Me Watching Miraculous Ladybug

I somehow can’t find this poem by itself anywhere on the internet? and I wanted to link to just the poem, so I’ve pulled it out. Originally from this post: 

From one of Pete’s secret blogspots on August 13, 2008:

to you (unfinished, off the top of my head) It all started with some friends and a van a kick drum inside my ribs Preaching electric into a microphone stand Raise your red plastic cup And Turn the laughter up We fell asleep in the grass on the summer fest days You’d never guess I’m still trying to get my head screwed on straight All us believers still believe Everytime we sing “two more weeks” Someone shoulda thrown us in a cell and swallowed the key Somebody shoulda told us to leave em be The only news we tuned in to was the traffic update Nothing feels as close to home as nightime windows down on 88 Lax to berlin and back Wake up on the west coast inside a flask The good books in the drawer next to the bed you pissed in passports a blur, full of stamps from places I missed you in They’ll tell you everything about last night that you forget Pack your suitcase, joes in the back smoking a jazz cigarette They hated me before they ever loved me I’m not ready for things to change I miss you missing me in the good old days Got stuck in the cell of you and me I guess it still beat solitary ——-Worry worry Put my head in such a flurry Freckle freckle What makes you so special———- One of these days yr gonna wake up in heaven Laugh about that night you got four stitches above your eye when they let the guitars fly Never trust a band that wouldn’t bleed for you Never believe in anyone who wouldn’t drive through the night (To you) They never tell you in school you’ll feel so alone Wake me up again when were in the same time zone The way I’d take a cornfield over a coast Mulitply me times what you adore most There were nights between yellow lines When I confessed to you riding shotgun asleep under purple skies They say You get what you get Well we Got lost in the middle of nowhere And you almost quit Tonight Come together Come apart You can get lonely when u Only read the charts Called everybody I knew in this life Can we get it together just for tonite I miss old friends and “play it agains” Please Send my love, to everyone above

7 depression tips and why they work, from someone who’s been hardcore depressed for two years

hi so im recovering from a really mean depression and there are some things i learned and that i would like to tell you. 

1. you need to reappropriate your space and time. depression is lying to you and generally shrinks your living space (aka: you spend your time in bed/behind your computer/in your room…). visit and do something (even if its just scrolling down social media) in each room you have access to. expand your perception and space, you’ll breathe more easily.

2. plan depression outfits. a depression outfit is a comfy one you still can go out in. to me, it’s old ripped jeans and a turtleneck, my old work uniforms, sweaters. dressing up is one of the most important parts of managing depression. first of all, you’ll feel less like pathetic with proper clothes on (nothing worse than staying in your pj all day). secondly, and it’s a crucial point: it allows you to get out to run some errands. imagine you have to go grocery shopping or to the post office. if you’re in your unwashed pajamas you’ve been wearing for three days or more (been there done that) what you have to do is to undress, shower (if you can), and put on real, clean clothes. which is three things. depression messes wih one’s ability to start things, so it’s very likely you’ll drop your errands and just stay at home feeling like shit. but if you’re already wearing clothes, you just have to put on a coat and get out of the house. which is, trust me, 10 times easier than doing the whole dressing up thing.

3. it’s okay if you stay the whole day in bed but force yourself to get up in the morning (anytime before noon) and drink a glass of water/juice. again, depression messes up with your ability to start doing things, but if you concentrate your will to just get up and drink something before going back to bed, i promise you’ll feel less shitty and might actually end up getting up for good since you’ve been through the trouble of getting up. You’ll feel better (and also you need water!)

4. do one (1) physical, material thing that will improve your life conditions per day. aka: washing a single glass, scrubbing the mirror, etc. you’ll feel proud of yourself, and the tidiest your environment, the less shitty your brain will be. plus, again: if you manage to wash a single dish, maybe you’ll find yourself cleaning the whole kitchen without noticing. and thats a good thing. no pressure: just do one single thing. and don’t beat yourself up if you can’t, of course, but try, it’s gonna be better that way. 

5. open the window (especially at night, i personally find it very soothing) and just… breathe fresh air, looking at the horizon or closing your eyes, and breathe in and out slowly. it’s great to take fresh air. bonus if you have anxiety/ptsd, honestly. opening the windows is one of the easiest ways i know to stop a panic attack.

6. brush your teeth everyday, even if it’s the only thing you manage to do. i know every depression guide recommends it, but it’s really important. not showering for a few days is okay, you’re not gonna get sick that way. but dental hygiene is capital. not to mention you’ll feel less rotting in the inside if you’re less rotting in the outside. you can use your phone to schedule your teeth brushing of the day! really helps. 

