So.... Reality Isn't Real

Pluto/Chiron in 3rd, Scorpio ruling 3rd House, Ruler of 3rd House Aspect Pluto/Chiron: High School That Feels Like Hell?

TW: Trauma, abuse

The whole education for me is just never a place for study. It's never as simple as that. I'm very sure too that at least people around me also think the same. Education is almost everything since we spent almosg 3/4 of our lives in there starting from elementary to uni. In high school especially when we spent around 5 or 6 days at school with around 9 hours for each day, pretty sure that high school become big part of our life. That includes our social circle

I have noticed that people who have Pluto/Chiron in 3rd house, Scorpio ruling 3rd house, or the ruler of 3rd house aspecting Pluto/Chiron tend to have a really rough high school time. What happened in high school was so traumatizing as all the dramas and pain in almost all areas surfaced that it change the native's life

My friend's younger sibling, let's call her as Luna, has Pluto in her 3rd house. Her high school life was so dramatic. The frustation has already started even before the school begun. Her score was quite little so she got to high school which weren't that good and far away from house. The start of that was already disappointing. But what happened after that was really crazy. In that high school, she faced every haters like almost all people hate and gossip about her, the guy that she liked date other girl while also leading her on by always calling her, her almost being dethroned from her position in organization, and many else. Those frustations and heartbreak lead her to finally learn about Tarot so now she can read Tarot really well

What's really crazy is that her experiences are oddly similar to mine. I have ruler of 3rd house (Sun) conjunct Pluto in exact and also conjunct Chiron. The start of my high school too was so similar as her. My score wasn't enough to get to the school that I wanted so I chose the school that was lower than that and also far away from my house. Crazy right? The dramas too started from that. I took wrong major, couldn't catch up with the studies, friendship and relationship dramas, being "dethroned" in terms of me not being able to apply to uni that I wanted even if I already met the requirements and just need to write motivation letter, and many else. In high school too that was the first time of me learning about astrology

Now I think the theme of early disappoinment that forecast the more destructive and dramatic future, the pain, friendship and relationship bickering and abuse, public hate, dethroning, and long term traumas are very much Pluto or Chiron themes. What's very interesting is that all of those pain lead the natives to be able to tap into divination tools such as tarot and astrology. Pluto and Chiron both rule divination and occult matters

For this case, what I can say is astrology is really astrologying

little thoughts about capricorn placements

Capricorn Sun

― a desire to be recognised for their efforts to build structures in society which stand the test of time. the ego is connected to work and the results that come from it. mastery, over themselves/and or others. feels like they have the right to take over when the ship is sinking. levels of vitality are connected to their judgement of their current position in life. material success is desired, but it won’t satisfy them wholly. incredibly resilient; they’ve often had to be solution-focused for themselves and others. can hold themselves back by focusing on things of a base nature, as opposed to integrating the spiritual side of life, too. can provide encouragement to others on perseverance and moulding the future to how you would like to see it. 

Capricorn Moon

― structure is given to the changeable nature of the moon. the heat of the moment extended. too much self-imposed restraint could hinder them when it comes to relating to others. could worry about appropriate ways to display emotions. there can be a strong emotional need to be respected by their peers, family, and society. often goes through tough times with just themselves to comfort them. hates feeling like a burden to people. may prefer to socialise at work events where structures are in place. not ones to ask for advice, unless they really want to hear what you have to say. prefers brutal honesty from people, because they know they can take it. needs to be careful that they don’t use their suffering in life/what they’ve been through to demand respect from others. sensitive to disappointment and favours, with strings attached. 

Capricorn Mercury

― a mind tinged with seriousness as they tend to think in terms of longevity. a cynical outlook on life can alienate those around them. great at schmoozing with those they respect. great at giving age-old advice to those they care about. in conversation, they are ones to hold back so they can gauge the other person’s character. they are motivated to learn by persistence, ambition and steady progress in life. methodical and thorough in whatever they do. needs to be able to apply what they learn to the real world. the mind can be too preoccupied with the next step to appreciate the present moment. the straight and narrow may offer them a sense of comfort. can be great at brainstorming ways to revamp something that will hold up in the long run. 

