Sun X Moon Signs Combinations

Nobody is your friend

Life as Jyeshta native

I've always struggled with maintaining friendships. I always considered myself to be a really good friend; putting in a ton of energy into my friends' birthdays, checking up on them regularly and always being there for them but I don't believe I've ever recieved the same energy back. Oftentimes, my so-called "friends" wouldn't even wish my happy birthday, get me anything, or plan anything for my birthday. They would rarely bother to check on me, even during COVID. I've had "friends" constantly put me down by ridiculing my physical appearance or intelligence. I've had friends purposefully leave me out of plans because I was no longer fun to be around after my grandmother passed away.

I've had "friends" that I cut off, turn around, and harrass and bully after the fact. I've had friends tell me I was 'trauma dumping' onto them whenever I decided to be vulnerable despite being there for them whenever they needed anyone to talk to, even being told I am not a "good enough support system" despite ALWAYS being there. I've generally had friends demand things of me that they were never willing to reciprocate. As a consequence, I've become quite jaded to the idea of befriending people. I realise that I don't hold friends to a degree that others do because I've seen all the worst sides of how friendship can turn out. I have a solid 5 friendships, and even then, I know they're not as great as the friendships I've witnessed in my life.

Whenever I pursue a relationship with someone, they often end up acting in ways that make me pull back, like deciding they suddenly hate me, talking behind my back, being unnecessarily hypercritical of me, telling people the things I've said to them in confidence, making fun of me behind my back, the list goes on.

On the other side of things, I've noticed an obsessiveness towards me (which I partly contributed to having a Mrigashira moon) relating to this incessant need I've realised that some people have to almost "breaking me down" or "taking me off my high horse" (even when having low confidence), especially if I've "bruised" their ego in a way. I remember two months after I stopped talking to this guy (he would constantly try to prove his intellectual superiority over me), he and his friends posted a video in which he tried to make it seem like he was never interested in me, inspite of the fact that I only started really noticing him because my friends would point out how he and his friends (sometimes in his absence) would always used to stare at me, and try to get close to me.

Thankfully, I've study people enough to recognise that the things people have criticised me about are usually the things they themselves are insecure about in themselves, so I don't take it too personally, but it does get draining.

Another thing I've noticed about the "obsessiveness" is people copying me, like A LOT (watching Claire Nakti's video of Jyeshta confirmed this to me). After adopting my entire personality, dress sense, music taste, and mannerism, these individuals would end up discarding me. It's like they would steal my very essence. That's how I felt after my last friendship that felt like this. At the end of friendship, I was a shell of myself.

Romantic relationships haven't been able to fill the void either, as I feel like the men who are evidently attracted to me always feel a need to humble me or sexualising me but not being serious about being in longterm relationships with me (definitely blame my Lilith and Pluto aspecting almost all my personal planets), and so I remain quite lonely in the world. I also have Jyeshta in the 10th house (the house public image and perception) and Lilith in the 11th house closely conjunct my venus, which opposes a Punarvasu North Node so to say relationships are difficult would be an understatement.

- This is just another unfiltered rant. I feel like one of these days, I should post something more positive but this year has been nothing but disappointment, and I always keep it real

I can't grasp what it's like to feel "Infinite"... can one really feel like pure awareness?

Q: What does it feel like to be infinite?

Lester: Absolutely no limitation in any direction whatsoever. No limitations, total freedom from everything, - needing no food, no oxygen, no job. Instantly materializing anything you want. Being anywhere in the universe. Being as tall as you want, or the size of an atom. Being at perfect peace and contentment. Being in the most delightful state possible.

Q: What happens to this body when that happens?

Lester: To really know that you should experience what you are. When you see what you are, only then do you know what the body is. It turns out to be a thought. A thought just like in a night dream, when you dreamed about being a body in a situation. And when you awoke you said. "Oh my gosh, that was all in my mind." The same thing happens to this body when you wake up from this dream, called the waking state. You see the body, but you know it to be the dream nature that it is. Do you see how much you're concerned about the body? And this point I make: Be as concerned about your infinite being as you are about your body and, if you are, you will discover that you are infinite.

