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sometimes I really think clip studio hates me

it crashed 3 times. send help.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAY, AUBREY!

I luv my angy bnuuy girl :3

It’s late but I’ll just post it now anyway… Musial family tree

I made the base with an app I have for oc stuff and then drew over it, a little bit of elaboration on all the characters I’ve neglected give substantial information on, it’s still not much but yk… and for Basils father and grandfather I shared doodles of their Marzenie designs too since those haven’t come up yet

Two extra points to add to this:

1, for Basils grandfather I didn’t go into his death but the specifics are that he a construction worker and was working on a run down bridge when the structure collapsed, he drowned when he became trapped under the rubble and wasn’t able to swim up

2, for Basia’s older sister/Basil’s great aunt, I imply it a little but would rather spell it out…her face is scared because she was trying to save her sister when she got stuck outside during an air strike, the oldest was just shy of the explosion that killed he youngest, her face was disfigured and her arm had to be amputated due to severe burns, she also walked with a cane for the rear of her life until eventually killings herself out of guilt for not being able to save her little sister, Basia never talks much about either of them

happy birthday, aubrey! 🐰

uhh I wanted to try a new style.

ok that's all bye

NEW AU STUFF YESSSJSKAKAKS

charlene omg

I ABSOLUTELY LOVE THE DESIGN!!! THE SWORDS THE HELMET THE CHAINMAIL...chefs kiss.

Ooiuguhhh I've got to draw her sometimes..

I don't have much too say bcoz I'm running late somwhere sadly!!

After much wait, the Weaponsmith!!!

So for the AU’s purposes this is Charlene- she was one of the first ideas I came up with! Something about giving her a sword helmet just stuck with me, as you may guess she’s the “weapon shop” character to go with Maverick being the item shop (and yes by the way I did put them in the same pose. It looks good)

Anyhow, the flower nestled in her chainmail is Goldenrod! Elaboration below ⬇️

This is goldenrod, goldenrod was my pick for Charlene because it can simultaneously represent both encouragement and caution, I use this as a shorthand for “make good choices” which is the sort of character I see Charlene has, she’s responsible in perhaps the most burdensome sense

Charlene is not only the one looking out for the hooligans, but as the youngest of her siblings is left to take care of their aging mother while her brother just sits in his room all day gaming instead of doing anything for either of them (this man is fully capable of getting off his ass to get his mom’s medication from the pharmacy but simply chooses not to) and her other siblings have all moved away and gone about their own lives

Charlene as a character is depicted as many things she doesn’t seem to want to be, responsible, quiet, imposing- we know she probably doesn’t like how she’s perceived because she makes an effort to dress in a cutesy sort of way, she isn’t trying to be this intimidating person, it’s just her build is all, and in addition to the idea of being left responsible for other peoples duty’s when she’s still just a teenager, the contrast in the first place is why I like goldenrod as her flower

Unfortunately Basil has a hard time keeping this reality in his mind, he feels bad for it but Charlene scares him, he gets really nervous around her even though she’s never said anything bad about or towards him- so in his mind Charlene manifests as someone scary but harmless, helpful even

(Sidenote, I like to headcanon that other then Aubrey Basil actually knows Charlene the best and has known her longest, they Arendt exactly friends? But their mom/grandma respectively were so they spent time together as kids, it’s that really quiet sort of acquaintance you have with the kid your parent sticks you with and tells you to be friends with- they don’t consider each other friends exactly, they just know each other)

Also I tend to headcanon Charlene as transfem, that has nothing to do with anything that’s just a thought I have about her

I am a grown ass adult and I still get nausea when I feel like I'm in trouble. They're gonna send me to the principals office and take away my toys for a week. Can you just fucking kill me instead of making me stew in my fucking anxiety

hello, can you tell us more about cannibalism please? (This is in reference to the shark fin post and your additions about what happens eating human flesh)

Okay sure!