Capricorn Venus

― relationships either have potential, or they don’t. appreciates a partner that wants to make something of themselves. independent lovers from the outside looking in, but they can be real dorks with their partners. may struggle putting themselves out there due to low self-esteem. may cringe at compliments about their beauty but do better with hearing how powerful, independent, strong, focused they are for example. an aloof, impersonal approach can have them feeling protected but ward off potential suitors. the type of people to dress humbly but the labels tell a different story. doesn’t need a huge friendship group, just solid people. attracted to people that step up to the plate with them, not add more weight for them to carry in a partnership. 

Capricorn Mars

― a savvy nature that encourages making decisions to set themselves up for success in the future. acknowledges goals take time and effort. may feel that once they tell people about their ambitions, they may face criticism or rejection. positions of importance may be easy for them to obtain, but they need to be careful that they wield this power wisely. the comeback kid. anger can appear restrained, but it’s more so that they will not waste their breath on something they consider below their standards. discipline is highlighted with this placement, the lack of or the abundance of; usually there isn’t a middle ground here. motivated by material security.  when it comes to sex, they like to call the shots, and then sometimes move the pieces on the board.

Capricorn Jupiter

― seeks to grow and improve themselves by doing right in society and/or their personal ambitions. opportunities for expansion can manifest when they surround themselves with the people they aspire to be like, implement the habits of the movers and shakers in society and share what they’ve learnt in life. the risk-taking ability can be stifled by wanting to know the outcome. needs to recognise intuitive hits and act on them. should follow their dreams, not what they think a dream is. their outlook on life may be something passed down in their family. they can teach others about the significance of determination, character and grit. great at building people up. 

Capricorn Saturn

 ― can feel blocked in their ability to make something of themselves in the material world, feeling resentment when they see their peers being rewarded in terms of wealth or positions for example. giving up before they start is something they need to watch out for. but usually, success does come but later. tradition often plays a major role in the life with some feeling it is something they have to live up to or sometimes defend themselves against. skilled at navigating the social ladder and attracting respect from those higher up than them who could open doors for them. often take on more they need to carry and experience burnout. needs to take a break sometimes, and not berate themselves for it. 

more on capricorn 

The Omnipotent Light Method

Hi everyone, as some of you know I’ve been playing around with combining the teachings of Neville, Alan Watts and Joe Dispenza, so I rediscovered a “new method” inspired by them, the I am state and the energy centers perceived in our body in order to get into the knowing, wish fulfilled and feelings of bliss faster in a simple way to concentrate your intentions!

I am calling this the Omnipotent Light method because it comes from a combination of being in God state per say, along with the visualization of a light field. This tends to work pretty fast for me!

Get into a focused inner state. By this I don’t necessarily mean to lay down. You can be walking, at your class, at a coffee shop, whatever. All it takes is focusing in your inner I am, you don’t literally need to be in the void like when you affirm for it before sleep paralysis. You can just close your eyes and visualize yourself being in a dark void. Hell, you can even do it with your eyes open as long as you’re a good visualizer. Try to focus also on your heart or pineal gland centers.

As you are in this dark place, or in a visualization end scene, I want you to imagine a powerful and well intentioned bright light that will do the job for you, even though you are also that light and everything that exists. That light will “possess” or surround the object, individual or situation you want to inject the desired intention in.

I’ll give a few examples:

I am manifesting white teeth, or super long hair. I will visualize a scene of myself looking in the mirror as my teeth or my hair light up as a body of white light (that’s always the color I chose for mine but you can pick whatever color you resonate with most) and as that light is there I assume and feel the fulfillment of my hair having grown a lot to my desired result, or that the light also makes my teeth ridiculously and instantly white.

