order to save lives. ❞ ❝ are you going to leave me in suspense? that can’t be the end of your story. ❞ ❝ what have i done to deserve to be so high on your list? ❞ ❝ there, where mountains tower today, one day there will be seas; there where today seas surge, will one day be deserts. but stupidity will remain stupidity. ❞ ❝ i’ll carry on killing monsters in the ruins of this world until some monster kills me. ❞ ❝ when you know about something it stops being a nightmare. when you know how to fight something, it stops being so threatening. ❞ ❝ you forget that i know you, so don’t play the unfeeling mutant, devoid of heart. ❞ ❝ the less you know the better. ❞ ❝ you are not leaving here alone. i won’t let you be alone. not right now. ❞ ❝ who do you want to deceive? me? or maybe yourself? ❞ ❝ don’t play at being a hero. you have got yourself mixed up in a dangerous affair. ❞ ❝ i wouldn’t want anything bad to happen to you. ❞ ❝ i owe you exactly as much as you owe me. no more and no less. ❞ ❝ we are no more than toys in the hands of gods. ❞ ❝ you are important to me, and always will be. ❞ ❝ don’t talk to me about emotions. i’ve had enough of all this talk about emotions. ❞ ❝ the anger and vengeance of the gods hangs over you. ❞ ❝ mind your tongue, and who you’re speaking to. ❞ ❝ is it possible you don’t believe me? ❞ ❝ i am the one who ought to be asking for forgiveness. ❞ ❝ for you, it’s an adventure. for me, it’s a game in which the stakes are survival. ❞ ❝ you don’t have to kill your feelings. it’s enough to kill hatred within yourself. ❞ ❝ to be neutral does not mean to be indifferent or insensitive. ❞ ❝ there’s no such thing as a fair fight. you have to make use of every advantage and every opportunity you get. ❞ ❝ from what i’ve heard about you, i have no doubt you would manage. ❞ ❝ it’s your own fault and your own problem. ❞ ❝ stay with me tonight. ❞ ❝ you’ve mistaken the stars reflected on the surface of the lake at night for the heavens. ❞ ❝ you look almost thirty, think you’re just over twenty and act as though you’re barely ten. ❞ ❝ it all depends on who uses magic, how they use it, and to what purpose. ❞ ❝ you want to run from me? no one has escaped me yet. ❞ ❝ intolerance and superstition has always been the domain of the more stupid amongst the common folk. ❞ ❝ you like me? you have been good at concealing it up until now. ❞ ❝ why have you gone so red, crimson as a poppy? ❞ ❝ do you have to spoil everything you touch? ❞ ❝ i warrant that it is better to count yourself amongst those few than amongst everyone. ❞ ❝ magic is everywhere. all around us. easily accessible. ❞ ❝ you are interested in strange matters. you ask strange questions. ❞ ❝ life is a priceless gift and should be protected. ❞ ❝ you are not so remarkable as to make me fall on my knees and raise my eyes to the heavens. ❞ ❝ something tells me you are not the person i took you to be. ❞ ❝ this had to happen at some point. this had to happen. ❞ ❝ that’s everything? you haven’t lied about anything? haven’t forgotten anything? ❞ ❝ you runt. you scum. you arrogant nobody. ❞ ❝ thank you for rescuing me. ❞ ❝ if you’re afraid, turn back. ❞ ❝ you’ve no heart. you really have no heart.. ❞ ❝ i’d be proud and happy to fight at your side. ❞ ❝ i see you have applied yourself to fulfilling the demands of fate and destiny. ❞ ❝ the sun is still high, even if it is obscured. you can still train. ❞ ❝ come into the light. don’t lurk in the dark. ❞ ❝ your fears are unfounded. entirely ungrounded. ❞ ❝ loyalty is devilishly difficult to manage. ❞ ❝ you shouldn’t have said that. ❞ ❝ your wound has to be dressed and we’ve got to get out of here. ❞ ❝ you won’t understand and you don’t have to understand. i did what i had to do. ❞ ❝ you aren’t afraid of anything? answer truthfully. ❞ ❝ war is constantly hovering over us like a vulture. ❞ ❝ i’m afraid of death, just like everyone else, but i grew used to the idea of it a very long time ago. ❞ ❝ the world is falling to ruins. we can watch it happen and do nothing. or we can counteract it. ❞ ❝ what’s the matter with you? are you going to be sick? ❞ ❝ you are cunning but not careful enough. ❞ ❝ i don’t want to hurt you, but if you come near me… ❞ ❝ have you calmed down sufficiently for me to safely approach and take a look at you? ❞ ❝ i want to talk to you. i don’t need an audience. ❞ ❝ i’m not in the habit of poking my nose into other people’s secrets. ❞ ❝ you’ve got a tongue as sharp as a wasp. ❞ ❝ have you been taught anything other than making holes with a sword? ❞ ❝ what the hell is this? who beat you like this? ❞ ❝ before you said that, you still had a chance to live. now you don’t. ❞ ❝ i help you sometimes but i do so out of my own free will. ❞ ❝ everyone comes across someone who will better them someday. ❞ ❝ murder is always murder, regardless of motive or circumstance. ❞ ❝ it’s all lies. just a poetic invention to make the story prettier and more touching. ❞ ❝ take this and put it to your nose or you will be covered with blood! ❞ ❝ your valuable friendship is too important to me to disappoint you. ❞ ❝ i was worried you were going to ask me another one of your unequal grand questions. ❞ ❝ you look but have no eyes. you listen but have deaf ears. ❞ ❝ answer my questions. please. ❞ ❝ i don’t have to comply with your instructions and orders. ❞ ❝ you really do believe we are in some danger? ❞ ❝ couldn’t you, just once in your life, do something right? ❞ ❝ what i intend is my business. don’t get mixed up in this or there’ll be an incident. ❞ ❝ was someone asking about me? ❞ ❝ all this is going to start concerning you — and sooner than you think. ❞ ❝ i knew you wouldn’t understand. ❞ ❝ listen. what’s done is done. ❞ ❝ war is war. you whack the enemy in the backside, and they whack you back. ❞ ❝ destiny cannot be avoided. ❞ ❝ we’re tempting fate. we’re tempting fate too much. ❞ ❝ fighting doesn’t bother me, and a bit of blood’s nothing new. ❞ ❝ it’s not nice to eavesdrop. ❞ ❝ whose side are we on? whose side are we against? who’s our friend and who’s our enemy? ❞ ❝ both sides despite those who sit on the bench. ❞ ❝ what’s your name, if it’s no secret? ❞ ❝ don’t be in such a hurry to tug the lion’s whiskers, because this lion is not dead yet. ❞ ❝ i’m too old for this sort of thing. too old. ❞ ❝ i know you. you’re ruthless, you’re cruel. ❞ ❝ i know how to draw a bow too. ❞ ❝ you betrayed my trust. ❞ ❝ your chances of me forgiving and forgetting are non-existent. ❞ ❝ what’s got into you? there’s not a grain of sense in your prattling. ❞ ❝ life is an endless train of surprises. ❞ ❝ have you lost your mind? ❞ ❝ such matters should not be left to chance. ❞ ❝ we can’t afford to make a blunder or a mistake now. ❞ ❝ careful, or your arrogance will be the end of you. ❞ ❝ let’s throw formalities aside. ❞ ❝ we don’t have much time. it would be a sin to waste it. ❞ ❝ don’t fool yourself that it’s different this time. it’s never different. ❞ ❝ why are you looking at me like that? ❞ ❝ sincerity works both ways. you ask me any question and i will answer. sincerely. ❞ ❝ being kind-hearted…that might be a problem because it is widely believed i don’t possess any such organ. ❞ ❝ i’ve already seen a war. i don’t want to see another. ❞ ❝ i rarely laugh. i really need to have a good reason to laugh. ❞ ❝ you talk so beautifully, i can listen to you for hours. ❞ ❝ you think you know it all, but you don’t. ❞ ❝ furious as a cat. sparks in your eyes; just wait and you’ll hiss. ❞ ❝ poetry is eternal and immortal. it knows no beginning, it knows no end. ❞ ❝ i see that you don’t know me at all. ❞ ❝ let’s not talk about it. let’s not worry too soon. ❞ ❝ don’t play the child because