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The poetry of the ineffable husbands

It’s me ya boi I gotta go to bed in an hour so I’m writing it as fast as I can so I don’t lose my idea tomorrow. 

So, what do I mean by that? Literally what it says. I’m just going to ramble about how beautiful and full of metaphors their relationship is and how it just gives me a reason to live. It’s not going to be good rambling. Just rambling with a little bit of passion in it.

Ight imma start with the classic things. As a former Wattpad loyal user I know all the angel x demon tropes. And I am sick of them to my stomach, I can’t stand one more uwu baby angel corrupted by demon. And this is what is surprising but does make sense about them husbands. They cannot, in my opinion, be called angel or demon, they literally became 2 halves of the same entity, the supernatural entity that watches over humans and makes sure there is a balance between good and bad. Like Yin and Yang. Good and evil, black and white, light and darkness. Not opposing, but complementing each other.

 Aaaand they were like that from the beginning. Remember when Crowley said  "Funny thing is, I keep wondering whether the apple thing wasn’t the right thing to do, as well. A demon can get into real trouble, doing the right thing. Funny if we both got it wrong, eh? Funny if I did the good thing and you did the bad one, eh?". They somehow knew it, Crowley wasn’t evil and Aziraphale wasn’t as obedient as an angel should have been. From the first time they ever got in touch in each other (we do not have any information on the times before Crowley’s fall) they somehow ended up thinking they didn’t do the thing their roles assigned them to. And this just shows how interesting their relationship that would come will be. In their relationship they always ended up stepping on their values that were assigned and for what? For the sake of each other.

Now, I got into the light-darkness thing and I feel the need to extend it. I somewhere saw a theory that angel’s halo’s are so bright that it blinds them, the angels having to rely only on God’s word. Meanwhile, the fallen angels, the demons, had their halo’s broken, forming the shape of the horns, being able to see and think on their own but not having any form of guidance. Now that we uncovered that doesnt a relationship between a demon and an angel just make sense? Like, the angel, blinded by the divine light, would rely on the demon’s words and rationalizing. The demon would then be guided by the angel’s light, this way both benefiting for each other and having to bond to each other. It just makes me so soft to think about that need of each other, and just a silly little thing my brain just said: “the angel could guide the demon through the darkest of times’’ (yes I just quoted my brain deal with it). I am just a succkerrr for this kind of soft thing and many people would probably not empathize and thats okay.

Now the really corny shit. Like the “forbidden love” kind of. This is, again, a well-known trope, but this time one that didn’t lose as much value as others did. When you think “forbidden love” there are so many posibilities. Like... gays during the history, a maiden and a prince, a gay knight and a prince, mafia gang leader harry styles and crime detective, the entire plot of hannibal, drunken me and a laptop to write, hold on I’m going too far, just young people in love and not affording it aaannndd 2 people from opposite sides. Heaven/Hell I mean. Obviously very opposite. And what we have learned about this forbidden love kinda stuff? They almost always end up running away together. Yes I am proving Crowley is head over heels but like, isn’t that poetic as fuck? Being so sick of having to do your work, to hide your feelings, to just hide yourself and the person you would die for that you just want to dull off together and live the perfect life without being judged?

Related to the past point, even if this was an innevitable choice, just the fact that Crowley chose Alpha Centauri is just making my brain and fingers go nuts. Alpha Centauri is a triple star system, 2 of them forming a binary star, basically two stars that are pretty close to each other. Now I know this doesn’t really make any sense, but what if those 2 stars represent Crowley and Aziraphale, and the 3rd one represents Adam? Like in that moment they went during the time before the world was created. I just think it would be cool as fuck that there would actually be an association made.

Also just the ship’s name: Ineffable. What does it mean? Beyond words, beyond understanding. What we always try is to put our feelings into words, and we more than usual fail. Because feelings aren’t something to be shown by words. They are ineffable.

Where did I go with this? Absolutely. No. Idea. I just poured all I my thoughts on a tired keyboard until my fingers have gone cold. It’s just that there are small details or just small ideas that maybe aren’t that revolutionary or special, but why not randomly post them on the internet?

*screeches in happy*

the astrophysics students

dreaming of discoveries yet to be made

wonder at the vastness of the cosmos

long equations scrawled across graph paper

jwst images as your phone lockscreen

solving complex orbital mechanics problems

debating the nature of dark matter

studying relativity and gravitational waves

mind-bending thought experiments that change your way of thinking

stargazing on a clear night

seeing supernovas and black holes in your mind's eye

discovering new stars and planets

a drive to understand the fundamentals of our universe

related: physics, astronomy

good chrome extensions for students (free)

find sci paper: for when academic materials are behind paywalls

forest: you’ve probably heard of the forest mobile app but this 100% free chrome extension allows you to function off of a blocklist or an allowed lost to stop you getting distracted!