So cannibalism psychologically occurs in one of three scenarios

Survivalist cannibalism

Narcissistic cannibalism

Psychosis triggered cannibalism

The first two are the most common, Survivalist cannibalism is merely a result of situational desperation although interestingly it’s been found that people who engaged in it showed far less apprehension to do it again and less disgust then the average person, which in my opinion implies the aversion humans have towards Cannibalism is social rather then innate, the most famous example of this was the Donner party, a group of American settlers who became stranded in the snow on their way west and were forced to eat their dead until rescue

Narcissistic cannibal’s are something we’re all familiar with but probably don’t realize it, the vast majority of cannibalistic murderers are this type, the most famous example of this is of course Jeffery Dahmer, what most people don’t understand about this case and the cases of most other cannibal serial killers is that the main focus of their crimes usually isn’t the cannibalism itself but rather other acts towards their victims and the killing itself, that’s why these crimes are often done in tandem to sexual ones as the killer in question’s reasoning is centered around power dynamics; their motivation rests within the idea that eating something is the ultimate way to be above it, a sort of food-chain complex

Last but not least there’s Cannibalistic ideation as a symptom of psychosis or other schizoaffective disorders, psychosis is what most people refer to when they talk about “going insane”, it’s a state any particular disturbed person can fall into which causes hallucinations and delusions, the desire to eat human flesh as a symptom while uncommon is not unheard of- in fact there’s several sub-disorders that have been named to define more specific and repeated circumstances

“Windigo psychosis” is one of these specific disorders which has only been observed within Native American communities, it’s thought that cultural context can affect how a persons psychosis manifests, and for Natives of North America within Algonquin speaking regions this particular form of it can occur which includes some amount of cannibalistic ideation as its symptom

(although I’d like to note that in cases of psychosis regardless of circumstances its rather uncommon for the person in question to act upon the thought, it’s a pervasive idea that schizophrenic or psychotic individuals are dangerous due to the frequent violent thoughts which can occur for these individuals, but it must be said that violent crimes are not committed by these people as often as some think, and self harm is far more common in these situations then the harm of others)

With that disclaimer out of the way! Let’s talk about pseudo-cannibalism! That’s not a real term that’s just what I call it, but it’s when a person only consumes a small, specific part of another human or prepares them in a very specific way, these category also includes ritualistic cannibalism and cannibalism as a death rite

Some interesting examples of this include Egyptian mummy candy! The creation of this substance entails the regular mummification process in which a dead body has its organs removed before being sewn back up, but rather then being wrapped in cloth the sarcophagus is filled with honey and left for a long time, in addition the person in question also consumed honey before death to really just be full of honey, this process is referred to as mellification and it’s thought that the substance produced was used as medicine once hardened, although I must stress that mellification is a theory and has not been confirmed to have actually happened in ancient Egypt by archaeologists, still it’s extremely interesting and I wanted to talk about it even if it hasn’t been confirmed as real

Although you know what kind of mummy eating actually did happen? Mummy parties! In Victorian England and America mummies we’re all the rage, people would buy them to keep in their house or host mummy parties which on occasion entailed crushing up bits of the mummy into powder and eating or SNORTING it! Sometimes the powder was even used as paint by combining it with sunflower oil- these practices are unfortunately why we don’t have many mummies anymore

As for cannibalism as a death rite, the practice has been observed in places like Brazil and Peru, and while the practice is essentially retired in the modern day there’s plenty of places that did so in the past

Okay that’s about all I’ve got off the top of my head, I encourage looking into into it yourself though! There’s many interesting things to be learned, additionally I’m not sure how accurate all of my information is, cannibalism is an obscure topic so sometimes stuff gets spread that isn’t true, like mellification and how we aren’t sure if it ever actually happened or not! Hope you enjoyed my ramble though!

just watched alien stage

don't talk to me.

Do you people turn notifications on for my blog or what ??

