I Think The Funniest And Realist Thing I’ve Realized Lately Is How Troubling Idealization Can Be. Every

{Words by Anaïs Nin, from The Diary Of Anais Nin, Vol. 4 (1944-1947) / Cynthia Cruz from diagnosis,The glimmering room}

Maybe if I hadn’t been so afraid of rejection I could’ve shown you how much love I had in store.

k.b. // i missed my chance tho (via whendidmythoughtsgocrazy)

Mahmoud Darwish, from Unfortunately, It Was Paradise: Selected Poems; “The Hoopoe,”

Tony Hoagland, from “Peaceful Transition”, What Narcissism Means to Me

“One day it just clicks… You realise what is important and what isn’t, you learn to care less about what other people think of you and care more about what you think of yourself. You realise how far you have come and you remember thinking that things were such a mess they’d never recover and then you smile. You smile because you’re truly proud of the person you have fought to become.”

— Unknown

Y’all it’s so important to know in DETAIL the expensive stuff you like. Don’t let that man ask you what are you drinking and you don’t know your Chardonnay from your Riesling meanwhile he knows exactly how he likes his martini prepared down to the number of olives 😭😭

Don’t embarrass yourself and take this course on grapes

It’s really good plus you become 100X hotter when you know your reds babe 😘

𝐏𝐫𝐨𝐣𝐞𝐜𝐭 "𝐈𝐓" 𝐆𝐢𝐫𝐥 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟐

It’s always been my dream to be viewed as a living goddess. When anyone encounters me, I want them to feel as though they have just come in contact with an ethereal being. Someone who is so uniquely feminine, elegant, skillful, kind, elegant, and charming. I want them to be captivated by my beauty and enraptured by my intellect. There is no spell that can accomplish this. Only dedicated and precise hard work. You have to be dedicated. You have to show up for yourself every day, even when you’re tired. Even when you’re sad. Even when you feel totally uninspired. Put in the work for what you want. Here is your guide.

𝐒𝐏𝐈𝐑𝐈𝐓

Start the day off by thanking God for all of your blessings that are tangible and intangible. Starting the day off with a grateful heart is step 1 to having a great day!

Literally, stay prayed up in everything you do. If something feels wrong (or even if something feels right) consult with God about it. Let Him be the governing force in your life. Lean more on his word than your own understanding. (1 Thessalonians 5:16-18)

Read your Bible every day. Utilize the guidebook that helps you read the whole bible in one year. Utilize the S.O.A.P method to study and get a firm understanding of what God says and what he expects of us.

Read Christian literature by reputable authors. Books that will help you strengthen your faith, become a woman of God, who is secure in her faith and in herself. Books that will help you become a better servant and a kinder person. (For example: The Esther Anointing by Michelle McClain-Walters)

Supplement some of the entertainment you indulge in now with Christian music and podcasts (from reputable creators)

Attend church every Sunday and once schedule allows, attend Tuesday young adult ministry

Serve in the church in some capacity. Preferably in youth ministry, but wherever the help is needed.

Have a prayer network— friends who can call on one another whenever they need prayer (Matthew 18:20)

– Simone de Beauvoir

it’s the idea that god creates people only to destroy them for me

dark academia aesthetic tips

what to wear:

turtlenecks, sweaters, and blazers

dark, muted tones. black, brown, emerald green, caramel, rust, dark red, and plaid

wire frame glasses

short neat fingernails

mid-length/long skirts

belts that match your shoes

knee high socks

what to do:

read literature and poetry. when you come across a word you don’t know, look it up and add it to your vocabulary

start the morning with a hot drink, like coffee, tea, or cocoa. preferably at a coffee shop you go to routinely

spend a lot of time at the library. become familiar with the hallways and shelves, and find a favorite spot.

keep lit candles in your apartment. steer away from floral scents!

become familiar with the local art museums. when hanging out with friends or a lover, you’ll find it romantic and timeless.

find a favorite author. familiarize yourself with their work and how they formulate their ideas. 

start a studyblr or studygram, something to inspire others.

connect with your classmates and professors. learn what they love to study, and look into it.

sit outside on a stone bench and read philosophy. discuss it with your friends during deep discussions at midnight.