Q: What I really meant was, when you are away doing these things, how does this body function?

Lester: Automatically. However, you can't be away from the "I" that you are. You're right where your "I" is. When you say "I," that's where you are. You can't get away from it, ever. Your body will change but you never will change. You don't disappear; you don't lose anything. There's no reason to fear losing your body, or losing anything. You gain more and more until you become infinite. Yet, most of us are fearful that we're going to lose our body and be nothing. That's a serious error. You could be a hundred bodies!

astro hypothesis: why i think the astro community is the way it is?

ever notice how a lot of us can't let go of grudges/drama in this community? what about the supposed cyberstalking? the fake accounts? the bullying?

i've come to blame our individual placements instead of our shared synastry. gathered in one place online there is likely an usually high amount of 8h/12h people. its a spiritual community after all - 8h loves taboo things, the occult, the unknown, dark aspects of the self, etc. 12h loves spirituality, hypotheticals, learning about karmic cycles and fate, etc. neither one is a fan of secrets and prefers to look behind the veil. myself included in that - i have 8h sun, moon, and mercury AND 12h uranus.

but 8h people are often obsessive and struggle to let things go if they aren't working with their placement(s). 12h placements are our "hidden enemies" - i realize a lot of us know who is who behind the "fake account" but often we only have another username to connect to the secondary (tertiary, etc) account and no actual real life names. neither can stand not knowing what someone is likely saying about them, so they peak at those who blocked them or who they blocked with another account.

we (humanity) hate not having control - that's why a lot of us are on here in this community to begin with. we seek understanding and making the unconscious conscious. the hunger for control is what drives a lot of people, but often 8h/12h people seek it the most. we seek it because at some point we lacked it (in terms of "trauma responses"). these placements are well known in the community for going through hardships and struggles in life - that's why a lot of us react the way we do. personally, i withdraw. i am someone who struggles to say no. i will shut down and say/do whatever i must just to survive fallout - survive the day or weekend and not get yelled at or bullied. i'm not a fan of sides - i'll pick myself if i must, as imperfect, immature, etc as i can be.

social media gives this illusion that we know each other more than we do. even when it seems like someone here has it more together than another person that doesn't make it true. we have all gone through something - we all have personal stuff going on outside of this community. no one is going to always have a perfect and mature response - it's just not how life is.

no one is perfect; we are all learning as we go. at some point, if we can't forgive and grow together, i have to wonder why we are here to begin with. this community doesn't get bigger it only gets smaller when we are picking sides, blocking each other, etc. do what you have to do to protect your peace, but let's stop perpetuating hatred with anons and multiple accounts. give grace. be kind.

thanks for listening to me ramble.

-a.d.

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i always see (more in the subliminal community) people asking how to know when their subconcious mind is fully reprogrammed and people always say it depends on the person but the real answer is when ur 3d reflects your desire because once you fully reprogram your subconcious mind, your 3d has no choice but to obey.

but the reason im saying this is because at this point in my void journey, i understand loa and have manifested things. you can check my earliest posts but i was anti-loa, but as time went on, i understood loa and i have manifested a few things here and there (a few impossible stuff). however, i still haven't woken up in the void. and why is that?

well in the beginning of my void journey i was anti-loa right? and guess what was happening in my life? i couldn't manifest to save my life. i couldn't even manifest seeing a butterfly if i wanted to. that's what's was being shown in my 3d. and what is my 3d? it's just a reflection of my 4d. but as I slowly learned more and started working on my self concept i started consciously manifesting in my favor and now I'm getting better and better. that's what is being shown in my 3d. and what is my 3d? it's just a reflection of my 4d.

and the void? well I want to say that I have a good void concept but that is not what's being shown in my 3d. and what is my 3d? it's just a reflection of my 4d.

so let me take a serious look at just one of my subconcious beliefs that I believe is stopping me from waking up in the void and address it and i know some of you will relate:

