Post Bender Nothing Day

she is lovely but im asking myself if i care once again. i really really dont want to be in a relationship when i study abroad this summer XD

not that i ever want one regardless of studying abroad

today was a rare day. i had fun in the winter because of the weather. seeing a forest covered in snow is something that has only happened to me a few times before, i got to walk on ice too which i have only done once before. the edges and more curved parts of the reservoir turned into little magical groves. the silence is also really nice. maybe this winter will be peaceful and kind. also interesting- the closer i got back towards people, buildings, cars etc it got noticeably warmer, but standing in the middle of a frozen lake is COLD! my mind went to how the brothers of the nights watch must feel going beyond the wall. i think if i got over hating the cold i would totally be ok in the nights watch.

sometimes you do something too intimate with someone and then youre left feeling weird the next day even though there is no reason to 0_o like cant i just be normal bro

freaking out about overdue work like im a professional at it. then i sit down and do it and its not too bad

LOTR MEME → THREE COLOURS: GREEN (1/3)

Simone de Beauvoir, from a diary entry featured in Diary of a Philosophy Student

Hanako Footman, from her novel titled "Mongrel," originally published in 2024

she and i both leave each other again and again knowing full well we are very likely going to see and do things with other people. said people and experiences occupy her mind as well as mine. does this mean we are just that confident in our paths crossing once more, or that we simply dont care that much about each other? havent figured this out. maybe both.

sometimes i wish i was cat or a raccoon, they probably dont worry about this sort of thing. or maybe a toucan, i think i would make a good toucan.