Another way of doing this can be just imagine yourself in the void, but your body is a translucent outline, everything else in you basically being transparent. Then you have your energy centers with that powerful bright light and charged with an “elevated emotion” as Dispenza tends to call it, but for the sake of this being a Law of Assumption blog, just assume the centers to be in balance, coherence, basically working well and being strong. Basically you see your outlines and you are transparent but you see the centers. After lighting them all up, feel the space around you as in, an extended energy field of yourself that can be as wide as you want (wider meaning the energy in your body is stronger, aka you are doing well spiritually and in health) and that equally has that light in the same color, but a bit more translucent than the focused centers. After that you can focus on for example, as before your teeth, your hair, your skin. Another thing I did with this “almost void” place was focusing the white light on my face and intend clear skin. Next day, everything is pretty much gone.

You can also do this for specific people. You can imagine them in that dark place or in an end scene, or just focus on them in general. Then make their body glow with the light and set your intention, in which the light is transforming them permanently. Can be that they are the desired version of them that you want, that they love you even more than you love them, that they make a decision that you want… etc. Any intention should work. I use white light because it makes me feel like it acts with speed, efficiency and safely for everyone involved.

3. Open your eyes or comeback to the 3D and know it is done! But you can do it as often as you like, and it should produce the feeling of relief as many other methods.

Have fun :D Hope it works for others as well as it does for me!

I have officially mastered the void

So this morning (afternoon actually) i decided to tap into the void so I did the 61 points yoga nidra meditation with a subliminal. I didn’t really need the subliminal I was just using it cause my headphones are somewhat noise cancelling and my family was awake so I didn’t want to get distracted. But the meditation was really relaxing. At first I had some trouble staying focused but then I reminded myself why I was doing this and what I was doing it for. So it kept me motivated. After that i affirmed a little bit then I counted down from 100 and then I affirmed some more then I got bored of affirming so i started visualizing and then I got bored of that so I just decided to focus on the darkness behind my eyelids.

I never really took that advice from people when they said it helped cause I didn’t believe them but it actually worked. Out of everything else I did that was the one thing that sent me straight to the void. I think for the most part it was just letting go of that desperate feeling i always have when I try to enter. I always feel like I’m forcing myself to do it so I just let go and kind of forgot about what I was doing while still keeping that intention.

I was getting pretty anxious tho because of the time so I just got out but i did it again and it sent me straight to the void again. So now I know the secret to getting into the void is to just let go of that desperation and to stop forcing yourself, just let it happen. If you feel you’ve affirmed enough stop affirming, if you feel you’ve focused on your breathing enough, go back to your automatic breathing pattern STOP FORCING YOURSELF IT WILL GET YOU NOWHERE!!

and I know a lot of people stress about not being aware in the void and not affirming for your desires but stressing over that is exactly what’s going to make you forget tbh. When you let go of that desperation you let go of those other doubts too, those things that were stopping you from getting there in the first place. I feel like removing yourself from those thoughts is really effective in getting you what you want.

I will say it might help to have a list of things you want either written down or set in your mind because it will be a lot easier to remember what you’re going to affirm. When you’re in the void or even before you tap in completely you’re supposed to be super relaxed so it might be a little difficult to bring up those thoughts but because of how different the void is from the 3D it’s kind of hard to forget. Especially if you’ve been trying for a long time.

The void isn’t really something you question, you know for sure you’re in cause you can’t hear feel see taste or smell anything so it’s pretty identifiable. And because you’ve reminded yourself over and over that that’s what the void feels like, once you feel it you’re going to be like OHHH ok now i know to affirm for my desires. You’ve been training your brain to associate the void with your desires so of course once you recognize that you’re in you’re going to remember to affirm for your desires.

Also I don’t really like using the term void personally, but it’s what I learned it as. I feel like calling it the void just makes it sound so otherworldly and extraterrestrial and scary tbh. I think that’s what was holding me back as well, fear. I know that Neville Goddard refers to it as the I AM state which is a perfect name for it because it really is a state of just BEING like you’re not worried about anything else other than yourself and that’s the beauty of it. I would go on more cause there’s so much I can say but overall i hope you just let you go of that desperation so that you can finally push through and get everything you’ve been wanting because you deserve it.

