I Love Them They Make Me So Sad

I don't know what this is

But it made me laugh

This is so funny out of context

#if it WAS created by the train that means there might be an orb for reflections like there are for other denizens#and what happens if that orb gets bumped out of place?#and if it DOES exist independently from Train then that means lake was only classified as a denizen because they weren't a passenger#and it might have always existed outside of the train BECAUSE the train created it and retconned reality to make it always exist#no matter how you slice it the whole mirror world is both fascinating to think about and so incredibly messed up and thats why I love it#infinity train#infinity train mirror world

Gotta love this very messed up show

the question of if the mirror world really reflected the regular world or if it was a creation of the train is so fucked. i know lake ultimately decides it doesn't matter if their memories are false, because their life is in their own hands now. still, i was trying to decide which option is More fucked bc i knew that would be the one Owen Dennis etc would choose. but honestly they're both so dystopian and horrible i just don't know. like, option 1: oh great, everyone's existence is tied to puppeting an unwilling person who can't be saved in a world we can't reach. option 2: oh great, if you pass through the train's chrome car, you immediately create an autonomous person who remembers being puppeted their entire lives and are now still being heavily policed to support you even though they have great cause to despise you. yikes!

Oralie: in your opinion, what's the height of stupidity?

Bronte: hey Kenric, how tall are you?

<3

I have been figuring out how Mine-imator works and this is what I create

So I have an abandoned WIP that I wrote roughly 17 thousand words for and I was looking in my notes doc for it the other day and found some . . . funny(?) stuff I thought I'd share. You'll probably know why it's abandoned if you make it to the end of this post.

So I pre-write my tags and notes. The notes I write during or after relevant chapters. So here are most of the non-relationship tags:

Graphic Depictions of Violence, F/M, Teen And Up Audiences, Hurt/Comfort, Angst with a Happy Ending, Whump, Heavily Implied Romance*, Torture, this got way darker than I was anticipating, No One Is Okay, And That Includes The Author, Preston and Priscilla Northwest's a+ parenting, Probably Medical Inaccuracies, I Tried Okay, the graphic violence warning only applies to a couple of chapters.

*The heavily implied romance tag was for Stan/Lazy Susan and Pacifica/Dipper

Here's the first note: Hi there! This is the story that’s been distracting me from my main one, Mindscaperers.* It’s a little different and I’d like to state right off the bat that <b>this story gets fairly dark and I will NOT be giving warnings for individual chapters, so MAKE SURE TO CHECK THE TAGS. </b> ** On a brighter note, this story is fully finished so you won’t have to randomly wait several weeks for the next chapter.*** I’ll try to post roughly two a week until I’m done. This is going to become a series, but this is the main plot. The other stories will probably be about side characters as well as the consequences of this first story. 

*it was not the only thing distracting me from Mindscaperers. I was also reading a lot of fanfiction for fandoms I'm not even in.

**I said something similar in my recent Infinity Train story, We Only Broke The Train A Little Bit (More Than You).

***Past Me wishes. I ended up with like . . . five or six chapters. Maybe seven?

My notes get better - or worse, depending on how you look at it.

The end notes for chapter three are as follows:

me: shipping is weird

My brain: pff imply stuff so hard

Me: but they’re kids

My brain: pfffffff

Me: I can’t write Stan.

My brain: make him a major character

Me: no violence

Also me: let’s write the most descriptive violence I’ve ever written–WAIT NO THAT HASN’T HAPPENED YET

Let’s write a cute lighthearted story–AHHHHHHHHH never mind

And the penultimate and also best/worst note from the end of chapter four: Yes, they’re coping with being tortured by flirting with each other. Don’t judge me–them. Don’t judge them.

. . . and now we know why I abandoned this story.

But there's on more note! At the end of Chapter 5, I wrote about the fairy family I included in my story. (I'm going to write these fairies into a different story because I love them so much. But not this story.)

Here's the note: Zaelynn is the firstborn and Annabel is the 870th child. Also, sistren is an actual word.*

Pretty sure it's basically "brethren" but specifically for girls.

So yeah. That was . . . I'm honestly concerned about the me of 6-7 months ago.

Posting on AO3 is like, I'm doing this for myself, but also immediately refreshing the page every 5 seconds to see if you get any hits comments or kudos. But totally only writing for me.

paz school hc post

once pacifica moves out a little after she turns 18, her senior year at the private school her family owns isn't quite finished yet, and they expel her before she can graduate. she ends up having to get her GED later, and while studying for it, she finds out she has a lot of gaps in her education because of how carefully controlled the private school's curriculum was

i think she's pretty good at math and there wouldn't really be a political reason to regulate math so she doesn't have trouble with that subject when she has to study on her own to get her diploma. it's stuff like history and english she has to catch up on

she took grammar lessons for sure but her literature lessons were always on stuff like Shakespeare (worth reading ofc but he has some plays that are very Safe and easy to teach without social ramifications)

and you KNOW her flash cards for studying are all colorful and sparkly and covered in stickers because the pines twins had a hand in making them. i think dipper wrote the cards to begin with so the handwriting is neat and tidy, but after he would write one, he would pass it to mabel and she would decorate it. they do this as a surprise for paz cause they know she has a lot of work to do and when they present the cards to her she has to try not to cry because she loves her friends and she's also been awake for 18 hours

Perfectly innocuous statement.