Mary Oliver

I’ve now been single for 10 months, sober from alcohol (besides one night) for over a month, and back in the kitchen for over 2 months. There have been lots of ups and downs, a few really bad downs, and a few pretty good things happen. There’s still a few hurdles to get over but I’ve survived everything thus far, so I’m sure I’ll be just fine. I’m glad I’ve made it through and used it to rebuild myself and come out a stronger, more focused person who is more true to myself than ever. There’s always more work to be done, but like I said, I’ve survived everything else.

God I miss you, I feel as if I’ve lost a part of myself and I’m not sure I’ll ever find it again. I can’t fix anything at this point because no matter what I do nothing feels right, it’s just empty……I’m so lost

I miss late night drives through the graveyard, joints with the headstones under the stars,late night pond power sliding with a stop at the waterfall, the little snorts, and forehead kisses. I miss feeling whole, and I miss smiling for no reason at all.

We all need this sometimes

It doesn’t go away, it doesn’t get easier, you just seem to lose a little more of yourself each time until there is nothing left of the person you once were. Sadly this world seems to have created far more takers than givers.

Working towards this point, can’t let anxiety set my boundaries anymore

“My philosophy is: It’s none of my business what people say of me, and think of me. I am what I am, and I do what I do. I expect nothing, and accept everything. And it makes life so much easier.”

— Anthony Hopkins

“Move on,” you hear, but to what howling emptiness?

— Denise Riley, from "Little Eva," Say Something Back & Time Lived, Without Its Flow