I Guess I’m Sorry For A While Now This Blog Has Been Less Detrans Kink And More Detrans Self-exploration.

estrogen is cancer

i’m not sure science supports this

Even when I was a girl this was the kind of girl I tried to be lol

random idea:

getting brainwashed so your deadname real name becomes a trigger that turns you on…

oh wait… that already happend 😵‍💫💕

I’ve been going through discord messages and my posts and such and I think detrans kink has been less appealing to me for several weeks now, pretty much all of May. I’m still getting off to it yeah, but at some point I realized how unhealthy it was for me, then I got really turned on by how unhealthy it was for me, and then I just started getting kinda sick of it.

I think I want to try to go back to one of my favorite kink fixations which was objectification through worship, which I was really into in 2022. Like yeah I’m dominant and alluring and powerful, but people only view that through the lens of me being porn, which makes it also kind of submissive. I miss those days. I want to go back to those days. I don’t even know if there’s a word for it.

I have reached another milestone in my detrans notes game! Because I hit 75 Notes I now have to go out in public as a guy sometimes. I had a specific meaning for this in mind but it was a little wordy to put in the notes game. Basically anytime I go somewhere alone, without friends or family, running an errand or just getting out of the house, I will put on a deep voice and let everyone see my short hair. I'll use the men's restroom and no one will think I was ever a girl.

Are you attracted to men, women, nonbinary faggots, or all of the above?

I’m attracted to cis women and feminine trans mascs. I don’t like penis. Most of the people I’ve had sex with had penises so I know from experience I am not a fan.

I can’t wait for your guy self to win. Do you think it’ll be long before it happens?

At the moment I’m the girl self so I can say something from kind of a different angle.

When I want to be a guy I take a lot of steps towards masculinization and try to sabotage my “girl self”

When I’m a girl I never really get more feminine. I never try to fix things. In fact I still engage in this detrans stuff.

It’s like… I’m just genuinely not in the mindset of BEING a girl ever anymore. A lot of the time I WANT to be a girl, like I used to be, but I’m just… not one. If I try to be all feminine it feels like I’m faking it. Like I’m crossdressing. I want so badly to go back to feeling comfortable as a girl, I just can’t seem to anymore.

So to answer your question, I’m not sure it will be long.

Looking for a crazy yandere girlfriend that wants to obssess over me and invade my personal life and really just consume me whole who is also into/okay with mtftm detrans kink. Ideally she's obsessed with me but only wants me to be a masculine man so she makes me conform to male gender roles. Maybe kind of weird and specific but it's what I need in my life. dm me if you're a bpd girlie that needs a new favorite man.

please someone come in my dms are scrub any hint of femininity out of my head!!!

I need to be brainwashed out of touch with my feminine side, just completely erased and out of touch with anything remotely feminine