Nobody is your friend

Life as Jyeshta native

I've always struggled with maintaining friendships. I always considered myself to be a really good friend; putting in a ton of energy into my friends' birthdays, checking up on them regularly and always being there for them but I don't believe I've ever recieved the same energy back. Oftentimes, my so-called "friends" wouldn't even wish my happy birthday, get me anything, or plan anything for my birthday. They would rarely bother to check on me, even during COVID. I've had "friends" constantly put me down by ridiculing my physical appearance or intelligence. I've had friends purposefully leave me out of plans because I was no longer fun to be around after my grandmother passed away.

I've had "friends" that I cut off, turn around, and harrass and bully after the fact. I've had friends tell me I was 'trauma dumping' onto them whenever I decided to be vulnerable despite being there for them whenever they needed anyone to talk to, even being told I am not a "good enough support system" despite ALWAYS being there. I've generally had friends demand things of me that they were never willing to reciprocate. As a consequence, I've become quite jaded to the idea of befriending people. I realise that I don't hold friends to a degree that others do because I've seen all the worst sides of how friendship can turn out. I have a solid 5 friendships, and even then, I know they're not as great as the friendships I've witnessed in my life.

Whenever I pursue a relationship with someone, they often end up acting in ways that make me pull back, like deciding they suddenly hate me, talking behind my back, being unnecessarily hypercritical of me, telling people the things I've said to them in confidence, making fun of me behind my back, the list goes on.

On the other side of things, I've noticed an obsessiveness towards me (which I partly contributed to having a Mrigashira moon) relating to this incessant need I've realised that some people have to almost "breaking me down" or "taking me off my high horse" (even when having low confidence), especially if I've "bruised" their ego in a way. I remember two months after I stopped talking to this guy (he would constantly try to prove his intellectual superiority over me), he and his friends posted a video in which he tried to make it seem like he was never interested in me, inspite of the fact that I only started really noticing him because my friends would point out how he and his friends (sometimes in his absence) would always used to stare at me, and try to get close to me.

Thankfully, I've study people enough to recognise that the things people have criticised me about are usually the things they themselves are insecure about in themselves, so I don't take it too personally, but it does get draining.

Another thing I've noticed about the "obsessiveness" is people copying me, like A LOT (watching Claire Nakti's video of Jyeshta confirmed this to me). After adopting my entire personality, dress sense, music taste, and mannerism, these individuals would end up discarding me. It's like they would steal my very essence. That's how I felt after my last friendship that felt like this. At the end of friendship, I was a shell of myself.

Romantic relationships haven't been able to fill the void either, as I feel like the men who are evidently attracted to me always feel a need to humble me or sexualising me but not being serious about being in longterm relationships with me (definitely blame my Lilith and Pluto aspecting almost all my personal planets), and so I remain quite lonely in the world. I also have Jyeshta in the 10th house (the house public image and perception) and Lilith in the 11th house closely conjunct my venus, which opposes a Punarvasu North Node so to say relationships are difficult would be an understatement.

- This is just another unfiltered rant. I feel like one of these days, I should post something more positive but this year has been nothing but disappointment, and I always keep it real

