Blendedwhiskey - Existential Longing

Fortesa Latifi, from The Truth About Grief.

I miss you deeply, unfathomably, senselessly, terribly.

— Franz Kafka, Letters to Milena

fuck anyone who has ever made you feel like you're not enough

do you ever talk to someone and it’s just so effortless and safe from the very beginning??? feeling like you could never run out of things to talk about with them but also just enjoy their presence

The found family trope is for those who were never a first choice. Those that always carried the baggage but received no tips in exchange. It’s for those that needed a wall to lean on but learned to build one on their own . They looked at people as potential. As someone who could very well become an important part of their life. This is the trope for those who listened but were never heard, those that seeked an idea of a home in souls and not walls. It is for the ones that yearn for a love the weight of blood, but came with no obligation- no -they wanted to be chosen , they wanted a familial bond that escaped the scopes of biology . They wish for their presence to have meaning. For it to be significant. And for their absence to be nagging. Brutal. Loud.

Mary Oliver

"I will love you if I never see you again, and I will love you if I see you everyday"

"... I will love you as we find ourselves farther and farther from one another, where once we were so close... I will love you until your face is fogged by distant memory. I will love you no matter where you go and who you see, I will love you if you don't marry me. I will love you if you marry someone else and I will love you if you never marry at all, and spend your years wishing you had married me after all. That is how I will love you even as the world goes on its wicked way."

-Lemony Snicket

“You came into my life—not as one comes to visit (you know, not ‘taking one’s hat off’) but as one comes to a kingdom where all the rivers have been waiting for your reflection, all the roads, for your steps. Fate wanted to correct its mistake. Fate wanted to correct its mistake—as if it has asked my forgiveness for all its previous deceptions.”

— “Letters to Véra” Vladimir Nabokov. 1923. (via themovinglip)