Day Twenty Three/ Ray X Mc

Day 5 :-)

AHSHAHAHAHSUAUUSS UWU this may or may have not been my fav cg for a whole year ^^

FEEL THE PAIN MY FELLOW VIC STANS

I changed a bit from the original cg since there were some description that weren't drawn (like the blood and vic's hair that got longer and him getting thinner...)

Day five/ Jumin's birthday

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUJU 🥳💜

I love so much qwq

Have these cute babies I adopted

They having fun 🥺💞

Also idk I was so bored so I made this sksksksks I wanna draw a lot of things about their childhood

PLZ GIVE ME IDEAS

Day 13 :P

For some reason I had the urge to draw gav even though he isn't one of my faves

Matching outfits again

Welp they look cute :>

Thank you eggu 🥺💕

@anon-drabble @call-me-dummy @mrs-han @truth-be-told-im-lying @shuvijum @shittylongcatposts @galaxystarrr @ziz-rida @cheri-translates @queens-awakening @ikenbar

You guys are pretty much the reason I have tumblr 👁👄👁

Let's spread some love: tag your favorite people/bloggers and let them know how appreciated they are 💗

oh i hate these because i’m always afraid i’ll forget someone (but the sentiment is nice!)

@waywardbaby @supernatural-jackles @deanwanddamons @negans-lucille-tblr @lovealways-j @evanbukley @evansrogerskitten @nihilism-sophia @samdeanbitchjerk @kittenofdoomage @luci-in-trenchcoats @im-lovestruck

i feel like i’m forgetting people and i’m sorry if i actually did! love y’all ♥️

Happy birthday to the dorkiest dork I love so freaking much, he my first love and will always be my husband <3

I couldn't finish the whole thing today so imma post the sketch for today since it seems I won't be able to colour it for the next few days ehe

YESS ANGST 😩👌🏻. Reading this in the morning made my day better AAHHSHAAHA >:D

I'm obsessed with juju angst and you did it so well dbdjdjeldvcx

@saeyoungs606 sent a request: "requesting really bad argument hcs for the rfa (aka chaos and pain) ✌"

author's response: oops, accidentally made this between jumin and zen. But I'll probably still make the headcanons just because, feeling quite angsty lately

FANDOM: Mystic Messenger

CHARACTERS: Jumin Han, Zen (Hyun Ryu)

MENTIONS OF: fighting, missing person, built in anger

ADDITIONAL CHARACTERS: Jaehee Kang, V (Jihyun Kim)

PROOFREAD: negative

WORD COUNT: 1,584

..

"are you being serious right now?!" 

disbelief, that was the only thing that geared his thoughts into oblivion. "Is some ANIMAL really worth more than looking for a MISSING PERSON?!" blood boiling more and more under his skin, he hadn't been more irritated in his actions than today, especially when he could be so careless in a situation like this. Did he really even care for the safety of the ones he's grown up to, the ones he's close with?! Because HELL he chose a damn cat over him

"I have to make sure Elizabeth doesn't run away again. A problem will break loose if I leave that untreated" he sounded stern, he didn't look like he was gonna change his decision either. He sounded like he never cared for him.

"WHO CARES?" The words fell out of zen's mouth without any further thought. He felt malice-- hatred towards him, his anger felt like boiling hot lava melting through his sense of thought, removing any possible thought of staying sane. How could he when the presence of the man he least expected to see first was standing right before him? Eyes glued onto him with no sign or form of emotion? How could his blood not boil when the one he somehow 'cared' for the most out of the entire group was suddenly reported missing? How could he when he CHOSE HIS DAMN CAT OVER A LIVING HUMAN? What was so important about her that made him choose her over him?!

Jaehee's pleads came through one ear and out the other, he didn't give a fuck if he got hundreds of complaints, he didn't care if jumin hated him for the rest of his life, he dealt with the situation with no care whatsoever. A selfish bitch. hell, jumin didn't even answer him, he just stared at him in pure silence. That was enough to give him the answer he seeked for, the answer he wasn't surprised himself.

"you just never cared, did you?"

"excuse m-" 

"YOU NEVER CARED ABOUT JIHYUN, YOU NEVER CARED FOR ANYONE!"

"you're spitting nonsense, you don't even know me" he chuckled at that, why would he even ought to get to know him? Is there even anything to know about him? "You've shown ZERO sympathy over anyone, over rika, over jaehee, over everyone in the RFA, over JIHYUN" jaehee took a step back to this, her front turning around to stare at the modern door in front of her, she didn't protest, she didn't disagree. "ALL YOU CARE ABOUT IS THAT DAMN CAT, THE CAT THAT'LL ONLY DISAPPEAR" Jumin wanted to step in, he wanted it to stop, he wanted him to shut up--

"DID V REALLY MEAN EVERYTHING TO YOU?"

…

"DID YOUR YEARS OF FRIENDSHIP MEAN NOTHING TO YOU?"

……...

"THE YEARS YOU HAD WITH THE ORGANIZATION! THE YEARS YOU'VE WORKED ALONGSIDE JAEHEE. THE YEARS YOU ARGUED WITH ME"

Secretary Kang..

both of them

..crying

".h..how much of a BITCH ARE YOU GONNA BE TOWARDS EVERYONE?!" the pained laugh he let out after felt like a deep stab onto an open wound, the tension of the room was indescribable, unbearable.

"YOU NEVER SHOWED ANY DECENCY, ANY SYMPATHY! EVERYONE HAS BEEN PUTTING UP WITH YOUR SHIT AND YOU DON'T GET ANY COMPLAINTS AFTERWARDS"

…………..

really?...

"you get away with anything SIMPLY BECAUSE YOU'RE RICH. SIMPLY BECAUSE YOU HAVE A HIGHER RANK TOWARDS EVERYONE!"