HIIII PINK!!! When I heard you were leaving I was so sad I even started crying and started to doubt myself on entering the void. I was like “how tf am I going to get into the void without pink???” I started procrastinating reading some of your post basically stalking ur page staying up til 4 in the morning (I was desperate 😭). I realized that I already read all of ur post, nd I just was surprised on how much time I wasted trying to get into the void. And I always dreamt abt putting a success story in your inbox. I already had all the knowledge i needed so what’s the point of more? I deleted tumblr and thought of anything that could help me get in the void. I did SATS while listening to my subliminal playlist, i daydreamed abt the void and my desires for fun, i affirmed for my void concept randomly throughout the day, feeling of the wish fulfilled, listened to delta waves when I was abt to sleep, and I meditated once a day for 10 mins. Meditation was optional but whateva 🤷‍♀️. I ONLY DID THAT FOR THREE FREAKING DAYS. And Im still mad at myself for wasting time procrastinating for 9 months. I was going to take a nap and I was in a drowsy state, so might as well affirm for the void right? I started saying affs like “I’m in the void”, etc etc. Once I started affirming, everything was just calm Yk? My body wanted to move but it was like it couldn’t cause the state I was in was calm asf. So I closed my eyes and just repeated the affs in my head over and over and over until I got this feeling like as if my body was floating, then I payed attention to it for a split second then ignored It after. I kept on affirming then I felt like I was being pulled then let go and it was as if I was falling. Everything got darker and quieter. So then I got scared and jumped because that scared me soo bad (I’m a easy person to scare 😔). After that, I felt like I was actually a master at the void, I took a nap again and I had the same feeling but when I felt like I fell I kept my calm. Then I couldn’t hear my fan which was louddd, I opened my eyes to total darkness, I was scared for two seconds and realized I was in the void!! Ngl I had a whole list set up with my desires and I was ready to affirm and goooo!!! But I realized how calm the void is and stayed there for what felt like 5 minutes. I did affirm I had all my desires and that I was able to wake up in the void under 5 seconds. When I woke up from the void it was 9 pm and I took a nap at 2!!! I woke up with all of my desires nd shi. (I would explain in more detail in how I got in and stuff like that but I was in a rush and didn’t want to make this too long 😀)

BUT THANK YOU SMM PINK, IM GOING TO MISS U SM. YOU HAVE BEEN A REALLY BIG HELP WITH MY VOID JOURNEY, I TRULY APPRECIATE EVERYTHING U HAVE DONE FOR THIS COMMUNITY, MAKE SURE TO ENJOY UR SELF 💗💗💖💖💖💗💕

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Hi love!!! Omgosh I'm so proud of you! This is so cute and you deserve this so much and I'm genuinely happy for you. 💗

Behave as if you were fully convinced you are not the body and the confidence will come.

Either you are body conscious and a slave of circumstances, or you are the universal consciousness itself — and in full control of every event.

Freedom from self-identification with a set of memories and habits, the state of wonder at the infinite reaches and riches of being, its inexhaustible creativity and total transcendence, the absolute fearlessness born from the realization of the illusoriness and transiency of every mode of consciousness — flow from a deep and inexhaustible source. To know the source as source and appearance as appearance, and oneself as the source only is self-realization.

The acceptance of the unreal as real is your obstacle; only by seeing the false as false and abandoning it will reality be brought into being.

All you need is to understand that you are the source of reality, that you give reality instead of getting it, that you need no support and no confirmation. Things are as they are, because you accept them as they are. Stop accepting them and they will dissolve.

You have never been, nor shall ever be a person. Refuse to consider yourself as one.

Fearlessness comes by itself, when you see that there is nothing to be afraid of. Reality is you alone. You gave it (the person/the world) reality through either your attention or identification.

Start scorching thoughts of limitation by ignoring them. An unrecognized visitor will soon leave. Your past self is nothing more than a thought.

Ask yourself: Who was born first, you or the world? As long as you give first place to the world, you are bound by it. Once you realize, beyond all trace of doubt that the world is in you and not you in the world, you are out of it.

Question the limits, go beyond, set yourself tasks apparently impossible — this is the way.

Hey angels! I’m still on break but I wanted to show you guys how powerful the law is, and how it’s in effect with everything even when we don’t notice!

Here’s everything I’ve manifested in this year alone !

