34ting D1sord3r??? No I Have A Little Kitten In My Tummy And Every Time I Eat Im Smothering Him!! :(((

What I ate today

Not even a crumb.

Fuck you food, I want to feel my stomach eating itself. Inching ever closer to my GW

Manifesting -5kg for everyone who reblogs

Guys im alive actually

Introduction (age 21)

Hi. You can call me Newt because ain't no way I'm sharing my real name on here in fear that someone I know finds me. I'm pretty fucked up in a lot of ways

I'm a survivor of child and adolescent torture after having been severely abused and also a victim of TMBC (trauma-based mind control) and RA (ritual abuse) throughout my childhood. I was abused for 13 and a half years before being removed by social services once I became confident enough to talk about what was happening.

I have Bipolar 1, Dissociative Identity Disorder, Some sorta restrictive ed (probs atypical ana), a psychotic disorder, Complex PTSD, and fibromyalgia. I also deal with sleep problems and a bunch of other physical health issues that are undiagnosed

I'm trans FTM and use he/him Pronouns. I started medication in 2021 after being sectioned to a child inpatient unit where I live and started antipsychotics which made me gain 25 odd kg. I'm now working to lose that weight now I'm feeling more "stable".

I was clinically anorexic before starting on antipsychotics and hoping to get back to that state.

I will mostly be posting about my ed.

If you don't like that, block, don't report.

You have your safe spaces, I have mine.

Nice to meet you all! :D

In my ED relapse era

I had to try "recovery" for a while if I want top surgery but they're not sending the referral until I see a neurologist for physical health issues so I'm going to relapse to lose as much weight as possible so I can start T sooner.

calories are evil ngl

this is the highest weight I'll ever be.

say it with me:

this is the highest weight I'll EVER be.

the only way the number can go is down.

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active 3d blogs plssss reblog and like i need moots!!!💜

Did you eat today? Yea, I can tell.

Reblog if

It’s 104% okay to come to your DM and just say, “Hi, can we be friends?” And then start asking you random questions.