B0gdasha - BogdashA

HOLY MOLY

Just wanted to thank you for supporting me and my blog, I didn't think I'll meet so many cool people here who are proship as well, like, that's insane to me! I appreciate all your kind words and attention you give me, I couldn't even open up to my closest friends about this, but I can finally be myself here, with you, who accept me for who I am. And I want to thank you for this. Thank you, genuinely, for everything, I hope we will get along in future as well ❤️‍🩹

To be honest I didn't count on anything creating this blog, but you made me feel safe, welcomed and loved, I think I'm settling in Tumblr, and I like that. I feel like you are now an important part of my life — for now, at least, and I'm insanely grateful for that

GUESS WHO'S BACK AFTER BEING TERMINATED FOR 9 MONTHS OMG IM SO GLAD TO SEE YOU ALL AGAIN

Support saw my application just a few days ago while my account was terminated/banned since autumn and I could do literally nothing IM FINALLY FREEEEEEEEE and I hope I'll come back with some interesting content later, but now I'll just repost things I posted before to get used to Tumblr again yeeee omg it's time to go back to comment others 24/7

Hey there guys, it's been a while since I've posted there!! Sorry for being dead for months </3

Some reasons why I was inactive here:

I was busy with my job as a souvenir artist, and I really loved my job!! The coworkers were really sweet and supportive and I always wanted to make money by being an artist/painter. But the salary was wayyyy too little (literally 30$ per MONTH), so I quit it. It was fun while it lasted though!

I became more interested in other social media and apps (like TikTok, Pinterest, Taobao/Xianyu, Telegram, YouTube etc) than in Tumblr. I use Tumblr for proship content only (because let's be honest, if some content maker will see a 🌈🍖 combo, they will instantly block me, so it's not really safe for me to interact with people I like here), so for fandoms and jsf stuff I use other social media, where nobody knows I'm a proship — that's just how people treat proships nowadays unfortunately

I was more focused on interacting with friends and acquaintances and on visiting some real live events rather than being on the internet all days long

Severe depression makes itself felt, and I ran out of ideas and motivation for blogging and art, not only in Tumblr but also in general. It's really tough for me, and I feel really bad for abandoning my Tumblr, but it's how your mental health affects almost every aspect of your life. But I hope I'll get better some day!!

And the main reason is... I got really tired of this ship discourse. Too many people, especially antis, fight each other, there is too much information, discourses and controversies, it's literally draining me as a person. I'm not planning on quitting proship community though, and even if I'm inactive in it, just know that I am still a proship and I stand by its ideas. It's just that I'm so tired of seeing people dehumanize, insult, threaten and groundlessly accuse proshippers in crimes like grooming and CSAing because of their fiction preferences so openly and unconscionably... I don't know. It's so unfair. I just hope one day people like this will realize that they do really wrong, and it will change for better

I'm not saying I'm completely abandoning this page though! I don't know what to do with it now, it's true, but maybe one day I'll be able to post here more often and frequently, so if you're interested, stay tuned! That's it for now I think. Remember, you deserve to be treated as a decent human being as long as you don't harm anyone on purpose, and it's not harmful to think every ship has its right to exist <3 I love you guys, you are the best

Perhaps it will be a bitter pill to swallow for most people but something needs to be said:

As we say in russian:

Если вокруг тебя везде воняет говном, значит ты обосрался

(if it smells like crap everywhere then it's you who shat yourself)

I HATE tiktok and the Internet in general rn for the obsession with "oh this person's smellyyy" "Brother it STINKS over here" "BOO 💧🧼🧽🚿" and stuff like that. I wish I could put into words how demeaning and patronising that whole idea is and people implying anyone they don't like doesn't wash.

For one there's something grating about being insulted in a manner like we're in nursery again. But also WHY is that the go to insult. Why do you associate these things? Especially to those you deem "chronically online". Like I don't want to sound pathetic but it feels so nasty to me.

is it extreme to say this feels tied to ableism? And classism too?

Credits: cheucer on tt

Okay but which one of them is you tho

For me it's almost ALWAYS noncon/rape and I want to know how many people feel similar

Sexual abuse topics in any way make me super uncomfortable/sometimes triggered and I can't take it normally, I'm too sensitive for this😭 I can't take it as something interesting or entertaining in terms of ships (personally), even though I can see it being portrayed in certain media (like killing stalking) really interestingly; I may like it when it's portrayed for the sake of thriller media and/or for bold rape representation, but not for the sake of fanservice or something...

And it's pretty funny because in proship spaces it looks like EVERYONE ships something nonconish lmao 😭 and it's mostly true, many comshippers are into it, so I'm like "well, I'm alone in this sea I suppose"