26 IX 2022

I'm glad I never encoutered anyone with such serious mindset while I was studying programming because now I wouldn't have as much fun writing branchless things in python, which is completely useless in highlevel languages but I just can't resist

I feel like some people are too serious with learning how to program. “I gotta be the best in this and that and build this and that to impress this employer” blah blah, that kills the fun out of programming. I see a lot of people (bashing people on Twitter again and actually a few people on here too, oops) making programming such a serious topic and you can’t have fun in it. Besides the proper syntax, documentation, best practises whatever, people in the tech community have putting up “rules” about how you should program and what to learn and if you fall out of that, you get ridiculed for it. Literally making it less fun.

Someone said that there’s no point in learning jQuery because JavaScript alone can do all that jQuery can and more.

So? I’m still going to learn it for fun? I’m having a blast with SCSS and jQuery, I don’t care 🤷🏾‍♀️ and I’ll learn the other frameworks and libraries that suits me because I want to. I don’t care if the entire tech community stops using a technology - if it interests me, I’m still going to learn it~!

Also no hate or anything to that person who said that to me - I completely understand your POV on jQuery! 💗✨ When I first read comment, I was a bit down like “oh what’s the point then…” but slapped myself and was like “I’m not learning for them or anyone. This library is cool and I like it so I’m still gonna use it”

Moral of the story: just do you. Do what makes you happy, code what you happy. Don’t be so serious all the time and make stupid dumb programs or games or websites whatever. Have fun in such a hard subject!!!

when i think about the value of studying math for so many years, i don't really think it comes from the specific subjects i studied. i mean, okay, derivatives and also linear algebra do come up every now and then.

but for the most part, the probability that any specific piece of math knowledge will be relevant for any given problem in life is pretty small. studying math feels less about learning mathematics and more about training that part of your brain that does the math, and you have to learn new parts of math because you have to keep finding new things to train on.

i have some knowledge, sure, but most of it is functionally useless. the real value is in the building of some intuition about how certain types of problems "should" work, and also how to formalize and communicate that intuition to other people (or to a compiler)

I have a bunch of followers and mutuals that I never even talked to and I know some of you guys are very into math too, so let's get to know each other, shall we?

if you feel like you'd enjoy talking to me then go ahead, write me a message! I just realized I never said something like this and I would really love to have conversations with like-minded people

if this feels familiar, you can reblog this post to invite people to talk to you

fun fact! did you know that you can gain extra ‘forbidden time’ by staying up late in the night? but Watch Out

30 VIII 2023

aight it's been a while, time for an update

recently I've been doing mostly algebraic geometry, my advisor gave me some stuff to read, so I'm working through that. the goal is to familiarize myself with hilbert schemes – the topic is advanced, so there are many prerequisites coming up when I'm trying to read the book, that's kinda annoying

we are planning for my thesis to be about a certain generalization of the hilbert scheme, so basically the question is "investigate this space" and I've been having second thoughts whether I'm up for the challenge. I'm just getting to know how all that stuff works, so it's quite overwhelming to see how much I need to learn before I can do anything on my own

nevertheless, I'm pushing through as I will have to learn all of that anyway

I am working on finishing the proof from my bsc thesis and honestly I'm kinda losing hope lmao it turns out that what I probably have to do to complete it is a massive amount of extra reading and an even bigger amount of proving lemmas. the thing is that my work is about something like a generalization of results that have been proven by two people (one of which is khovanov, yes, that khovanov) and I feel it in my balls that the case I'm working on should be treated in a similar way. now the problem is that I can barely understand what they wrote for the "easier" case and I just can't see myself doing that for the more complicated one. oh and for my case I should probably use equivariant cohomology. but all I know about it is the definition, I have never even calculated anything for that + I will do a course on it this semester so it feels futile to study it now. idk I need to talk to my former advisor about this and ask him to be honest, does he even believe that this can be done?

other than that I'm applying for a scholarship. I don't think I will get it, but it is worth trying

