Sometimes, I Make Silly Little Things Connected With My Memories Or Fandoms That Interested Me..

which fetish is like the flimsy lime-colored palm bit

come play weird fetishes with me like theyre bionicles. we can mix and match

1st image:

Punta de Hidalgo lighthouse, by Ramiro Rodriguez-Borlado (1994).

Tenerife - Canary Islands, Spain.

© Roberto Conte (2023)

2nd image:

One of the "arkhitektons" by the Russian artist Kazimir Malevich, a series of models of avant-garde architecture produced from 1923 to the early 1930s and a way to apply to the three dimensions the principles of suprematism.

Moscow, Russia.

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I think whoever decided that counting cards in blackjack is "cheating" used to be one of those kids who unplugged the playstation whenever he started to lose

to me the deserter seemed personally important because as an eastern european, i have met this guy irl. he is intensely familiar, down to the phrasing, sometimes (the whole "a liberal and a pederast" bit, oof) and DE acknowledges this literal old communist on an uninhabited island, acknowledges the reasons why he is the way that he is, and just straight up tells you "you cannot be this way. you have to find a way to become something else". that last bit is the difficult part, of course

playing disco elysium for the first time felt so familiar because it was made by communists. i kept getting the feeling of - i see you! i know you! every time i came across encyclopedia worldbuilding checks and recognized the tools of historical materialism brilliantly used. i wince when i see people describe DE as just being ironic about communism or whatever - no! this is the most communist game ive ever played!

sometimes i see people point to the deserter's character as evidence that DE isn't truly a communist work, but i don't think the deserter is meant to be a paragon of communism in the game. he's a revolutionary stuck in the past and that is his grave error. "The material base for an uprising has ended," "The historical condition for a revolutionary opportunity has passed. It will not come back anymore. However hard I try, whatever I do." but everything you've seen the game proves his statement wrong. DE's world still has the objective conditions for revolution because the working masses are sick of all the ruling order's shit, and there are plentiful opportunities to develop the subjective forces as we see in the communist quest that young people are willing to continue the communist struggle. but the deserter cant see that from his position and his trauma - ultimately this is what makes him fail as a communist because he has let go of the basic principles: that world is always changing; that change is made by people, through class struggle; that a communist must always be grounded and alert of their own material context.

the scene in the communist quest where you get through to steban and it tells you that "you're witnessing his ironic armor melt before you" - i think that was the devs taking their ironic mask off, too. i believe that because steban's reasons for his communism are the same as mine. we have to struggle even if it's hard and even if they kill us because this is what keeps us human. to struggle for freedom is the next best thing to actually being free. to fight for communism is to fight for the future. it is not about being imprisoned by failures of the past. in fact it IS about failure - because the movement is the working class's school in the struggle for power and we need to learn from each failure and move forward.

i just know that if my comrades and i were somehow in a room with the devs and we had to sing the internationale, we would all know the words. in different languages, but we'll sing the same melody and when we get to the part, the word "international" will be sung in unison. do you get me? i think disco elysium is to some young game-savvy communists of the world today as "what is to be done" was to lenin's generation. something something international communist solidarity...

my fave quote from the game :>

i think a big part of the reason i love de is that it always affirms the things in themselves. there is a temptation, when a core part of your outlook on the world collapses, to look at everything that exists and say "well, what is the point of you, then? do you even mean anything anymore?" and it says yes, it does. the things - the lights, the clinking of cups, the smoke, the cold, the colors that make up the picture - just being - it has value, the things mean themselves if nothing else. it is what it is, and what it is is enough.

I'm actually really touched by this scene, which you only get if you're with Cuno or alone in the end:

You think you're going to be abandoned, but then a bunch of skills jump out to encourage you in their own way.

And all the options you get except the last one are positive.

me: I have GOT to get weirder!

also me when I do get weirder: *visibly shaking* I'm going to be killed with hammers by everyone for being a freak.

i love those blinking red lights they put on top of radio towers and windmills and skyscrapers etc, theyre like electronic flowers or something to me

she said the thing