∅ Hi, Blue Here. ∅ I Deleted Number 6, And Made A New Version. This Is Number 8, Not Counting The

Hey, it's midnight! That means it is a new day, full of new possibilities! I got some chores done yesterday. I was too phobic to try panhandling yesterday, but I will see if I can get out there today.

I might be going crazy, but I think I'm going to try panhandling tomorrow. Doing gigs and odd jobs is too stressful for me. I'm not homeless, but I can't work and my disability aid is months away. I haven't done panhandling before, and I am rather terrified. But I am going to wear a face mask, a hat, and sunglasses, which will help with the feeling of embarrassment. Wish me luck.

Happy midnight! The old day is gone, and good riddance to it. This is a new day! And every day can be the start of a new era.

I need to work from home because I get panic attacks. Making music is my best chance at earning a living online. I have depression. I have to start writing the sheet music now, while I'm not feeling well. The mental effort will slowly improve my mood as I work. Waiting for the depression to go away never works. The depression will always be there. The only way to improve the depression is to summon the willpower to be productive. I know that the music will be good enough to earn donations. I just have to have faith and trust the process.

I am a former choir singer and a former church guitarist. I feel inspired to compose music again. I have a song in mind. I just need to write it down and practice it. I promise you that my voice is much better than my drawings. I'll make an anonymous Bandcamp account and post a link to the song later.

∅ Hi, my name is Blue! ∅ I drew my first Blue! Aren't you proud of me?

∅ Hi, I'm Blue! ∅ Here are some hearts and diamonds for my new Tumblr friends :)

Self-love is important. I am a good person and I deserve to be loved and respected.

All right, enough rest. Time to go back out there and be a public nuisance. I need to make it my mission to annoy every single person in my community with my panhandling. I realize now that nobody is going to give me any money. So my panhandling is now about finding pleasure in causing irritation to others. And if I get some money as well, all the better! I'm taking a chair this time. If nobody is actually going to pay me, I may as well make myself comfortable.

Agender symbol, white on black, HD

Agender symbol, white on clear, HD (for printing)

∅ Hi, Blue here. ∅ I made an attempt at drawing something useful today. This is my version of the agender gender symbol. I like the use of the empty set sign from math to represent my agender identity. I wanted the image to print on a couple of t-shirts. So that's my image for today.

I don't feel like I have a particular gender, and that is totally valid!

I slept all day today. I wish I didn't hate myself so much. I really have a lot of self-hate. Forgiving myself is something I'm working on. Being angry at myself for being disabled is so cruel and bigoted. I just want the mental screaming to stop, so I can rest.