7. think about your hobbies and force yourself to do something related to an old hobby of yours. i know it’s no fun. i know you can’t feel anything, so why bother? but really, do bother. do it and eventually as you recover it will be fun again. you haven’t lost your passion, your goals, your motivation. it’s still there, but depression is like a blanket that covers it all. forcing yourself to still act on your hobbies (especially if those are not screen-related: books, gardening, etc.) will help digging through the depression layers to expose your will to live again. trust me on this one. i really thought i was just an apathetic mess, but actually depression was just mean. i believe in you! 

and finally: hold tight and it’s gonna be okay! recovery is possible, and it’s gonna arrive sooner than you expect. energy and motivation are good things and they’re still around here waiting for you! 

feel free to add your own! you’re all gonna make it i promise.

Oh Lord She Floatin’

fun Delirium sketches

 The Wine Dark Sea by @moorishflower.

 inspiration includes: sea nettle jelly fish, glass frogs, hooded nudibranchs and rainbow color shift LEDs

I put the bi in bitch

I forgot I made a couple of mini vine compilations when they announced the end of vine

Watch them!

You won’t regret it! 

If you want original, full-length, hilarious musicals; here’s a few by Team Starkid (and Tin Can Brothers). From Harry Potter, to DC, to Disney and the creation of fire. There’s a show for every mood!

A Very Potter Musical

https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLC76BE906C9D83A3A

Me and My Dick 

https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLF0D250702C0684CD

A Very Potter Sequel

https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL86C718AEE71C9DE9

Starship

https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLC6A915952D67F112

Holy Musical Batman

https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL96B8289ADF77A8C4

A Very Potter Senior Year

https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLvep3WS9e8tRA_amclMNdVkVqNazfebXk

Twisted

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-77cUxba-aA&t=4226s

Trail to Oregon!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BxKCX-UvPrI&t=1975s

ANI: A Parody

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ke1B1iAeY2c 

Firebringer

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZmVuNlu0LCk&t=1599s 

Movies, Musical and Me (Web Series) 

https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLvep3WS9e8tQ_iXf7z-GQS3dZnlXzlVrR

The Guy Who Didn’t Like Musicals 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IrxKX44qBJ0

*UPDATE!* WE’RE HITTING THE 10 YEAR MARK SINCE A VERY POTTER MUSICAL! 10niversary Celebration and A New Original Musical (BLACK FRIDAY) kickstarted available here! ALREADY FUNDED AFTER 4 DAYS!  Let’s help them get that stretch goal!  https://www.kickstarter.com/projects/starkid/starkids-10niversary-celebration

Note:

Spies are Forever - Tin Can Brothers

https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLlF0gFzOX4tD1KJ5ZEnvhD55Qhnz-K0X2

Poe Party - Shipwrecked Comedy - there’s Starkid members in there too and it’s really awesome

https://youtu.be/jxRiP4GNiyM?list=PLs2T_dNZ-XW6UjWC-qUbZSWJyCLFmsdPP

Flop Stoppers (short film) - Tin Can Brothers

https://youtu.be/lipp_4fco3w

The Solve It Squad Returns (Scooby-Doo Parody) - Tin Can Brothers

https://youtu.be/dEA0hNs0M98

The Case of the Gilded Lily (2018) - Shipwrecked comedy

https://youtu.be/UqVPzqI9k-Y 

These guys are the reason I did and just completed a theatre degree at University!

Russian learning outline

I made this outline after reading a couple of posts by @lovelybluepanda on how to study & make a language learning schedule and this post by @wonderful-language-sounds (thank you! <3)

Beginner A1-A2

Grammar. New Penguin Russian Course (A1) + Schaums Outlines of Russian Grammar (A2). 30-60 minutes daily

Take notes of rules, verbs/conjugations etc. in notebook1

Solve exercises in notebook2

Vocabulary. Quizlet, Memrise, 50Languages. 30-60 minutes daily

Learn about 5-10 words/day + review the rest

Add vocabulary lists to notebook1

Writing. 10 minutes daily

Write a paragraph everyday in notebook2 using what you have learned

Listening + Reading. 10-20 minutes daily

Watch childrens cartoons with subtitles or read-along stories

Weiterlesen

This man just uttered my soul and deepest thoughts.  This is what I seek. 

WE HAVE NO GAYS AND MANY BROKEN TOILETS