Latest Posts by berriemilku - Page 3

Me: *eats food*

My digestive system: wat the FUCK

My tummy feels like it's ripping me apart from the inside out but I'm being so brave about it

As chronically ill people, we spend a lot of time asking ourselves, “What am I doing wrong to feel this badly?” 

The answer is nothing. You are doing nothing wrong. You are doing the best you possibly can to make yourself feel better. You don’t deserve the guilt you so often assign yourself.

me, gaslighting my stomach into cooperation: you’re fine

🪐 ASTROCARTOGRAPHY 🌙

Don't steal, don't repost 👹🔪.

Astrocartography is a tool used in locational astrology. Essentially, it shows you a map based on the planets' placements based on the time and place you were born. It's a fun tool to show you places that are most affected by a planet's energy. When you have no idea where to go or travel, you can use this. But don't base your whole life decisions on this tool, you can still go wherever you want, it just shows you the places that are best recommended and least recommended but don't let it restrict you! It's just for fun!

I use astro.com's astrocartography tool called astroclick travel.

Put the required information to store the data of your birth chart in the website, if you haven't already. Remember to choose female or male in the gender part of the birth data entry because astroclick travel won't work if the data is stored as "event/other." In astro.com's homepage, click free horoscopes, then click locational astrology, and under locational astrology, click astroclick travel.

🥀 THE PART OF FORTUNE

When you pull up your astrocartography map, the red symbol of the part of fortune is always on the place of your birth. Person B was born in Paris, France so their part of fortune is on Paris.

🥀 VERTICAL LINES AND HORIZONTAL WAVES

The Vertical Lines are the planets/mc lines and planets/ic lines while the horizontal waves are the planets/asc line and planets/dc line.

This is Person B's astrocartography map as an example:

🥀 ZENITHS

The Circles in the planets/mc lines are called zeniths. This is where the maximum effect of the planet is felt. For example, if you want to go somewhere where you want to feel the ultimate effects of Venus, you know, maybe where you want to increase the chances of finding love or harmony, or maybe you're an artist or a fashion designer and you want to be in a place where you can have a massive pump of energy and inspiration to create an artwork, possibly your masterpiece, then the zenith area is absolutely recommended. Others say this is where you find the people that will love you for the whole of your life, soulmates and all that.

What if the zenith is in the middle of the ocean or other large bodies of water and I really want to visit my *insert planet* zenith? Then try to book a cruise ship or fly on an airplane (if there's ships and planes that go to those areas but if not- well, I hope the planet's line in of itself will suffice.)

Ex. This image shows Person B's saturn/dc line on the bottom left, venus/mc line and zenith, mercury/mc line and zenith and neptune/dc line on the right. As you can see, the zeniths are in the middle of the ocean. Honestly, most of Person B's planet zeniths (the little circles) are in the middle of the ocean as you can see in their astrocartography map above (the 2nd image).

🥀 ADDITIONAL HARMONIOUS AND DISHARMONIOUS/HARD ASPECT LINES:

As you can see in the image below, there's a "with harmonious aspect" and "with disharmonious aspect" option. Click those if you want to see additional lines. Though their energies or effects are lesser in amount compared to the major ac, dc, mc, ic lines.

Extra: You see that "Scalable Map" tab? Click and choose there if you want to focus alone on a specific area or continent like Europe, Africa, etc.

Then boom! Look at this humongous amounts of lines everywhere, it's like a really big tangle of yarns or a spider's web! This may overwhelm some so try to take it easy and focus on the major lines first before diving into these. Note that the additional lines are thinner compared to the major lines that are thick.

🥀 PLANET LINES:

If you know the meaning of the planets, apply that to what these lines means. These are just my generalizations of what each planetary line means.

Sun Lines: Bright yellow lines. They have something to do with your ego and uplifting yourself, where you might feel yourself shine and be bright and happy the most- if it's a favorable line. Places where you can feel to be noticed and attract attention the most. Where you can be surrounded by many people and gain popularity. Recommended if you want to boost your career, especially if it has to do with the public and fame. But if it's a hard/disharmonious aspect line, then the sun's energy is restricted and can be quite challenging.

Moon Lines: The moon lines are a nice shade of dark blue. They have something to do with your emotions, your wellbeing, etc. All the things having to do with the moon. For example, if you want to be somewhere where you want to be inspired to write a really emotional piece of poetry, story or film then try these places. Or if you just want to be in tune with your emotions and soul, meditate and relax, chill and be cozy then go here.