video speed controller: do you have to watch videos on a platform that doesn’t have speed control? be it assigned watching, class replays, whatever, you can adjust the speed with this extension. it also is good if you watch stuff super fast because it can go up to 10x speed and you have so much control

swiftread: helps you read long chunks of text quickly by putting them up on screen a certain amount of words at a time (your choice) at a certain speed (words per minute) so you can read the text more quickly. it also highlights letters and stuff to help your brain take everything in and is generally a huge help with focusing (and this is coming from someone with adhd so bad it was a major factor in me dropping out of high school)

podcastle ai: this turns chunks of texts into “podcasts”. it’s a computer generated voice but it’s not as painful as built in ones. you can change the voice and speed and a couple of other things

PostureMinder: this will save your back! you set intervals for posture reminders and reminders to get up and walk around, set if you want them to make sound, etc. it’s completely free and amazing. i shorten the posture reminder intervals because my default posture is horrible

OpenDyslexic for chrome: it makes stuff dyslexic font! there are other chrome extensions that can change the font to dyslexic and mess with background and text colours but this simplistic one works best for me. I’m not dyslexic but struggle with processing so I turn this on on bad processing days

MyBib: free citation generator: this is a LIFESAVER. it automatically generates citations/references for you in pretty much any referencing style. I don’t use it as much now but before I got better at referencing this thing was the best. Remember to check the info though! It’s not always right (any citation generator will have this issue)

bonus round

Shinigami Eyes:  so this isn’t a study one but it’s good to have and can help you avoid transphobic sources if you’re searching on certain platforms. It highlights names of people and sites to show if they’re trans friendly or transphobic. 

also, workona is one to look at! it recently changed free access to be limited which is why i didn’t include it in this list (note: it’s so useful that i chose to pay for full access when they announced the change). it helps keep track of tabs and has built in feature to set up to do lists for workspaces and all sorts of useful stuff

Damn someone had to say it, thank you🤩🤩

Why is dark academia all about literature?? Can't the "how to turn a sphere inside out" video count as academia because it's a lesson and it's dark because it's confusing

Like can I enjoy dark academia about physics?? And not about Oscar Wilde (he's cool tho) I'm just Jared, 19, never fucken learned how to read

my current coping mechanism is blaming crowley for every minor inconvenience from my life

1/100

MMM YES OKAY IT WORKS NOW

so because i am done with school and exams and i can finally do what i want ive decided to restart this challenge

okay so my goals for this summer break are:

-learn french

-learn astronomy

-get into more advanced maths

-get into philosophy and literature more

TODAY I DID

-draw and learn 4 constellations: Aquarius, Aquila, Ara, and Aries

-Watch some youtube:

Vectors https://youtu.be/ml4NSzCQobk

Learn mathematics from start to finish https://youtu.be/pTnEG_WGd2Q

Of particles, stars and eternity https://youtu.be/cFZG4bMFKzM

-took some notes on the celestial sphere and angular distances

-started reading an anthology of latin texts

(some pics i took that i think are pretty fire:

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ALSO it is only 0:35 right now so I might do some more, if I do I will reblog i guess :D

“if i told you about the darkness inside of me would you still look at me like i am the Sun?”

-𝘏𝘢𝘳𝘮𝘢𝘯 𝘒𝘢𝘶𝘳

An accurate description of the life of a 1st year astrophysics major:

going to class and your professor talking fondly about the "wonderful feeling after the elevator cable snaps while you're in it"

said professor then proceeding to play a rock song

on most days only expect 2-5 students in class even though we have 13

where did the others go?? nobody knows, maybe they were abducted by aliens

speaking of aliens

your other professor pausing class to talk about what would happen if we met them

and getting mildly upset that an asteroid is no longer headed towards earth

cats

just so many physics department cats

and celebrating their birthdays

nobody in the department sleeps

don't be alarmed when your professor goes to the group chat at 3am to talk about whatever

hating elon musk

somehow other majors don't think astrophysics majors actually attend school until they meet you

there are days where we only talk about why star trek wasn't safe (they never wore seatbelts for a long time!!)

we like frogs

and rocks

rock go brrrr

sometimes finding your professor's face photoshopped onto satellites

working for hours but having 0 progress

your prof. assuring you that this is normal even for professionals

random scifi talks and book recs

cats

everyone in the dept likes greek letters

getting back to your dorm at almost midnight

the hall is eerily quiet but nobody is asleep

crying over the moon is normal

so is crying over the mars rovers

crying in general is normal

your professor saying odd things like

"this is just some weird image of two people about to die- but anyway, spacetime"

the astronomers of the school are also the astrologers

setting up in the lounge reading people's birth charts and astro cards

having to sneak through the back of the building because our id cards never work

sitting in the observatory with the lights off waiting for the professor to get there

planning to bring your hallmates to the planetarium to impress them

did i mention the cats?

meow

why do we have things that glow?

and this????

idk might make a pt. 2 or not

The Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers (2002) + letterboxd reviews (prev. FOTR) (insp.)

My much requested list of resources for studying astrophysics. Happy learning!