I Think, Maybe, It Can Be Inspiring To Hear Someone Asserting Their Own Identity And Their Self-worth.

Hey, I found another artist doing a repetitive art project. They're drawing worms over and over again. I like bugs and worms. Check them out!

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My self-esteem was based on my job But it seems I am too mentally-disabled to work I guess my self-esteem is based on my art hobby now

All right, enough rest. Time to go back out there and be a public nuisance. I need to make it my mission to annoy every single person in my community with my panhandling. I realize now that nobody is going to give me any money. So my panhandling is now about finding pleasure in causing irritation to others. And if I get some money as well, all the better! I'm taking a chair this time. If nobody is actually going to pay me, I may as well make myself comfortable.

Okay, maybe my community is more generous than I thought. I got 6 dollars in four hours of begging. That meets my fundraising goal for today. I just want to try to make 5 dollars a day to pay for my nicotine habit. I'm sorry I went off the rails there. I hate it when my anger takes over. The anger, I think, was a response to putting myself in a very phobic situation. Rejection hurts, but I should not wish others ill. Some days, the mental illness wins.

∅ Hi, I'm Blue! ∅ I put the letters in quadrants this time. I'm so smart!

I have a song in mind. Three singers, bass, baritone, and tenor, playing a guitar, a tambourine, and tapping sticks. I have to sing all three parts myself. If I don't write it down now, I'm going to forget it. I have imposter syndrome so bad. Or maybe it's learned helplessness. But I'll just do my best and then the result will tell us whether I'm an imposter or not.

I am a former choir singer and a former church guitarist. I feel inspired to compose music again. I have a song in mind. I just need to write it down and practice it. I promise you that my voice is much better than my drawings. I'll make an anonymous Bandcamp account and post a link to the song later.

One thing that I had to learn after my fundamentalist upbringing Is that it's not always healthy to forgive people. We shouldn't always turn the other cheek, And we shouldn't love our enemies.

Happy midnight! Today is a new day! I am terrified to go panhandling. I don't think I can do it. I would need to be actually homeless to have enough desperation. I guess that means I'm giving up nicotine. But that stuff is bad for me anyway. Would you beg on the streets to avoid nicotine withdrawal? It seems, for me, the answer is "no."

∅ Hi, I'm Blue! ∅ I drew my first self-portrait! Don't I look fabulous?