Mercury Lines: Light Green. Places where your mind can be stimulated the most, communicate easily and just inhale information and stuff. Where your mind can be at ease the most and thinking at its higher brain power. Recommended if you want to find a place where you want to study like go to college or something, enter educational programs, etc.

Venus Lines: Dark Green. Places where you can find love, be lovely and in harmony, do art and other venusian things. Like I said, if you're an artist or designer, try to go here if you want to create something special and all that. Or if you just want to live that venusian, fairytale movie like life and just be at peace. If you have a night/nocturnal birth chart, venus places can be the most beneficial places to go to since it's benefic in a night chart.

Mars Lines: Red. Where you can feel passionate at most, highly energized and pumped up. These are the places you can go to if you want to do very energetic activites like hiking or just want to feel hyped up in general. It can also be challenging though because these can affect your mood and you might be mad easily in these places, etc. Others don't really recommend the mars areas because they note that it can be dangerous and risky, disaster zones. If you have a night chart especially, the martian areas can be the most challenging since it's malefic in a night chart.

Jupiter Lines: Pink lines. It is said that these areas are one of the best places you can go to. Especially if you have a day chart since jupiter is benefic here. These are the places where you can feel happy, optimistic and adventurous. Where the vibe and energy can be positive and relaxing the most. Also the places where one's luck is increased. Which is why these places are recommended in relation to your career.

Saturn Lines: Brown. Places where you can be restricted, be faced with responsibility. These are the places you can go to to be disciplined or if you want to be challenged. Where you can face your ambitions/goals and challenge yourself and others. These places are challenging and can be hard especially to people with a day chart since saturn is malefic here.

Uranus Lines: Sky blue. Places where you can face a lot of changes. Whether to your career or self. Places where you can get away from the mundane to encounter exotic and great once-in-a-lifetime experiences to develop yourself. These are the places you can go to if you want to feel absolutely wild and free and independent. You may encounter unique and one-of-a-kind people on here you can befriend and bond with. They'll be unforgettable and vice versa.

Neptune Lines: Purple. Places where you can hone your spiritual and emotional being. Where you can be more private and secure from the rest of the world, just in harmony with yourself. You'll encounter more experiences and opportunities to hone abilities like your intuition. And you may also encounter more mystical or supernatural related things on here that can help you.

Pluto Lines: Black. These places can be intense and stressful. Similar to saturn and mars combined together but like twice the effect. These are the places where you can be forced to face transformations on your life. Experiences that may be hard to deal with. Places where you will encounter major challenges after challenges and problems. It can either feel as if the universe is just sending you lessons to help you or the universe is against you.

Chiron Lines: Black. You can go to these places to heal yourself or help others heal themselves. These are the places where you can put your mind and self, your worries and wounds to rest. Where you can find ways or experiences that can be therapeutic to you. Also can motivate you to contemplate and look at your life and origin.

North Node Lines: Black. These places are like unfamiliar territory, the kind of places that take you out of your comfort zone. You will encounter many experiences on here that will push you to change certain views and values, make you think differently. These are the places you can go to if you want a life-changing experience that can change the trajectory of your life path. There's like a calling from these places, like you're bound for something to happen on here, like your karmic path.

🥀 CROSSINGS

Crossings are like the conjunctions in a regular astrology chart. These are when lines cross or intersect/meet each other. These are the areas that when the planets cross each other- their energy becomes intertwined or combined together.

Ex. The image below shows the A) crossing of Venus and Jupiter, B) crossing of Venus and Chiron, C) crossing of Mercury and Chiron, D) crossing of Mercury and Mars, E) crossing of Mercury and Jupiter, and F) crossing of Sun and Mars.

🥀 FREE INTERPRETATIONS

Astro.com's astroclick travel has free interpretations or general informations about what each line and zenith means. Just click on a specific line, crossing or zenith and a block of text will appear either beside the map or at the bottom.

The crossings of major lines also have free interpretations on astro.com, just click on them and the block of text will appear. Sometimes, you have to be really precise on clicking the point of crossings though so that the text will appear which is why I recommend zooming in and then click.

The additional lines have free interpretations too but most of the time they're shorter since their effects are mostly similar to the major ones, just lesser. The crossings of these extra lines don't have interpretations though but again, it's just similar to the interpretations given for the major line crossings, you can easily put two and two together.