"I'm so jealous of people who just listen to a subliminal for 10 minutes and wake up in the void state. I wish it was that easy for me"

this is something I say all the time. but yk what this reveals. it reveals i subconsciously don't believe that the void can be easy for me, that I don't believe subliminals will work for me, and that I don't belive i will wake up in the void.

why do I believe the void has to be hard for me? ive seen so many success stories of people waking up in the void, even with the subliminal that I purchased, so why do I somehow think it's possible for everyone but me?

i used to think I had a good void concept but I do not and it's things like this that start giving it away but the most conclusive way is to think abt your desire and then look at your 3d. if your desire exists in ur 3d, you havea good self concept regarding it. if not, somethings wrong. what u want and what u think are not matching up.

and the truth is until i truly believe the void is easy and I always wake up in the void, it's never going to happen because that's literally the law.

Pushya is considered as auspicious nakshatra but it makes the native go through some really tough battles, it's ruled by saturn after all .

Also I have seen that this nakshatra in big 3 gives a strained relationship with your father.

Do ya'll have this placement, if yes do you resonate with this🪷🪷🪷

why am i struggling?: a personal note

why would we struggle? we found out about the infinite power all of us have within ourselves so why are you still having problems? why would you still care about the 3d? why would you get anxious or nervous about the external world when YOU are the creator of all of this?

the house you are living in, the way your parents treat you, the clothes you are dressing, the hair you have, the body you so used to complain about THEY ARE ALL YOUR CREATION!!!!!!! and the same way you created those and accepted the fact that you and your life are like that YOU CAN CHANGE EVERYTHING OVERNIGHT AND ACCEPT THAT YOU ARE ALREADY THE PERSON YOU DREAM TO BE!!!!!!

sick of your reality? shift.

sick of your hair color? manifest it to be another color

everything is easy like that AND WHY DONT YOU ACCEPT THAT EVERYTHING IS THAT EASY??????????

you want the face you photoshopped to visualize as your dream face and have on your lockscreen? YOU HAVE IT

want to be the best kpop idol in the whole world? the biggest the industry has ever saw? DAMN GIRL YOU GOT IT

want to date that famous guy you love so much????? HE’S YOURS ALREADY

so again WHY ARE YOU ANXIOUS WHY ARE YOU STRUGGLING WHY ARE YOU ACTING LIKE YOU ARE A VICTIM WHEN NOW YOU CAN HAVE EVERYTHING YOU WANT RIGHT NOW BECAUSE NOW YOU KNOW YOU ARE GOD??????????

everything is so easy, DO NOT let anyone and even your current mindset tell you otherwise, YOU ARE GOD! YOU WANT IT YOU GOT IT! you are more powerful then you can ever think about and you don’t need to move one finger to have anything because your biggest treasure is your imagination.

imagine it, have it. that’s all.

Void Success Archive

Current status: Partially active - will post when I have spare time

Details on this blog:

My goal is for this blog to be a source of help & motivation for the void state & manifesting (you don't have to enter the void to manifest any of the things in these stories, shifting & non-void manifestation stories show that)

Stories I'm archiving: ones that include details about what they manifested and/or helpful information on how they entered. To maintain quality, I won't archive stories if: I don't think they're particularly helpful, they're wildly NSFW/inappropriate or I feel they may not have entered the void.

If you see a 2023 story I haven't reblogged, feel free to tag me so I'll see it (though noting the above, I may not archive it if it doesn't fit my criteria).

2023 Archive (ordered by date originally posted or closest estimate):

January

February

March

April

May

June

2023 Stats:

Currently archived up to: 5th June 2023

Total unique archived success stories so far: 188

Other:

2021 & 2022 Archive (in progress as a long-term project)

Quotes from the Archive

My sucess story

Trigger Warning: Abusive, homophobia, mentions of suicide

Hey there, Maya! I just had to take a moment and express my appreciation for all the fantastic posts you put out. I can now confirm, without a shadow of a doubt, that shifting is real, manifesting is real, and so is the void. Our desires and ambitions aren't in vain.