…………………..

"YOU...Y-YOU THINK YOU CAN ABUSE YOUR POWER BECAUSE YOU THINK EVERYTHING CAN BE SOLVED WITH MONEY! YOU THINK EVERYONE LOVES YOU ONLY FOR YOUR MONEY!"

shut up..

"JIHYUN SPENT HIS TIME WITH YOU!! A-AND AND ACTUALLY MADE AN EFFORT FOR YOU! H-..HOW DO YOU THINK HE'D FEEL?!"

shut up..

"HOW DO YOU THINK RIKA WOULD FEEL?!"

....please..

"you think everything's about BUSINESS. you think everything's about you you YOU because you're the famous JUMIN HAN, SON OF ONE OF THE MOST SUCCESSFUL BUSINESSMAN IN KOREA. YOU THINK EVERYONE HAS TO BRING EVERYTHING TO YOU ON A SILVER PLATTER!"

"stop"

….

"now you're telling me to stop? Hah... Did you even understand anything I said?!" Zen's voice was hoarse, out of breath. Every word that came out of his mouth were filled with disbelief, the anger he lashed out felt.. relieving. He finally felt the burning flame get smaller, at least for now he can keep himself stable

Jumin..he was stiff, like a tree with no leaves. He stood there like a royal guard in a king's palace, expression unreadable

A part of himself told him to lash out at businessman all over again, not give a fuck if his throat would hurt. But a part of him refuses to believe that his only words for him would be to 'stop'. He wanted to break through the tears that kept pouring from his stinging glare onto the marble flooring they stood upon. He suddenly felt the lump on his throat that had formed during his sudden outburst, the choking feeling left unseen as he tried to balance his vision through the glowing light that made him lightheaded. He wanted his answer, and he wanted him to say it to his face.

"I tried"

..what?

"..I've been trying for months, zen. Months. Months that even LUCIEL is close to giving up on him"

months…

"everywhere. I travelled, hired employees around the world just to find him"

"and till this day I still can't find him"

he didn't know what to say, the next words that he had built up on went crumbling down, stuck in the back of his throat. He wanted to feel sympathy, but his pride was far too much for him to break, he wanted reasons. Reasons for all his careless acts and--

Jumin grabbed onto either side of his shoulders, holding him onto a tight grip that's enough to keep him still "why do you think I barely go active on the messenger? Why do you think secretary kang gets more hours of rest?" his stern voice held a bit of annoyance and frustration onto it, the grip on his shoulders tightening. It felt unbearably painful. He wanted it to stop, he wanted to lash out how he's invading his personal space, how he's hurt enough, how-- "I never indulged myself to express myself freely. That's how I am raised" Zen felt the grip on his shoulders start to shake, get tighter, it hurts--

"In comparison to how he lived his life, no one raised me to be the person you desire. I'm raised through the satisfaction under my father's will to continue the family's business"

his grip got weaker, more bearable. His shock got him frozen to his feet, he didn't know he was breaking a part of him inside. The shell that he had worked so hard in managing. "Jihyun made stupid decisions, his antics led him to where he's at now. Missing.."

"I care for him, I care about the RFA. I care about you"

"I just never knew how to show it"

tears. His glossy eyes giving out and finally letting the faucet loose, only using his grasp on the other's shoulders for leverage. Zen watched the stone cold businessman in front of him completely crumble in silence, the shock and sudden guilt built up inside him as seconds turned into minutes of watching the older finally break his shell

he felt the sudden urge to comfort him. His hand mindlessly travelling to his back, rubbing repetitive circles on his back for comfort, He made no choice in stopping himself, trying to form words on how to lighten the burning atmosphere he caused and escalated

"you know, it's gonna progressively get worse if you continue to bottle it up" he spoke in a more gentle but stern tone, no bark and neither no bite. "replacing all of those with a businessman persona is only gonna make things more toxic, especially to the ones you are closer to"

"I.." Jumin paused before letting out a small sob, zen almost didn't hear it. "I-I've tried.." he paused again. Though zen understood what he was really going through, his impatience was slowly building up. "You don't know how" he continued on for him, ushering the older man onto the modern white sofa that was neatly placed in the center, following a glass coffee table in front of it. Zen contemplated if the decision he was gonna make was a good idea before thinking 'fuck it, he needs it'. "opening up to someone..is…"

He was trying to form words to continue his sentence, noticing Jumin was already recovering from his silent breakdown. "it's letting your mind ramble onto what you're currently thinking of. The things that bothered or hurts you the most"

"it feels like sudden heaviness making you feel like there's extra gravity.. or...something" Jumin hums, indicating that he's listening "and usually just talking it out to someone feels way greater than having to cope with it yourself. Though it does take a lot of trust to open up to someone" Zen let his inner pride crumble, he doubted far too much on jumin, let his anger get the best of him. He was about to apologize when--

"I'm sorry. For acting careless" Jumin apologized.

"I'm sorry for lashing out on you.." Zen apologized, guilt finally seeping through him in a millisecond. He'll learn to never get his doubts get the best of him

as long as jumin learns not to go through things alone

When the death toll for Gaza goes up from disease, Israel will claim deniability, that those deaths were not deliberate and calculated. You see it with how settlers will talk about the genocide of Natives, that most of us "just died from disease then colonizers 'accidentally spread'". It is NEVER an accident. Famines and Diseases and always used as tool for genocide by colonizers

Here, have a bunch of crappy MLQC memes cause I a clown 🤡

Lucien at some point in HS :)

I'm sorry Lucien I did you so dirty QwQ

AHAHAHAHAHA I'm sorry I was high.

Sleepysheep is my username on instagram and amino and literally anywhere lmao.