So Let Me Get This Straight…

so let me get this straight…

allison hargreeves is almost murdered by her brother, and loses her ability to speak, also losing her connection to her powers. she is then ripped away from her child and sent back in time to the 1960’s, as a black woman, as the world is literally ending.

she then spends YEARS in a time where she experiences outright, violent racism at every turn. she experiences unimaginable trauma. she meets a man who is an activist and a dreamer, and she falls in love. she builds a life for herself in this time. she still doesn’t have her daughter, but she has something to hold onto.

and then, just as suddenly as before, she is ripped away from her husband and her life and thrown back into the future. but this time, she goes willingly, because Claire is in the future, and she loves her daughter too much to abandon her.

but… Claire isn’t there anymore. in fact, Claire never even existed at all. so now she has lost Claire and Raymond. she left her husband to be with a child that doesn’t even exist in this world. and so she spends all season being THE ONLY ONE of her siblings who actively tries to find a way back to their own timeline.

Diego gets a son, and basically ignores him for the first half of that story. Viktor gets Harlan back, his surrogate son. Luther finds new love with someone who is not allison, and essentially abandons the family for her at the start, and then actively chooses to go to Sloane over Allison when Allison was clearly in a time of need, even going so far as to throw Raymond and Claire in her face. Ben is different and a complete asshole. Klaus spends all season with their dad. and Five has just given up entirely. Allison lost everything, literally everything, and has to watch while her family moves on, doesn’t care, and finds new things to love while she just… floats. aimless. lost. utterly alone. all while she is still fighting breathlessly to get even one single piece of it all back. all while still dealing with the horrific trauma of what happened in the 60’s on top of it all. and then she finds out that Viktor found the cause of Claire’s lack of existence and hid it from her and to the whole family?!

so of course she snaps!! because no one, not one single person in her family, will help her. they’re all lying to her, too preoccupied with their own shit to pay attention to her desperate pleas. not one person actively seems to give a shit that she lost her child after leaving her husband behind solely to be with said child. so she makes a deal with the devil, because if no one else will help her, her desperation is too much to bear. her loss is unfathomable and there is a single solitary shred of hope that she may get something back.

she didn’t know he was gonna kill luther or klaus, she didn’t know his plan was going to end up killing all the siblings. all she knew was that not one of her siblings was going to help her, no matter how clear her desperation had become, no matter how obvious her mental breakdown was. but Reginald was going to help her, so she sided with the only option that gave her a fighting chance.

… but somehow she is now an irredeemable villain. got it.

allison hargreeves made mistakes. what she did to luther is absolutely inexcusable. she lashed out, she made a deal with the wrong man. but allison hargreeves was a devastated, desperate, broken woman who had nothing left of herself to give. so when everyone she loved in the world was either gone or turning their back on her, she did what she had to do to get her child back.