you’re not one anymore. ❞ ❝ have a safe journey. i’ll be thinking of you. ❞ ❝ i haven’t got anybody anymore and i am someone else. ❞ ❝ i’m afraid you still know too little. ❞ ❝ magic isn’t for show. magic is not some street market trick. ❞ ❝ violence breeds violence. ❞ ❝ there’s no returning to the past. there’s no one there for me anymore. ❞ ❝ for the time being, trust me and do as i ask. ❞ ❝ let me message your hand and arm. ❞ ❝ magic, like a spiked arrow, is lodged in you. ❞ ❝ chaos is afraid of you. but it wants you to be the one who feels fear. ❞ ❝ there is chaos and order, good and evil in all of us. ❞ ❝ i don’t want to lose everything again. ❞ ❝ you’ve got yourself mixed up in destiny, far more than you’ve bargained for. ❞ ❝ first of all, let us have something to eat and drink. ❞ ❝ you still have time to turn back. it’s not too late. ❞ ❝ what are you staring at me like that for? ❞ ❝ in a minute you’re going to faint from loss of blood. ❞ ❝ go to sleep, you’re barely on your feet. ❞ ❝ are you angry with me? ❞ ❝ magic, is in some people’s opinion, the embodiment of chaos. ❞ ❝ well. are you going to tell me or not? ❞ ❝ i get angry just as rarely as i laugh. ❞ ❝ i’m here. i’m at your side. don’t be afraid. ❞ ❝ hold your hands out so i can see them. ❞ ❝ you can’t stop a soldier from being frightened but you can give him motivation to overcome that fear. ❞
‘ i saw you with my own eyes. ‘ / from raven!
“-Did not,” Jackal spats before her mind could think of a better... definitely wittier comeback but as of now, her attention had promptly been stolen by her hand struggling to fix the mask Raven so rudely yanked up. Fingers grasped the muzzle, keeping it firmly over her face in case this partner of hers decided to go in for seconds.
Had she been upset about being seen? .... No. Not really. With Raven, it was okay-Not that she would ever admit that-But the sudden movement close to her face and Raven’s own appearing close to hers startled her more than it should’ve. Dull amber eyes had widened, and she backed up, limbs flying and face reddening before she yanked the mask back down.
“Well, I hope you’re pleased with yourself. You’ve snuck a peek at my brilliance-Consider yourself lucky!” Jackal scoffed, teeth gritted as she busied her hands straightening her coat. “Is that all you wanted....? To just... see me?” Brows raise, eyes glaring holes into Raven’s satisfied little mug.
it’s agreed worldwide that if jackal was in danganronpa she’d be one of the people who fucked with hajime / izuru’s head and i think that’s beautiful
★ 12K FOLLOWERS CELEBRATION ★ Top 20 Male TV Characters (voted by my followers): 9. Nick Miller (New Girl) “You always see the worst in people.” “Yeah, because people are the worst.”
Or send “Bad Touch reverse” for our muses to switch roles.
1) Slapping your muse across the face 2) Punching your muse in the face 3) Punching your muse in the shoulder/arm 4) Kicking your muse off of their feet 5) Stepping on your muse’s foot 6) Biting your muse 7) Grabbing your muse’s face 8) Wrapping hands around your muse’s neck 9) Pushing your muse into a wall 10) Pushing your muse to the ground 11) Holding a gun to your muse’s head 12) Shooting your muse in the arm/leg 13) Holding a knife to your muse’s throat 14) Using a knife to slash your muse across the arm 15) Hitting your muse in the head with a blunt object 16) Scratching your muse with their nails 17) Throwing something at your muse 18) Stabbing your muse with a sharp weapon 19) Breaking one of your muse’s bones 20) Twisting your muse’s arm
❛ Someone has been in my room and taken my beers away from my room. ❜
Thought that only lit up a spark of interest in a mind that was constantly questioning, Jackal’s attention remained primarily on the task at hand, scribbling notes that might read as nonsense to anyone but her.
