They Want Each Other So Bad

Thinking about how Charlie had thought of Mac as his best friend ever since Dennis banged the Waitress in season one, if not his entire life, only for Mac to say it's bullshit. The entire time Charlie had thought of Mac as his best friend, Mac has thought of Dennis as his. Surely, this wasn't always the case. Mac had been friends with Charlie far longer than he has been friends with Dennis. For most of their lives, Mac must have thought of Charlie as his best friend. When was it along the way that Mac's idea of who his best friend was shifted? When did he decide Charlie no longer fit the bill? What if I started throwing up and screaming and punching the floor?

he's dreaming about birds with teeth

Being closeted for 40 years is heartbreaking, but I feel especially bad for high school Mac.

The flush on his face when he caught glimpses of the other boys in the locker rooms and how hard he had to train himself to look away.

The first time he tried out for the wrestling team and the thrill he felt when the other guy pinned him down, and the fear that rushed through him afterwards, because now it wasn't just Charlie or Dennis who made him feel like this, it was every boy who touched him.

Him hearing all the guys around him talking about girls, and how hot their bodies are, and how great it is to sleep with them, and him having nothing to contribute.

Mac being able to keep quiet during the conversation because he had plausible deniability by being a virgin until he finds himself in a situation in which the straight man decision is to go for it, and the entire time he's thinking that he doesn't understand why people make such a big deal about sex and how quickly he resigned himself to a life without passion.

He must have been so scared and confused, wondering if being attracted to guys was a normal phase all guys go through and hopefully grow out of, but knowing he couldn't talk to anyone about it out of fear of someone telling him it's not normal

But it's not normal, and it's gay, and he's gay and he's only 14 but he knows exactly how the world feels about people like him, how his father feels about people like him.

And so at 14 years old, Mac begins to pray. and he prays for forgiveness for his urges, and he prays for strength against temptation, and he hopes with enough prayer, he will be able to chalk up his feelings to youthful indiscretion.

Macdennis - You take my breath away

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dennis desperately needing a mental health day :/

Dennis Girls, my friend said his nipples were unnaturally, distractingly pink in this scene. They even said it looks like he dusts them with rouge.

So ladies...

Tell me....

it's always sunny in philadelphia is no way an underground indie show but feels like it. feels too niche to be mainstream. too unpacked. so many little moments that worth a life in the eyes of a couple of dozens of queer people. love and hate's flirty blur, the narrative of not suffering alone but with the only family that accepts you, understanding that it is a curse to be this codependent but knowing it's the only thing worth seizing, homoeroticism lurking behind every single character's relationship with each other. how did this show survive till now. a beautiful cockroach smoking a cigarette in her ruin balcony watching the flames grow bigger

dennis reynolds dying in a glue trap

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