One Day You Think: I Want To Die. And Then You Think, Very Quietly, Actually I Want A Coffee. I Want

my breath in clouds

the snow crunching beneath my feet

the sting of cold air on my ears

the moon, full amidst the clouds and fog

brick buildings and warm lighting

colourful stained glass and pure white snow

soft music, I see them sitting atop a snow pile

hushed voices, subtle glances

a moment of tranquility in bustling city life

quietly shared with you

people who work/study in quantitative bio-adjacent fields, rise up. computational neuroscience where you get to see someone's thoughts in feelings in graph form??? so cool. biophysics where you can pass blood plasma through an electric field to determine whether a patient has cancer or not?? unbelievable. biomedical engineering where you can literally build a device to pump someone's heart and be the difference between their life and death??? oh my god. disease modelling, being able to predict AND prevent communities being affected by disease on a large scale through your analysis of data??? i love science

“If I’ve learned one lesson from all that’s happened to me, it’s that there’s no such thing as the biggest mistake of your existence. There’s no such thing as ruining your life. Life’s a pretty resilient thing, it turns out.”

— Sophie Kinsella

250217/26

30-39/100 days of productivity

song of the week: b2b-charli xcx

it's been over a week since i last posted. i have been so stressed for my calculus midterm. i did over 250 integrals in five days, staying up until 4 am every day or not sleeping at all. my physics midterm got pushed to after the break so now i have three midterms back to back.

just had my calculus midterm last night and it honestly did not go well. this past week leading up to and after my exam definitely took a toll on me mentally, physically, and emotionally which undoubtedly affected my exam. but i'm going to try and stay motivated for my other classes and get a better mark on the calculus final.

i have so many lab reports and proposals to write now but at least reading week is next week and i'll be going home to see the sun.

pictures:

walking home after my midterm

6 am after studying all night

integrals on the classroom blackboard at 3 am (the janitor forgot to lock the door)

practice questions an hour before my midterm with friends

250130

14/100 days of productivity

finished lab report, started my chemistry midterm review

“Until it’s done tell none”

Your life is what you make it.

250111

song of the day: futile devices- sufjan stevens

not the most productive day today.

academics: completed next week's notes and half of next week's readings. spent most of my time revising physics.

selfcare: took a nice hot shower. then the hot water cut out. it was not pleasant.

tomorrow's goal: do last week's practice problems and get started on this week's problem sets so i'm ready before class. also need to prepare for my lab on monday.

notes: i, in fact, did not figure out my program and am still debating transferring.

“So often, a visit to a bookshop has cheered me, and reminded me that there are good things in the world.”

― Vincent van Gogh

thank you for tagging me, @sugaredpastille <3

last song: laura plays the piano- akira yamaoka

fav color: (dark) green

last book: life sculpted- anthony j. martin

last film: crimson peak- 2015

last tv show: hannibal (nbc)- 2013

sweet/spicy/savory: savory but i also like sweet

relationship status: single and yearning

last thing i googled: "why r code being stupid"

current obsessions: coffee rings in notebooks, flake stickers, soft cookies. mashed potatoes. cute small oranges.

looking forward to: next semester and having half the day free to make my notes pretty with new stickers! (i shoved my lectures all in the mornings)

i tag @h0n3ym00n333, @lizziesnook