💎✨️Gem Introductions From 2-11✨️💎

Leone Abbacchio

JoJo's Bizarre Adventure

in pain and I’m not being brave about it I’m actually being very whiny and dramatic

Having your main anxiety response be Avoidance is crazy cause you'll think you're chillin and then one day you're like waitttt I've been paralyzed with fear this whole time. Damn

Watching Werepapas has made me realize how little control Adrien thinks he has over his life. His grandparents are literally fighting over their guardian rights over him, and he is under the table, concerned about Plagg, and not paying attention in the slightest. Marinette, Nathalie, and The Gorilla were all more upset and worried than he was. Or at least, they showed more emotion.

And honestly, that's so concerning. How little control and choice must someone have over their life to react this way? In the end, when they finally ask him what he wants... he says he doesn't know himself. He's happy to let Marinette make the decision for him, and it's obvious that he wants Marinette wants for him, it's obvious to everyone except him.

He never voices out loud what he wants, such as how obviously he wants Nathalie to hug him back and show him affection at the beginning of his episode. And his shirt was so wrinkled! I think he's struggling more than ever, but he's so good at acting that he's fine– he's so well put together. I fear he doesn't even know how much he's struggling himself. He constantly says he doesn't know how he's feeling himself, which means he is very disconnected with his emotions. People who are very repressed say such things, people who never had chances to explore their feelings themselves, never got the freedom or choice to express themselves. Adrien doesn’t voice his wants, not because they don’t exist, but because he’s never been given the space to acknowledge them. The moment he does, he risks confronting just how deeply he craves something he believes he can’t have. So, he keeps moving, keeps smiling, keeps convincing everyone— himself included, that he’s fine.

It's a learned habit, a defense mechanism. People who have always been told what to feel, or who have been given no room to feel at all, probably end up like this– adrift and unsure of where their own emotions begin or end. It’s repression at its most insidious.

Flowers of camellia on the (previously Lapis's) head - symbol of estrangement and cold mind. They "melt" because of the changing of Phos

Delphinium - Original Phos's silly immature behaviour

Dragonfly wings - the swiftness of agate legs

Was this necessary? No. Am I going nuts waiting for my male Vash wig to arrive so I did this to scratch the itch? Yes. I don’t even know if I can pull a male Vash off, but I wanted to try this doing more of my femme Vash in the meantime.

Beautiful Vash art by @hollycircling!

Happy Halloween from Fading Club!

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