That’s A Razor Blade

I CANT HAVE A PARASITE BECAUSE I AM THE PARASITE YOU HAVE A PARASITE BECAUSE YOU HAVE MEE

real shit actually

I regret to inform you I’m #ftm trash.

tw: idk violence again???

genuinely I need to be hurt so I can learn a lesson again, it’s clear that’s the only way I learned, I mean I couldn’t sit for days my lower back stung, it was frightening and I deserved it, every single yell and every single tug on my arm to drag my unwilling body to the porch, I deserved it all and I still do

I want to be loved more than I want to be alive I want to be loved more than I want to be alive I want to be loved more than I want to be alive I want to be loved more than I want to be alive I want to be loved more than I want to be alive I want to be loved more than I want to be alive I want to be loved more than I want to be alive I want to be loved more than I want to be alive I want to be loved more than I want to be alive I want to be loved more than I want to be alive I want to be loved more than I want to be alive I want to be loved more than I want to be alive I want to be loved more than I want to be alive I want to be loved more than I want to be alive I want to be loved more than I want to be alive I want to be loved more than I want to be alive

Tw: sh

relapsed last night and WOWIE FEELS GREAT

haven’t had an outlet in a while

cut over some really bad scars and they BLEED

lord almighty-

SCALLS I WANNA HEAR YOU!!!!

I WANNA LISTEN AND I WANNA KNOW BECAUSE I DONT HAVE IT WORSE AND EVEN IF I DID YOURE STILL SUFFERING AND YOURE STILL MY SIBLING, I LOVE YOU AND I CARE ABOUT YOU SO PLEASE STOP APOLOGIZING FOR SIMPLY EXISTING BECAUSE YOUR EXISTENCE IS MORE THAN WANTED, WE NEED YOU <33

Okay maybe I will drop out of the arts programs if it pisses him off so much. He didn't have to come. I didn't want him to come. And now my mom's actually complaining about it too. What the fuck. I thought she was happy I was doing this shit. I love doing it but they seem to fucking hate it. They didn't have to give me money for food, they didn't have to stay for the concert, they could've told me I wasn't able to go because they didn't want to drive me. They could fucking ban me from theatre and shit. They're the ones who're allowing me to do these things why let me if it just makes you hate me???

I shouldn’t be it’s no big deal, he didn’t even do anything now I just can’t stop thinking about past stuff

I’m kinda upset at my dad

*starts breakdancing*

I CANT HAVE A PARASITE BECAUSE I AM THE PARASITE YOU HAVE A PARASITE BECAUSE YOU HAVE MEE

tw: physical violence ig??

I would really appreciate it if you’d tell me how bad I am and beat me the tell me how bad I am again so I could like, stop thinking I’m good ever again, back to when I was five and convinced I wa the worlds biggest problem

but I wanna help more

please

turning my life around for dad because I’m not gonna hurt him anymore if I can help it

I deleted @starry-lived (list all guys I talked to on there)

I blocked any guys on my main DMs

drinking water

eating full meals

not planning on relapsing and burying my blades