I Climbed A Tree Today.

I thought about something nice to post earlier but i forgog

I dont want to be here,

I want to leave,

I dont feel like I can go home now,

I dont want to be outside,

I want to roam outside,

I dont feel like I belong here,

I dont feel like I should be here,

I want to be home,

I wanted to be home hours ago,

I want to sleep,

I dont want to wake up here,

I want to wake up like tomorrow was already over.

Holy shit im so good at getting existential crises from listening to bands with dead singers at 3 am

When I am listening to songs in Finnish or whatever, I often get stuck up on translating some of the words to english. Not like in an "I cant think of a translation" kind of way, but in an "I wonder how translating this like that would affect the flow of the song" kind of way.

Anyways, today I was listening to a song that had the words "olen surullinen", or "I am sad" in English. I noted how the Finnish version is much longer than the English one, that "sad" translates to "surullinen", a much longer word.

Then I that rabbit hole of a thought went a bit further, and I realized that the the Finnish word for "sadness" is much shorter, "suru", even though it is longer in English.

A nice enough thought on its own, but the hole goes deeper. I went on to think about why this is, and realized that in English, the adjective "sad" is the base form from which the language derives the other forms. In Finnish though, the base form is "sadness", which basically is the essence of being sad, the noun, from which the language gets the other words. And from this perspective of having the noun be the base form, being sad could be interpeted as having the essence of being sad. Thats what the "-llinen" ending in "surullinen" (the adjective, the feeling) means, having something or similar.

Not really sure if there is a point to any of this, just reflecting on how different languages "think" and also discovering a part of why translating songs between English and Finnish is so hard.

To me, one of the core finland experiences is walking a long ass distance in the dead of night in freezing temperatures, on a quest to find the nearest bus stop that actually runs this late.

Just did that (still like 40 minutes away from home, but in the relatively warm bus now (bus also an integral part of the experience)) and I haven't felt more finnish in a while.

Like once I was discussing religion with a friend (like in a nice and interesting way, not accusatory), and they asked me wether there would be people in my utopia that believed in religions. They said theirs probably would, similar to how they'd allow differing political beliefs too. My answer was that everyone would most likely be atheists by default, as religion wouldn't really be a variable I'd think about when making a utopia.

Political views, however, are different in my opinion. Personally I consider differing political views (and healthy interaction between them) a necessity for society to improve, making them necessary for reaching said utopia. I personally dont believe religions to also be essential for that.

This being the internet, I probably should clarify that I dont mind people believing in stuff either, and religion wouldnt necessarily make my utopia worse either.

There's something about atheism that I've repeatedly tried and failed to put into words on several posts on this blog but I think I finally got it.

Atheists are the only religious minority who, even (or sometimes even *especially*) in ostensibly progressive spaces are not allowed to ever act like they're sure of their beliefs.

Once I had a dream where I flew to an unspecified part of the USA for a day trip, and one of the methods of identifying it as America was that the highway was racially segregated

wtf I just opened my blog on a laptop to look at reblog trees and it looks fucking horrible, I made this to look nice on my phone on dark mode but I'm sincerely sorry for what your eyes have to see if you stumbled here on a computer.

I saw this too and it's about half a kilogram of THC per day per capita. Tallin as a whole would need around 750 million kilograms of THC yearly...

or about this much.

Residents of Tallinn apparently are all cannabis georg who smoke *checks notes* 48 480 blunts a day (per person), according to Helsingin Uutiset

well maybe YOUR language, that is WEIRD and FOREIGN, does that, but MY language, that is PERFECT, makes complete sense and is perfectly understandable, and is also the default and best way of experiencing the human life.

Why does like every language do things with their R sounds that nobody else understands