Oughhh I'm finally posting something unrelated to omori

uh, i wanted to make my own ena oc (yippie!!!)

the left part (The Wolf) is "Skeptical" and the right part (The Sheep) is gullible

i had to google what was the opposite of gullible was (embarrassing!!!)

maybe ill draw more of them (or find some VA??)

Fun fact about Marzenie:

The red tendrils from, HIM/Sunny’s parasite are based on “the crawl” from YouTube analog horror series vita carnis <3

This stuff is basically what Basil is hallucinating plaguing his best friend

Ena’s your Basil

So I could NOT get this idea out of my head after having it, so finally I decided to actually DRAW it instead of just sitting on the concept

As number one basil enjoyer it was inevitable i’d start shoving him into other universes- I’m just surprised it took this long! I suppose I’ve just been really preoccupied with my AU’s and whatnot

I think I’ve posted something like this before but I’d like to share with you the three songs I most associate with Marzenie <3

These are three very different songs but they’re all like… the right vibe? I haven’t entirely analyzed them or anything I just thought they felt right for Marzenie and I’d like to share them, especially the Żywołak song- see also Sol invictus for songs I’ve listened too repeatedly while brainstorming Marzenie stuff

But out of all of them I consider off the wall! Magical! To be my favorite and the most relevant

i love saying “girl fuck you”… regardless of the occasion its so healing. i could literally be alone in my room ummm girl fuck you!

Sunny and Basil in the hospital after the confrontation

Sunny (trying to explain headspace): “and in my dreams it seemed like everything was nice but-“

Basil: (still coming down from anesthesia) “in my dreams you were god anddd you kissed me”

Sunny: “…?”

Basil: “can you call the nurse, my stab wound hurts.”

*does this to you*

A SCULPTED VISAGE

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Aka a little sol face I made with clay!

So I’ve never mentioned this but I make decorative masks as I hobby? I’m not great at it yet but I thought the occasion warranted it, and by occasion I mean that I have 100 followers! Yes yes this is the 100 followers special, I’ve actually had 100 for a little bit but tumblr didn’t tell me because I’d technically already gotten to 100, but whenever bots follow me I remove them so I didn’t notice when it happened again but with real people! So thank you, thank you so much for all the time and attention you lovely people have given me…

I’ve gotten to 100 and over on other platforms plenty of times, but this feels different, I’ve been putting a lot of my soul (pun intended) into this account and into Marzenie and it’s brought me so much joy, it isn’t just that I got to the big number but also just how many of those usernames I recognize, how many of them appear almost every day in my notifications and how many of them are people that I followed first because I thought they were cool

I can’t wait to keep making things for you, Marzenie and whatever comes after it… if I ever stop that is, Pft, I’m not sure I will! It’s lovely and I like it a lot…anyhow, you all have a nice day

ok hi guys

this is what took me what, 3 months?? and i dont even have anything in defense of myself

ok hi guys

this is what took me what, 3 months?? and i dont even have anything in defense of myself

nham nham hmmmm delicious

How to hold the Marze

I’ve been thinking about memes I could do with this goober and this one felt right

hii hiii hiiii!!!

Sorry for the total absence of EVERYTHINF

It's just that my computer has crashed 2 times (?) I have some sort of eternal headache, and my knee hates me

I promise I'll post smth soon I SWEARRRR

Tempted to very slightly change alter boy’s design to give him one of those facial shape thingys that people put on their characters and look like owls….

happy birthday, mari! 🧺

Hey who wants Marzenie memes? Nobody? Nobody asked for this? Don’t care!!

Have them anyway!

Okay that’s all

As much as I torment him it makes me soooooo happy seeing all the art of Basil lately, my favorite guy ever!! His special birthday month!! Because a lot of people posted their stuff late Bewutibwyuehbeuwdjeu, which is highly reasonable because it isn’t a venue memorable date

Chapter 7 of the OMORI manga is available to read now! (JP) 📖 Monthly Afternoon 💻 Comic DAYS (EN) 💻 K MANGA