I've been part of the shifting community since 2020 when it exploded on TikTok. It might not matter much, but as a gay man, I rarely saw other guys in the community (though Reddit and Amino have a more diverse crowd). I've always felt more comfortable in women-centric spaces because they tend to be less judgmental.

I never saw success stories from guys, especially the kind I wanted to see - like waking up in a new world, not just manifesting money or a girlfriend (or boyfriend in my case >.<). I've always been spiritual and interested in witchcraft, voodoo, deities, and now manifesting and shifting. But it felt like nothing would let me shift.

Growing up with homophobic and physically abusive parents, struggling with poverty, depression, homelessness, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, and more, I began to feel like you could only manifest and shift if your life was okay. I didn't have the luxury of time or safety to practice methods, constantly dealing with noise, verbal abuse, or physical violence.

Then, I read this post

https://www.reddit.com/r/shiftingrealities/comments/14v4lw3/how_to_shift_the_next_time_you_go_to_sleep/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=ios_app&utm_name=ioscss&utm_content=2&utm_term=1

It led me to your Tumblr because OP used some of your old posts and talked about the concept of the void. All searched lead to tumblr. A couple of months ago (2.5 ish) after one of the worst days of my life, I went to bed sobbing, trying to block out the noise around me, praying and crying for anything - death, shifting, a new identity...

Everything around me started to fade - it was as if I was being engulfed by a white, serene blanket of nothingness. It was completely silent, and I couldn't see or feel anything. The only thing that seemed to persist was my awareness.

Now, I've read about the void before, but mostly in the context of it being a black, empty space. So, I'm not entirely sure if what I experienced was indeed the void or something altogether different. The concept still baffles me a bit, but I'm learning and growing through these experiences.

Regardless of where I was, my heart was set on reaching my dr.I kept praying and hoping, to wake up in my DR.

I woke up in my Twitch streamer DR! I found myself in a completely unfamiliar yet perfect place. My room was equipped with a high-end PC, top-notch gaming gear, and quaint decor items. Milo, my dog, was there too. I was sharing a mansion in LA with my boyfriend and four other streamers. The house was beyond my imagination, and streaming here was a dream come true. As night fell, my friends and I explored the vibrant LA nightlife, creating lasting memories.

After a week, i can’t lie I almost forgot I had shifted here. Then, I set an intention to shift back into this reality but where I had moved out, lived with my best friend and their supportive parents, mastered shifting and manifesting, had my desired looks, and money came easily to me. And it worked!

Since then, I've been living my best boujee gay life, and I shift all the time. I even created a waiting room where I'm immortal and use it whenever I need a break. I wish I could offer better advice, but like everyone says, there isn't a key to shifting. It's different for everyone. But you can and will shift. You can manifest your dream life. You can and deserve to be happy

Oh my god, I'm so happy for you, love 💕💕. I also completely related to what you felt. I know it can seem like your circumstances are holding you back, but believe me when I say this - that couldn't be further from the truth.

It's that same resilience, and your ability to persist despite the odds, that paved the way to your dream life. There’s nothing, I mean nothing that can stop you. Not wavering, crying, or doubt. Nothing. If you want it, it’s yours.

Your Venus sign/degree and what colour looks good on you! pt.2!

Venus in Scorpio: Scorpio Venus PLEASE wear black or some dark colour 😭 y'all always look good in it bye...

Venus in Sagittarius: This colour might be unexpected but Purple! Purple really represent's Sag's usual characteristic lol.

Venus in Capricorn: Again I feel like Earth signs look good in more "earthy colours" so maybe browns, greys, would look good on a Capricon Venus or even a Capricorn rising.

Venus in Aquarius: Neon colours or anything kinda crazy (just make it look good omg) Nicki Minaj is an Aquarius Rising and neon colours just look great on her! If you wanna keep it simple a nice blue would do you well.

Venus in Pisces: Aquamarine, light green,turquoise perhapes!

Sorry it took me a bit late and this may seemed rush I'm still not feeling well but I did;t want any of y'all waiting!