I've Been So Busy With Schoolwork And Studying That I Forgot My Baby's Birthday. I Have Vacation Now,

I've been so busy with schoolwork and studying that I forgot my baby's birthday. I have vacation now, but since it's my fucking account, I do what I want. Today is April 9th ​​for me.

Happy birthday Eric.♡. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁˖ . ݁

I've felt like i understand you so much, almost as if i can see the root of your pain because i felt the same pain as you, the same anger when i was teenanger.

I feel like you weren't appreciated, that you tried (in your own way) to fight back, and no one listened. You were painted as a monster, and no one wanted to see the real you...

You tried to be strong by hiding your pain behind a facade of hatred, and that's more painful than directly exposing the pain because you can't even let it out, and when you did, you weren't heard and weren't allowed to be heard.

I wish you had felt loved in life... that you could have seen how valuable you were because there was beauty in you.

Society destroyed you, and you decided to destroy in response because you couldn't find a way out, because no one wanted to give you one, but you searched and fought, and i know that...

The moments where you were honest, where you cried for your parents and cried for missing your old friends, even when you were no longer here, society tried to erase that, as if it hadn't happened, they painted you as a heartless psychopath.

You had a heart, so much so that you were broken inside. Your heart was there and you showed it... You cried for your parents and your friends, you shared your problems with a therapist in an attempt to get help, you stayed home taking care of your sick dog, and in the goodbye tape, you dedicated that Fly CD to Susan even though you already knew it was the end.

Society didn't want to humanize you, but your humanity were always there. Many of us here know that, and now you are no longer alone...