So,,, I Was Rewatching Episode 5 As One Does To Deal With The Fact It’s Not Saturday Yet And When I

so,,, i was rewatching episode 5 as one does to deal with the fact it’s not saturday yet and when i got to the scene where kinn and his father discuss while playing chess the scene in episode 7 in the hospital with kinn and his father talking again suddenly came to mind and it’s fascinating to think about how much both scenes parallel each other and have in common in terms of kinn’s character development or more specifically the way he’s breaking free from the role he is supposed to play 

in episode 5 kinn goes to his father because chan told him he wants to talk to him and kinn enters the scene like a lost kitten with puppy eyes afraid of what his father would want considering he had sex with porsche the night before and neglected his work the day after and he knows that his father is going to scold him and it’s something that always sticks to me when i rewatch the episode because i really like kinn’s little expressions here (mile is an acting genius wbk) 

so he enters the scene with a stance that makes it seem like his head is weighting on his shoulders and he exales when his father very calmly says ’have a seat’ so kinn hints a nervous smile and sits while his father looks at him showing a little smile himself and here kinn hasn’t his jacket on and his hair looks messy he seems so small and powerless like up to that point we saw a fierceless kinn with flames in his eyes and little to no fear surrounding his persona and this scene is maybe the first time we see that vulnerable of him side he then shows in episode 6 when he’s alone with porsche and it is also the first time we see kinn actually positioned below his father and kind of scared of him as opposed to the other conversations they had in which it always seemed like they were almost at the same level and kinn always seemed at ease maybe just a bit intimidated as he should because he is anyway father an older person and the leader of their family so he should show respect always

so he’s lost and he tries acting as normal as possible but he knows his father can see right through him and his eyes express that sense of vulnerability he’s feeling trying to obtain his father’s validation they start talking his father seems at ease and starts with small talks and it’s kinn that finally breaks and goes to the point because he feels his father’s judging gaze on him and the moment they start talking about porsche and about what happened between them the night before kinn is not the mafia boss anymore he’s just a boy trying to justify his action to his father who’s scolding him 

’as a boss, i’m supposed to take care of him, aren’t i?’ he seems so lost he’s trying to justify himself he just wants to hear his father say he did the right thing but 

and kinn lowers his head once again avoiding eye contact with his father because deep down he knows that what he did was innapropriate

and at the end he says this, asking his father again what he should do, understanding that if he doesn’t want people to gossip about what happened he needs to be bossy and reminds them who’s in charge and punish porsche is the only way to do that

but then he says this and i think he says it because he wants his father to decide against the idea of punish porsche because kinn knows it wasn’t porsche’s fault and he knows he doesn’t deserve the punishment so it’s like he’s saying to his father ’are you sure we should punish him?’

my god look at this lil meow meow eyes he’s so tamed he just wants to obey his father and don’t dissapoint him it hurts

and the conversation between them ends like this with kinn visibly at loss and korn who once again established his power over his son 

but then episode 7 happens and we hear korn say ’your eyes have changed’ and they have indeed because the way kinn is looking at his father now after being alone with porsche in the forest for days is different those days apart from his reality really did something to him and he doesn’t seem scared of his father and in search of validation anymore 

(referring to the first picture of this post) this time kinn is not sitting opposite to his father but they’re beside one another and neither of them turn their whole body towards the other they’re sitting straight and eying each other now he’s watching his father how he watches everyone else like he’s sitting on this golden throne above all else if his father was the one looking down before he’s now looking up at him and it’s so important that he indeed noticed it and says ‘your eyes have changed’

kinn’s expression does drop only because it’s the first time he comes to term with the fact that porsche is changing him and the people who knows him are noticing it but he doesn’t break eye contact with his father he doesn’t lower his head he continues to look at his father fiercely and then his father proceeds with the apple and knife story which parallels the chess analogy he used in episode 5 and we see kinn reacts in a way that screams something along the ’what is this old man saying please shut up’ opposite to the chess game when he was practically shitting his pants for how much he was afraid of his father’s reaction and i love how opposite the two scenes are because now his father is trying to scare him again with his stories and lessons while what kinn gets from the whole conversation is the fact that he should work on his trust issues to be with porsche because he wants to be with him he wants to trust him he’s beginning to appreciate himself more because of how porsche makes him feel and he doesn’t want to treat these feelings as weaknesses but as a strengths and that’s why he accepts the apple from his father and takes the bite he’s accepting to be corrupted by the decision he’s making that could jeopardize everything he has worked for ‘till that moment and it all culminates with kinn escaping the hospital to go and be with porsche and gifts him his gun(s)

his father asks him to come back to his old self for the sake of the family but later kinn confesses to tay that he doesn’t want to be like his old self anymore he’s aware of the progress he has made and he wants to move forward 

the two scenes parallel each other and give us an insight in the changing developing of kinn’s true character which i guess will come to its climax at the end of the series when he’ll fully trust porsche with his life and they’ll begin the us against the world act