Imagine Where You’d Be If I Had Never Come Into Your Life. Remember All The Things You’ve Forgotten

First on the agenda, order the roofing supplies and paint for the exterior. Already have the new flooring, now just to figure out what colors I want to paint the interior and exterior walls and trim. It’s kinda weird making all the decisions and not having to answer to anyone, but I can’t wait to see the end results.

Just found a few of your old voicemails while trying to make some space, hearing you say you love me again after so long was definitely a roller coaster. For a second though, I got to remember what it felt like to be cared about by the person that mattered the most to me in this world. Kinda glad that even after everything and all this time little things like that still bring joy to my life.

museum dates and late night walks

This could not be more true. Once you’re left with only doubt and questions, at some point even the worst thoughts seem plausible as you fall victim to the echoing nightmares of your own insecurities and the memory of everything they bragged about doing to their ex’s or threatened you with “just to play around”. You still care and try to resist, but in the silence, everything you are afraid of finds a hold and starts slowly clawing its way past the things you’ve told yourself to quiet those nightmares.

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