🌸70,000$ in school scholarships. My tuition does not even cost that much so most of it will be coming back to my credit card shortly

🌸an older sister. I’m the oldest child in my household, and as any older sibling knows it’s so hard. You have to lead, yet have no one to look up to for advice yourself. Anyways my dad got in touch with his old wife, and my mom who was once reluctant to let my half siblings in my life, now encouraged it! My older half sister is literally just like me. We now FaceTime, she defends me when I’m scared, she buys me stuff all the time because she has hella money, and I go to her apartment for sleep overs. I am very lucky and happy to finally have the older sister I’ve always wanted.

🌸an old friendship! I remember in 2020 I was friends with this girl and we were both super depressed, had similar circumstances, and were into manifesting+astrology. I’m sure she’s one my twin flame, and the friendship ended over the dumbest thing ever. Anyways for a year I used dumb methods like the 333 method, sp methods to get her to text me, stuff like that. I ended up giving up but earlier this year I was thinking about her, yanno just wondering where she is. She sent me a heart felt apology the next day. I manifested her without even trying!

🌸All As in school without trying.

🌸losing weight the more I eat. Y’all I’m 5’5 and 112 pounds, yet I eat like an Olympic gold medalists. I don’t even eat healthy and knowing myself.. well that’s something that’s not going to change lol. Anytime I would eat a lot, I would just say the more I eat, the more I lose and the healthier I am…and I never gained a single pound. Only lost! Don’t worry I’m still healthy and my doctors say I’m in a healthy range still, so as long as that continues healthily I’m fine.

🌸my family winning the lottery through the void state. I won’t say specific numbers but it’s in the 7 figure range, and was my first void success! I’m going to keep manifesting and exploring the void to have more stuff in the future!

🌸(dumb) but clearing my name in the unique situation. i remember just affirming the truth always comes out and she got exposed a few hours later. aside from the hate from her anons, I left the situation unscathed for the most part 😮‍💨

🌸not having seasonal depression this year. I did not manifest my depression or anxiety away for personal reasons, before anyone starts! But due to the combination of manifesting and just having a better overall life, it honestly did not affect me much this year.

🌸getting results from subliminals without even listening to them. I left my subliminal era a couple of years ago, and I don’t really use them anymore. But sometimes I come across a really cool one with dope benefits, and I want to use it bc.. why not lol. But I don’t really like listening to them, so I just wrote down that I can listen to it once and after that my brain memorizes the sequence and it works it out repeatedly even when it’s not playing and I’ve definitely noticed results.

🌸manifesting my best friend’s cancer away! I already made a post about this, but this was my favorite manifestation of this year.

🌸every single one of my shifts

🌸so many free things!

🌸and so much more, but these are my favorites!

HOLY FUCKING SHIT????

I SHIFTED??????????

OMOVMOMG SO BASICALLY I WAS LISTENING TO A SHIFTING METHOD GUIDED MEDITATION OR WHATEVA AND LIKE I DIDNT THIBK ABOUT IT OR ANYTHING AND IT WAS THE JULIA METHOD SO WHEN IT GOT TO 100 I WAS HIT THIS CRAZY UNEXPLAINABLE FEELING OF FLOATING??? I CANT DESCRIBE IT BUT IT WAS CRAZY AND LIKE IT WORKED???? AAHHHHHHJAJSIJSJDJDJJFNFJ

GUYS GUYS GUYS OMG OMGGGGGGH

so I entered the void for the first time ever AHHHHHHH

but i got too excited and woke up from it 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

i did the FILD method by @gorgeouslypink and it literally happened so quickly, i was focusing on my fingers for a moment the next is literally darkness but stars were there. i genuinely yelled🥹😭 when i woke up because i wasnt able to affirming anything

literally my first ever enterance. im fuckin crying 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹 now i KNOW that I'll enter again cuz that was crazy. im im imajajxhdjwk as

edit: forgot to add this BUT i made a big bundle using @lotusmi @fleurlx and @rosellesworkshop and a bunch of other subs continuosly the past week b4 this so definitely do check out their subs cuz they're TOP TEIRR

@fleurlx BIG NEWS! AHHH IM SHAKING