Ex. I clicked on the venus/descendant line and this appeared:

Extra: You can click the "Show Details" option to show the other lines that are close to the point/area you clicked.

Thank you so much for reading 🌹.

© 2022 BERENICETHEIV. ALL RIGHTS RESERVED.

Are You Dissociating?

Dissociating is one of the most common responses to abuse and trauma. It involves feeling numb, detached or unreal and (while it happens to everyone once in a while) is experienced more frequently and severely in survivors. Dissociating people vary widely in symptoms and may experience any or all of the things from the following list.

You may be dissociating if you:

find yourself staring at one spot, not thinking anything

feel completely numb

feel like you’re not really in your body, like you’re watching yourself in a movie.

feel suddenly lightheaded or dizzy

lose the plot of the show or conversation you were focused on

feel as if you’re not quite real, like you’re in a dream

feel like you’re floating 

suddenly feel like you’re not a part of the world around you

feel detached and far away from other people, who may seem mechanical or unreal to you

are very startled when someone/something gets your attention

completely forget what you were thinking just a moment ago

suddenly cover your face or react as if you’re about to be hurt for no reason

can’t remember important information about yourself, like your age or where you live

find yourself rocking back and forth

become very focused on a small or trivial object or event

find that voices, sounds or writing seem far away and you sometimes have trouble understanding them.

feel as if you’ve just experienced a flashback (perhaps rapidly) but you can’t remember anything about it.

perceive your body as foreign or not belonging to you

(likes and reblogs always taken as support)

Self-Care On A Budget!

Hey, you! Are you struggling with disability, mental illness, or just need some self-care? Are you tired of seeing posts recommending expensive products or days at the spa that you can’t afford? Well strap on in pals, here are some ways to practice self-care that won’t hurt your wallet.

Go for a walk. 

Take a hot bath or shower. 

Explore in the nearest pretty area to you: a cool area of a city, a stream by your house, a forest nearby, anything you find interesting. Take photos of the things that catch your eye. 

Watch a movie or TV show you enjoy. 

Read a book: find a free version online or check one out from your local library.

Go to a nearby dog park and look at/pet cute dogs. 

Take a nap. 

Clean your room/house/apartment. 

Eat some candy. 

Lush on a budget! You can make your own bath bomb and face masks, or purchase face masks and scrubs for cheap at your local Grocery Outlet/Aldi’s/Walmart/Winco/other cheap/bulk grocery store. 

Hang out with friends.

Draw, sketch, or paint. 

Listen to music— maybe have your own dance party! 

Meditate. 

Cook a recipe! Some things you can make on the cheap: 

Step up your ramen! Add chopped veggies, meat, or whatever you have in your fridge in with your Top Ramen. Take some of the free hot sauce from a local taco chain and add it to your ramen for a spicy kick!

Rice and beans, rice and beans! You can’t go wrong with rice and beans. Experiment with seasonings to make it to your liking, or buy some cheap tortillas to make some burritos!

You can get Rice-A-Roni for less than a couple of bucks! Buy chicken in bulk and freeze part of it, then add chicken to the rice to make a filling meal!

Sandwiches! If you have bread, some kind of protein, some veggies, or anything edible you can put between two slices of bread, eat that! Slice your bread up fancily or toast it to add some flair.

Watch some youtube videos. 

Do yoga. 

Reorganize your living space.

A hare portrait I did not scan…as usual ;;

this is so important

Brenna Twohy

i wanna be ur baby :(

im literally so i just i literally i actually just okay so this is i mean alright so

Hypersexuality be like

*gets put in an extremely stressful situation*

*immediately has the urge to m//sturb/ate because my body recognizes destress with arousal and it makes me feel worse as a result*

If a hot bi girl wanted to fix me I would let her

Ah yes, the 5 love languages:

touch starved

my parents never told me they are proud of me

i love Stuff

im so fucken tired please god just let me rest for 5 minutes

hey pay attention to me

me: *tears up when there's the slightest indication you're even a little mad me*

also me: *gets turned on by the the thought of you violently fucking and hitting me*

me: [delusional] I will learn 4 languages simultaneously

the problem with musicians is how they're always touring their latest album instead of like their critically hated second album from 2009 which is the one i'm obsessed with

i love you mango i love you peaches i love you raspberries i love you strawberries i love you pineapple

you shouldnt have to pay for the dentist. the dentist should pay me for satsifying their weird fetish