Me: Well At Least My Misogyny Is Just A Silly Kink, I Do Actually Respect Women After All

I will never send a picture of myself on this blog ever but believe me when I assure you that I look unambiguously female in every way outside of the dumb thing between my legs, and that was kind of the case even before I started hrt. This kink has so many layers to me and one of the big ones is like… i haven’t really been male since before I started puberty??

I really am kind of done with this kink at this point. I’m still getting off to it I just think any genuine desire to be male is kind of gone at this point. All it took was me looking at some nude pics from before I shaved my head and really taking in like… yeah, that’s transition goals. I achieved it. I’d be an idiot to give that up.

So I am definitely going through with bottom surgery :)

It’s in 12 months!!!

I know you spent so much time acquiring your perfect girl voice uwu but that will only make your detransition hotter.

Jerk off to dirty sweaty porn while imagining forcing yourself upon the women you love and let out the manliest grunt when cumming. Make it extra deep.

Take a mental snapshot of this moment. Redo it again every 3 hours. Replay this feeling in your head 24/7. If you managed to brainwash yourself into believing you were female, you can reprogram yourself into a male. ♥️

I’ve been going through discord messages and my posts and such and I think detrans kink has been less appealing to me for several weeks now, pretty much all of May. I’m still getting off to it yeah, but at some point I realized how unhealthy it was for me, then I got really turned on by how unhealthy it was for me, and then I just started getting kinda sick of it.

I think I want to try to go back to one of my favorite kink fixations which was objectification through worship, which I was really into in 2022. Like yeah I’m dominant and alluring and powerful, but people only view that through the lens of me being porn, which makes it also kind of submissive. I miss those days. I want to go back to those days. I don’t even know if there’s a word for it.

I love when I enter a space full of nominally supportive, also mentally ill people, but I’m too mentally ill for even them and they’re clearly uncomfortable being around me.

First of all I LOVE DMs please feel free to dm me (18+ obviously) I love chatting especially about kinky stuff.

You can call me Echo. My "dead"name is a little too unique to share here because I think people would gather my identity. I am very strongly into transformation and especially detransitioning.

My flavor of detrans specifically is becoming a dominant porn addicted bro type. I especially have a fantasy of a girl (especially a yandere type) attaching herself to me romantically and insisting I become a dominant man for her (bonus if "she" is a fakeboy)

The detrans stuff is shockingly real for me, and I actually will commit to my notes game 100%, but any transphobia and (most of the) misogyny is just play (I think?)

I am very mentally ill, autism, schizoaffective, BPD, so just take it as me being a lil quirky :)

again feel free to dm!!

Whats the most stalkery shit you secretly got off on during your time as a content creator

Well it was other people stalking me, and people were definitely very creepy towards me, even recently someone from back then found my insta and slid in my dms and tried to dom me. I told him I don’t really like guys but he insisted. There was a LOT of that in 2022.

I've cum to this like 5 times now.

Real men deserve worship

Maybe I’m gender fluid or something idk, but really I want to be binary one way or the other, permanently.

Oh I forgot I impulsively said this, oops. I failed it. I'll reduce the notes needed for the really big goals.

Let’s play a little game. If I can’t go the whole day without cumming I’ll cut every goal in my detrans notes game in half. (This is almost impossible)

this isn’t really a question but i do hope one day you can be happy as yourself, whether thats female or male i really want u to be happy

Thanks. I think I am “happy” just confused. The main frustrating thing to me with this whole thing is I’m a content creator and all this flip flopping about gender has made me not really want to show my face, which is setting me back a lot. How I present myself to the world is complicated and confusing and I want to stick to just one thing.

Realistically I’m probably a gender fluid person that wants to stick to one gender. Being male and female permanently both have merit to me. I’ll figure it out eventually.

I think I’ve mentioned this but I completely shaved my head in October, so for a long time even if I wanted to be a girl I looked pretty male because of the short hair.

I’m reaching the point soon where I can either start convincingly passing as a girl again or I can get a male haircut. I don’t know which to do.