I moved in with my boyfriend and our cat decided that my desk is way too big for one person, so now it's our desk

uni starts in a month so I should probably spend that time doing something other than math, which I will be doing all the time once uni starts, but I struggle with coming up with things to do that are not math-related. I should complete some tasks for work, but I would also like to have a hobby

there is a number of things that I could try, for instance reading, drawing, singing, grinding metas for geoguessr (apparently I'm a gamer now), but I can't commit to any of those, my interest comes in waves

maybe I could schedule about an hour per day to do one of those things so that my brain gets used to it. it is not like I can focus on math 24/7, I need to take breaks and I have days when my motivation is zero, so I just sit at my desk and watch stupid shit on youtube. but that's the point, days like that could be spent doing something meaningful and refreshing, instead I just procrastinate math lol

I want you all to know that an Arab Muslim from Tunis proposed the Theory of Evolution near 600 years before Charles Darwin even took his first breath. Don’t let them erase you.

parents got a new cat they named lord montague and this morning i heard my dad in the other room say "i would have to advise against that decision, my lord" followed by a crashing sound

Hello, dear! 🌻

I saw your post wanting book recommendations. I'm sorry for your previous struggles, but I hope this list may help you find something you love!

-"The Housekeeper and the Professor" by Yōko Ogawa (The professor is a mathematician!)

-if you like Vonnegut, you may like Haruki Murakami, specifically his older titles like "Wind-Up Bird Chronicle" and "Norwegian Wood" (I feel these books do a good job of expanding on people's motivations and moods.)

-"The Elegance of the Hedgehog" by Muriel Barbery (Again, excellent at conveying emotions.)

-"Hunting and Gathering" by Anna Gavalda (This one is technically a romance - a genre which I personally would normally HATE - but it portrays such realistic characters, their struggles and their natural dialogue during fights that it actually felt more like I was reading about a collection of lives that I had the pleasure of spying on from above. I really love this book!)

-for WWI and WWII-themed titles, I'd recommend the Battlefield comics by Garth Ennis (He's SO good at writing believable characters and realistic dialogues.)

-if you don't mind high fantasy, any of the books in Terry Praychett's Discworld series about the wizards might be up your alley (You can read them independently without issue, or start from the beginning of any of the wizard titles. You can find a reading guide online! The wizards of his world are very regimented about how magic works - somewhat like mathematicians - and it's very funny.)

-the "Cemetery of Forgotten Books" series by Carlos Ruiz Zafón (I'd skip the 4th one - the main character/POV changed and I wasn't as impressed with the writing in that one - but the first 3 books are an absolute dream to read. The characters are so charming, lovable or completely horrifying, it feels like a wonderful foreign mystery series that takes place in 1940s Spain. It was really interesting to try to keep track of such a unique mystery amidst the second world war.)

I hope those help! Please enjoy your reading journey. ♡

hi, and thank you so much for the recommendations! I appreciate it a lot, those books sound really good

1 X 2022

new month huh

yesterday the commutative algebra teacher sent out the first homework assignment. you know, fuck the holiday, we need that grind

I have a week to solve it but I started yesterday as I was so excited

we need to prove some elementary properties of commutative unitary rings and I am enjoying it, I completed a half of the exercises so far. I can tell that the intuition acquired from studying module theory is paying off. many of the requested properties are the special cases of what I encountered during my module venture, so I feel like I understand them quite well. the problem I come across is how to write it down in a rigorous way, but I guess this is why we're supposed to do those exercises

I just got home from the math camp, it was so exhausting. I am not used to being around people all the time, so I my tolerance for interactions is low. I'm glad I went there tho, because I gained some teaching experience – my lecture, choosing contest problems and then grading the solutions

my university offers jobs as graders, older students can make some extra money checking homeworks of younger ones. the requirement is to have a decent GPA, which I don't have so I'm afraid they won't accept me. I don't know how decent exactly tho, so I'm going to try. in particular I might get bonus points for my extracurricular activities, giving talks at conferences and the grading I did at the camp. I'm so done with being poor, I hope I get in. otherwise I might start looking for some programming jobs, not for this academic year but in general, to find out what I could do at all

a few days ago I found a book that I wish I had found sooner: Vector Analysis, Klaus Janich

these are some of the chapters I needed a few months ago for my analysis course. the book is written like a novel and contains many interesting examples. on the bright side there are chapters about riemannian manifolds and other stuff that I haven't yet had an opportunity to study, so I plan to skim through the topics I already know and stay longer at those new to me

well, the sememster starts on tuesday so I don't have much time for that book, but as a sidequest it seems just right

Real estate agent, 5 minutes into the meeting with a topologist: So, when you were talking about "contracting" a "house with two rooms",