woah buddy no need to describe me exact experience over here🧍♂️
I keep doubting my BPD because I think my emotions aren't intense enough, but then I remember I've been in a state of dissociation for what feels like weeks now.
I don't know if any other borderlines relate, but sometimes I'll express emotion on the outside, but I won't feel any of it on the inside. For example, this morning I woke up and seemed very happy and like everything was great. I spoke to my mom and was showing a lot of that happiness through my voice and body language, but internally, I wasn't feeling anything? It's like I'm not feeling emotions somatically.
Because of this, I always find myself confused as to whether or not I'm actually feeling an emotion or not? During times like these, it triggers my imposter syndrome, and I start missing my intense emotions/mood swings.
Maybe it's the black and white thinking, too? If I'm not experiencing an intense emotion, I think I don't have BPD. But when those emotions come back, I'm like, "Yeah. There it is..." and I want to die all over again.
this art is amazing and fsr reminds me of Exodeus from Yu-gi-oh
YOU’LL ALWAYS REMAIN WITHIN ME
OMG THIS TOOK ME SOooo LoNg! I’M SORRY FOR ThE LOnG wAIT GUyS!!! 😫😫
A Poem that Baylie Sherard my oc would write about his brother :3 im not much a poet but yeah, based off of a prompt cuz im UNORIGINAL
If ghosts are real
is yours here?
crying for me
or laughing at mistakes
if ghosts are real
do you miss me?
do you watch
as i ruin this one life i have
i only live for you
but you left a life ago
im alone
surrounded by people
if ghost are real
would you talk to me?
would you say my name
and beg me to change
if ghosts are real
would you hug me?
and remember me as a kid
and not who i am now
no particular reason to choose ford, i just always liked him because he dresses cool lol
Reblog for sample size and also tell me why in the tags. I want violence. I want discourse. I want bloodshed
this is a new(sorta?) oc i just drew. MR CØF1EE, aka Mr. Coffee. Theres some slight lore to him? Rant but if u dont wanna read just look at cool art :)
Mr. Coffee originally was a lego character i made from scraps i had, a robot from a Lego Movie set, a harry potter hair, and some random legs. Then i kinda got obsessed. I made him cars out of legos, i gave him a little coffee cup, and he soon became the mayor of this town i had as a kid with all of my toys. I was like 8 at the time. He eventually got broken and lost by my little brother (😒😒😒) but i made a NEW ONE out of a random blank orange head, i drew on a face, a yellow construction helmet, some minecraft zombie arms, and random body pieces. I drew the old version, i plan to draw the new version sometime soon :) but im hoping i can make some lore for this little dude, i already have some ideas cooking. Maybe you can see some in the drawing heh 😈. but yeah i might go on rants here and there about him. even though i already have so many ocs and universes and theres to many to keep track of atp... whats the harm in another universe? i mean i technically created it before the other ones? lol anyways thats it thanks for coming to my ted talk about anxiety coffee filled robot man.
Mr. Steve Minecraft is a comfort character of mine now idgaf. I never realized how much he really means to me 🥺
this is it thats their relationship.
intrusive thoughts
..... yeah💀😰
You like kissing nobody, don't you?
i was gonna make it more chaotic but i didnt have time ;-; maybe tomorrow ill go for something more chaotic, im not sure!
featuring my binder lol
my favorite one
Hello Im Rhett i go by He/Him I have very irregular posting but have fun looking through what i post
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