The Last Messiah, Peter Wessel Zapffe

The legacies people leave behind in you.

My handwriting is the same style as the teacher’s who I had when I was nine. I’m now twenty one and he’s been dead eight years but my i’s still curve the same way as his.

I watched the last season of a TV show recently but I started it with my friend in high school. We haven’t spoken in four years.

I make lentil soup through the recipe my gran gave me.

I curl my hair the way my best friend showed me.

I learned to love books because my father loved them first.

How terrifying, how excruciatingly painful to acknowledge this. That I am a jigsaw puzzle of everyone I have briefly known and loved. I carry them on with me even if I don’t know it. How beautiful.

“Everything I’ve ever let go of has claw marks on it.”

— David Foster Wallace / Infinite Jest

turns out I’ll always carry my 15 year old self. silly me

this made me cry so now i need everyone to see it

“I didn’t yearn for anything but privacy, because it is an embarrassment to be a wound in public.”

— Billy-Ray Belcourt, from A History of My Brief Body

training by Diannely Antigua

Missed Time, Ha Jin

sneaking onto the reservoir again by Robert Wood Lynn

“please don’t come closer unless you plan to stay”

— Unknown