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Finding peace in knowing that it was all real for me. I may not be by your side, or even in your thoughts, but you will always be in my memories, and a part of my heart and soul. I’ll always miss my best friend as long as you aren’t a part of my life, but you have to figure things out and so do I. I refuse to hate you for that, instead, I choose to love you from a distance, I choose to remove myself so that you don’t hurt yourself to prove anything to me. I don’t know what the future will hold, but I’m going to make it better than my past.

The shitty decline when someone you care about intensely decides to humiliate you publicly, treat you like garbage, and pretty much rip your soul into pieces because you care and Yet they choose to use that against you and break you down over and over....... that feeling right there, is something I will never be able cope with or “unfeel”. It is a heartache unlike any other, especially when you know that person is in agony due to other factors in their life. It’s self inflicted soul pain that you’re doing out of love and it eats you from the inside out.

I hope in the days where you find yourself not wanting to pick yourself up anymore, that you still find the energy, courage and braveness to do so.

Glad to see you’re doing well, would have loved to talk to you but not the time or place. I’ll respect your wishes, and wait for you to ready to talk if you ever are. I really do still miss you, and hope things with your family and health are going better. I’m still confused and kinda struggling to find my way after everything, but I really do wish nothing but good things for you. I really hope you haven’t lost sight of the beautiful soul you tried so hard to hide, and realize that you do deserve to be loved and cared about. I still think you’re absolutely gorgeous, and I will always be here if you want or need to reach out.

Doesn’t matter if we talk or not

“If I give you my time and attention, you can depend on me to follow through. I’m not interested in playing games for the sake of my ego or enjoyment. If I show an interest in you, it’s because I’ve sensed an energy between us, and I will make every effort to explore it.”

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