“That sounds strangely like an accusation....” She mused, clicking her tongue, not even bothering to pretend she was all that curious. Sure, a missing beer or two would trouble some people, and she might even look into it if he asked nicely but right now? What she was working on was something she deemed far more important. “........ As if I would even dare step foot into your little man cave.”
( + reverse ) to reverse roles
for when they’re feeling violent
[ BELT ] for your muse to use their belt as a weapon
[ BETRAY ] for your muse to reveal to my muse they’re not who they think they are
[ BLEED ] for your muse to make mine bleed
[ BOOT ] for your muse to press their boot against my muse’s mouth
[ BRUISE ] for your muse to purposely hold my muse hard enough to bruise
[ CHOKE ] for your muse to hold mine by the throat, either with the hand or forearm
[ DENIAL ] for your muse to angrily deny something my muse is calling them out on
[ FIRE ] for your muse to threaten my muse with fire
[ GRAPPLE ] for your muse to wrestle mine down to the floor or against the wall
[ HAIR ] for your muse to pull my muse’s hair
[ KICK ] for your muse to kick my muse ( can specify where )
[ KNEE ] for your muse to knee mine in the stomach or groin
[ KNIFE ] for your muse to hold a knife to my muse’s throat
[ LAUGH ] for your muse to laugh at my muse for being pathetic
[ LIAR ] for your muse to call mine a liar
[ MOUTH ] for your muse to put their hand over my muse’s mouth
[ PANIC ] for your muse to find my muse panicking after they’ve done impulsive or dangerous
[ REGRET ] for your muse to immediately regret hurting my muse
[ SLAP ] for your muse to slap my muse in the face
[ SLEEP ] for your muse to approach my muse while they’re sleeping
[ SPIT ] for your muse to spit at my muse
[ STAB ] for your muse to stab my muse ( specify where )
[ STEP ] for your muse to step on my muse while they’re down
[ SHOOT ] for your muse to shoot at my muse ( specify where )
[ STRONGARM ] for your muse to use force to make my muse do something
[ TANTRUM ] for your muse to throw a temper tantrum that my muse gets caught / hurt in
[ TEAR ] for your muse to tear clothing off of my muse
[ TEETH ] for your muse to bite my muse ( specify where )
[ THREAT ] for your muse to threaten my muse / specify threat
for when they’re feeling soft
[ BOOP ] for your muse to bump their nose against my muse’s nose
[ BREAK ] for your muse to know that my muse is about to break up with them
[ CALM ] for your muse to calm my muse down from a moment of anger
[ COUCH ] for our muses to cuddle on the couch
[ DANCE ] for your muse to take my muse’s hand and start dancing with them
[ EYES ] for your muse to send bedroom eyes at my muse
[ FEED ] for your muse to feed my muse something ( can specify what )
[ HAND ] for your muse to slip their hand into my muse’s hand
[ HICKEY ] for you muse to give my muse a hickey ( specify where )
[ HUG ] for your muse to hug my muse
[ INTERRUPT ] for your muse to interrupt my muse talking by kissing them
[ KISS ] for your muse to kiss my muse
[ LICK ] for you muse to lick my muse
[ PATTER ] for our muses to have a conversation in the car while the rain patters down around them
[ PLAY ] for your muse to play a musical instrument for my muse
[ PICNIC ] for our muses to go on a picnic
[ RAIN ] for our muses to dance in the rain / kiss in the rain
[ RIVER ] for our muses to jump in the river together / or for one to push the other in
[ SING ] for your muse to sing to my muse / song or lullaby
[ SNEAK ] for your muse to sneak a touch under my muse’s clothing
[ SPOON ] for your muse to big spoon my muse
[ STARE ] for your muse to be caught staring affectionately at mine
[ STROKE ] for your muse to play with my muse’s hair
[ SWEATER ] for your muse to be found in my muse’s sweater or hoodie
[ TOUCH ] for your muse to softly touch my muse ( specify where )
[ WARM ] for your muse to put their jacket around my muse’s shoulders
[ WATCH ] for your muse to watch my muse sleep
this is it under the cut and im not okay.
jackal smokes because i saw one (1) fanart of her and i went too feral.
independent "jackal" / leila cleo from honkai impact. adopted by mak / kai. est 1/26/22.
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